“Silenced Screams”

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I am
Tired of
Screaming
At the top
Of my lungs
Going hoarse
Yelling
Stop
Pushing
Pulling
Beating
On me
Blaming me
For what
I have not
Done
Shaming me
For who
I am
I am not
An object
No one’s property
I am human
Hear me
See me
Respect
My space
I am
Here
To stay
Even if
I am
Frightened
Of what
You have
Planned for me
Understand
I was not
Born
To be
Your victim
To be terrorized
To be treated
Like nothing
I am not guilty
Of anything
Besides
Existing
Give me
A fair hearing
An opportunity
To use my freedom
Of speech
To fight
For my honor
So I can
Protect myself
My name
My spirit
My body
From being shackled
To your hate
Let me
Be heard
Not judged
By whatever
Image that
You assume
That is me
Because of
My gender
My color
My religion
Get to know
Me
Hear my story
Before assuming
I am a danger
I am not
A collective
I am
A individual
See me
As that

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Human Doormat”

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How
Can you
Continue through
Life
Being
Disrespected
Unappreciated
Taken advantaged of
Everyday of
Your life
Question
When did you
Sorry
Do not answer
That question
Because
I have realized
Maybe
You have not
Noticed
That you are
A human doormat
So
I need you to
Come with me
Let me
Show you
Look in
This mirror
Do you see
Your dignity
Do you see
You are
Floating around
In denial
And
To be clear
Not the river
It is
Your form of mind
Your perspectives
Are off
When you choose
To please
Everyone
In this world
Not seeing
Your worth
By
Allowing
Dirt to
Be wiped
On you
Allowing
People
To walk all
Over you
Do you understand
Nobody
Will care
About your
Feelings
Being hurt
Or
See that
It is
Physically
Emotionally
Mentally
Wearing you out
Your kindness
Is beautiful
But
It is
Your weakness
To them
That they are
Willing to
Kill slowly
It is
Every time
They use you
Please
Stop ignoring
This
You can be
Kind
But
Be smart
About it
You are
A person
With feelings
If you do not
Speak up
No one
Will respect
Them

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Faces Inside Shadows”

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When you are
Sprinting
From the shadows
Trying
To escape
Your nightmares
Who are you
Running from
What is
Haunting
Stalking
Causing that
Fear inside
Of you
I see
The panic
On you face
So
What faces are
Surrounding you
What skeletons are
In your closet
That are
Peeking out
Scaring you
Into hysterics
Making you
A raving maniac
That is
Incoherent
And
Gasping
For air
Is it
Your enemies
Is it
Your victims
Is it
Your conscious
Because
I know
It is
Not me
Tell me
What can
I do
To help
How can I
Protect you
From the demons
Chasing you
How can I be
The
Heroin
In your story
I want to
Comfort you
Love you
Give you
Peace
And
Security
Please
Talk to me
I can
Be your
Haven
Your freedom

-Yellowbonewonda

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“All Kernels Are Not The Same”

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Usually
When I speak
Whatever words
That just happen
To be
At the tip
Of my tongue
Are the one’s
To be said
But when
I write
It is more
Difficult
I have
To create
Something
So awesome
That will be
A wonderful
Haunting
That is
Easily
Remembered
That
Triggers
Forgotten
Memories
Buried
Deep inside
Someone’s head
So I take
Several pauses
Sitting in silence
So I can hear
What is screaming
Inside of me
Wanting
To get
Out of me
Words
That are
Eagerly
Popping
To the surface
Trying to
Get
Written
On paper
Then scrambled
And
Mixed
A million
Times over
Until it feels
Just right
To publish
To the public
Leaving
A piece of
Me
With it
A sliver of
My soul
To be seen
On the internet

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Trapped By Pain’s Games”

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More intimate
Than any
Of my relationships
It has been
Part of me
It knows me
Inside
And
Out
Pain
A sneaky
Cunning
Scheming
Devious
Deceitful
Unscrupulous
Son of a *itch
Has either
Been
My tormentor
Torturing me
Trying to break me
Into nothingness
Or
My lover
Loving on me
Caressing me
Sending me
Into ecstasy
Then causing
Me to cry
Afterwards
Because it
Walked out
Leaving me
For just
A moment
So I could
Panic
And
Think it
Is not coming back
It has been
Doing this
Continuously
Around the clock
Nonstop
My whole life
I can not
Escape from it
I have tried
Advoidance
Acceptance
Denial
Nothing has worked
I have
Noticed
It waits
When I feel
I am happy
It is gone
Then
It comes back
With a vengeance
Changing
Its face
And
Its strategy
To reenter
Into my life
Pain’s
Message to me
Is
It is not
Going anywhere
This burden
Will be
My baggage
That is not
Fully unpacked
Pouring out
Like
A bottomless pit
The contents
Are scattering
All around me
Boxing me in
So I can not
Move
It just
Wants me
To know
I can not
Run from it
It has me
And
Will not
Let go
NEVER

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Trapped In My Feelings”

