“Silenced Screams”

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I am
Tired of
Screaming
At the top
Of my lungs
Going hoarse
Yelling
Stop
Pushing
Pulling
Beating
On me
Blaming me
For what
I have not
Done
Shaming me
For who
I am
I am not
An object
No one’s property
I am human
Hear me
See me
Respect
My space
I am
Here
To stay
Even if
I am
Frightened
Of what
You have
Planned for me
Understand
I was not
Born
To be
Your victim
To be terrorized
To be treated
Like nothing
I am not guilty
Of anything
Besides
Existing
Give me
A fair hearing
An opportunity
To use my freedom
Of speech
To fight
For my honor
So I can
Protect myself
My name
My spirit
My body
From being shackled
To your hate
Let me
Be heard
Not judged
By whatever
Image that
You assume
That is me
Because of
My gender
My color
My religion
Get to know
Me
Hear my story
Before assuming
I am a danger
I am not
A collective
I am
A individual
See me
As that

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Trapped By Pain’s Games”

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More intimate
Than any
Of my relationships
It has been
Part of me
It knows me
Inside
And
Out
Pain
A sneaky
Cunning
Scheming
Devious
Deceitful
Unscrupulous
Son of a *itch
Has either
Been
My tormentor
Torturing me
Trying to break me
Into nothingness
Or
My lover
Loving on me
Caressing me
Sending me
Into ecstasy
Then causing
Me to cry
Afterwards
Because it
Walked out
Leaving me
For just
A moment
So I could
Panic
And
Think it
Is not coming back
It has been
Doing this
Continuously
Around the clock
Nonstop
My whole life
I can not
Escape from it
I have tried
Advoidance
Acceptance
Denial
Nothing has worked
I have
Noticed
It waits
When I feel
I am happy
It is gone
Then
It comes back
With a vengeance
Changing
Its face
And
Its strategy
To reenter
Into my life
Pain’s
Message to me
Is
It is not
Going anywhere
This burden
Will be
My baggage
That is not
Fully unpacked
Pouring out
Like
A bottomless pit
The contents
Are scattering
All around me
Boxing me in
So I can not
Move
It just
Wants me
To know
I can not
Run from it
It has me
And
Will not
Let go
NEVER

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Do The Hard-work Or Settle”

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No one
Is giving
Out manuals
On how
To accomplish
Your dreams
And
Many childhood
Dreams
Are getting broken
And crushed
So let us recap
When you was
A child
The sky
Could not
Limit you
You wanted
The galaxy
Filled with
All the stars
And
Every planet
To be
Something
That was
Colossal
Close to
Monumental
To be someone
Bigger than life
Living out
Your dreams
Being who
You wanted
To be
Your creativity
Was on point
It was filled with
Truth
Purpose
And innocence
Your imagination
Had no limits
You could be
Anything
Everything was
At your fingertips
But something
Changed
Through trial
And tribulations
While becoming
An adult
Reality started
To diminish
Your plans
Turning them
Into a nightmare
You got scared
Of the dark
You began
To settle
Being consumed
Into your life
You turned into
Someone
Who did
Something
Out of necessity
Moving further away
From the light
You did not
Anticipate
You had to
Do hard labor
To get
Where you
Wanted to be
In life
Everyone has to
Pay their dues
One way
Or another
And
Some may have
To pay more
Than others
That is just
Your price
To your success
Do the work
Or settle
It will
Always be
Your choice
Life has
No manual
So stop
Looking for it
To find guidance

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Lying For No Reason”

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Let’s stop
Fighting
For this
Faded memory
Full of lies
And deception
I can see
Clearly now
Your cruel
Intentions
My brain
Is working
And piecing
Together
What my heart
Couldn’t
In the beginning
Now that
It is hurting
And
Close to empty
You was never
Into me
You used me
I get it
I am just
Another body
In a rubble
With other
Broken hearted
Women
You are a risk
To my sanity
Telling lies
For no reason
It’s a game
That’s life
Or death
For me
It’s affecting
My emotions
My nerves are shot
I’m going mental
With all
The petty
Head games
You are playing
Saying that
You love me
But deep down
You hate me
When you keep
Sending me
Through
A gauntlet
Of trained killers
Waiting
Ready to
Shoot me
In the
Head
Or
In my chest
Out of mercy

-Yellowbonewonda

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