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You continue
To put
Everyone
Above me
I do not remember
The last time
You said me
You loved me
Gone on a date
Taking me
To dinner
Dancing the night away
Then
Making love
Until we were
So spent
That we were
Left
In a love coma
It is
Been so long
That you
Have been looking
Right through me
I can not
Take this
Anymore
Masquerading
As if
We are happy
I am so tired
Of hearing
You tell me
I am
In my feelings
I am
In them
I stay
In them
Because of you
And
I have been
Wondering
Why
Am I here
In this house
In this life
With you
You do not
Appreciate me
I cook
I clean
I do everything
To keep
This family
Together
And everyday
You refuse to
Lift a finger
I am exhausted
Catering to
Your every whim
I am not
The hired help
You are not
Paying me
I am your lover
I am so angry
With you
I am
Tempted to
Choke you
Drain the life
Out of you
Then
Resuscitate you
So
I can ask you
How hell feels
And if
Your friends
Were there
Waiting for you
Since
The sun
And
The moon
Sets with them
Leaving me
In this darkness
Being
In love with
A man that
Does not
Love me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Ultimate Commitment”

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Marriage
Is not like
Underwear
That you can
Change
Once it
Gets dirty
Torn and raggly
Marriage
Is the
Ultimate level
Of commitment
With no
Games
Lies
Secrets
Between
Two people
Coming together
To be a unit
But some people
Forget to use
Their vows
As a
Guidance
To help them
To grow
And
Intertwine
Into each other
Although simple
It has complexity
In it
If you
Do not
Believe
And
Are not able
To live
These words
Whole heartedly
Then please
Do not
Say these words
Below this verse
To another
For better
For worse
For richer
For poorer
In sickness
In health
To love
To cherish
Till death
Us do part
This is a
Powerful promise
That should not
Be taken lightly
Loving
Someone
That is human
You will have
Fight for them
On a daily
Waking up
And choosing
Again
And
Again
Without
A doubt
To be together
Forever
Committing
Yourself
To having
Being
And
Raising
A family
Only together

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Daytime/Nighttime Misery”

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It is usually
When sunlight
Peaks through
Everyone’s windows
Waking up
Those doing
The nine to five
Work creep
When they
May come
To me
I am
On their schedule
They do not care
If I sleep
Those sleep sheep
Assigned to me
Are some
Temperamental
Little bastards
They did
This to me
They come
When they come
Unbeknownst to me
So every night
I am fighting
And losing
Night time
To sleep
So I had
To adjust
To dozing
In the daytime
But like clockwork
Eyes close
Phone rings
I answer
Deliriously
My mind is
Jumbling up
Words
I can not
Speak
Nor
Think
I do not
Understand
The language
Anyone is
Speaking to me
It is like
Hearing
White noise
From a TV station
That has gone
To sleep
I have no
Comprehension
Of what is
Being asked
Of me
I am so tired
Of being tired
I beg you
Could you
Just let me
Sleep
I do not remember
Ever having
Eight hours
Of unirrupted sleep
I am not
A dayriser
I am
A night crawler
Now
So your timetable
Does not pertain
To me
Please do adjust
Your communication
With me
Do not call
Pop up
Or
Include me
In any
Daytime activities
I will be
Sleep

-Yellowbonewonda

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“No Means No”

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No is
Defined in the
Dictionary
The definition is
Not at all
To no extent
Therefore
No means no
Not maybe
Not yes
So why
Do people
Find a way
Around it
Trying to
Wiggle through
Little cracks
In my armour
To take advantage
Of the
Little
Patience
I have left
For those people
That are
Playing deaf
Dumb
And
Are
Irritating me
On a daily
Saying
I did not
Mean
What I said
When I said
No
To them
I am
In no mood
Of repeating
Myself
So move on
Be done
With this
Mess
Because
You will
Never win
This argument 
With me
No is
A word that
Is self explanatory
Just listen
Closely
And stop
Trying
To change
The answer
I’m giving
Understand
Now
You are
Trying
To move
A wild elephant
And I’m going
To move
When
I am
Good
Damn
And ready
To
So stop
Pushing
Before
My foot
Crushes you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Do The Hard-work Or Settle”

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No one
Is giving
Out manuals
On how
To accomplish
Your dreams
And
Many childhood
Dreams
Are getting broken
And crushed
So let us recap
When you was
A child
The sky
Could not
Limit you
You wanted
The galaxy
Filled with
All the stars
And
Every planet
To be
Something
That was
Colossal
Close to
Monumental
To be someone
Bigger than life
Living out
Your dreams
Being who
You wanted
To be
Your creativity
Was on point
It was filled with
Truth
Purpose
And innocence
Your imagination
Had no limits
You could be
Anything
Everything was
At your fingertips
But something
Changed
Through trial
And tribulations
While becoming
An adult
Reality started
To diminish
Your plans
Turning them
Into a nightmare
You got scared
Of the dark
You began
To settle
Being consumed
Into your life
You turned into
Someone
Who did
Something
Out of necessity
Moving further away
From the light
You did not
Anticipate
You had to
Do hard labor
To get
Where you
Wanted to be
In life
Everyone has to
Pay their dues
One way
Or another
And
Some may have
To pay more
Than others
That is just
Your price
To your success
Do the work
Or settle
It will
Always be
Your choice
Life has
No manual
So stop
Looking for it
To find guidance

-Yellowbonewonda

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“You Slither You Die”

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The good
That may be
In you
I do not see it
Or pretend to
I am not deaf
Blind
And/or dense
To let you
Gain entrance
Once again
Into the garden
I created
For myself
So stop thinking
I am weak
From your
Attacks
I still
Have plenty
Fight in me
I am ready
To fight
To the death
Coral snakes
Copperheads
Cottonmouths
And
Rattlesnakes
Beware
I see you
Surrounding me
Getting ready
To attack
And
Kill me
With your
Venomous bite
Do not think
I do not
See you
Trying to
Slither up
The side
Of my gate
You have no
Good intentions
It is against
Your nature
To do anything
That is right
You do not
Own
Or
Be in possession of
A conscious bone
In your body
To give you
A backbone
To stand on
Your own
Two feet
So your
Audacity
Impertinence
And the gall
You have
To knock
At my gate
Will go unanswered
I will
Let the hunters
Chasing you
Take you to
The hell
You are willing
To take me
If I trust
You again
After you
Caused so much
Heartache
And
Death
I refuse
And
Will not
Give you
Another chance

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Lying For No Reason”

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Let’s stop
Fighting
For this
Faded memory
Full of lies
And deception
I can see
Clearly now
Your cruel
Intentions
My brain
Is working
And piecing
Together
What my heart
Couldn’t
In the beginning
Now that
It is hurting
And
Close to empty
You was never
Into me
You used me
I get it
I am just
Another body
In a rubble
With other
Broken hearted
Women
You are a risk
To my sanity
Telling lies
For no reason
It’s a game
That’s life
Or death
For me
It’s affecting
My emotions
My nerves are shot
I’m going mental
With all
The petty
Head games
You are playing
Saying that
You love me
But deep down
You hate me
When you keep
Sending me
Through
A gauntlet
Of trained killers
Waiting
Ready to
Shoot me
In the
Head
Or
In my chest
Out of mercy

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Powerless Becoming Powerful”

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I guess
Grabbing them
By the pussy
Is the real slogan
To people
That got money
Or in power
It’s so many
Cases coming
To the light
Now
Of unwanted
Advances
And the invasion
Of personal boundaries
No one is respecting
Their position
To be a teacher
And teach
Those below them
To improve
Their skills
And grow
Beyond their potential
So they can reach
All their dreams
And desires
Instead
Bosses
And
Mentors are
Taking advantage
And invoking
Invisible clauses
Stating to have
Any dreams
You have to
Give over
All dignity
And power
To save
What you
Worked hard for
What is wrong
With people
In this society
Not thinking
Their actions
Will not have
Consquences
It’s not a
Me
Me
Society
And plenty
Of people
Are not buying it
They are
Tired of getting
Stepped on
And
Taken advantage of
And not using
Their voices
It’s a revolution
Developing
People wanting equality
And are demanding
To be respected
And not what’s
Between their legs
The day is here
No one is
Staying in the shadows
And
No more keeping
Silent
For these bastards and cowards

-Yellowbonewonda

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“You Damn Sheep”

I did not
Read the
Fine print
It was a
Clause in it
It states
They can
Abandon me
After
The millionth
Sheep
I am a restless
Soul
That can not sleep
My eyes are
At half mass
My body is weak
As I lay
In bed
I start to sink
Into an oblivion
Between the sheets
I toss
And turn
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Looking for
The sleeper sheep
To come
To me
So I can
Count them
And fall
Into deep
Sleep
But
They are
Nowhere
To be found
They refuse
To help me
They rather
Deal with
The easy peeps
That
Go down
By the tenth
Sheep
I begged them
Time and again
Not to abandon me
And save me
From this fate
Of restless nights
Running together
I don’t know
Today’s date
I need their
Patience
And
Help
I can not
Do it by myself
I need them
Yet those
Dirty little
Bastards rather
Steal from me
Taking my sanity
With my
Lack of
Sleep
I warn everyone
Don’t be
Like me
Read everything
They give
To you
It’s deception
In the hearts
Of
Lazy
Creepy Sheep
Who are
Picking and
Choosing who
Gets sleep

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Need An Advocate For My Life”

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Do I keep
Walking
Or stand still
Until someone
Comes to
Find me
Waiting feels
Like a lifetime
And dying
Is an eternity
Either way
I risk
Being lost
It’s hell
In the middle of
Somewhere
Surrounded
By nothing
Wondering
Aimlessly
With
No direction
Just walking
In circles
Like I’m crazy
Looking
For something
That is rare
And hard to find
A piece
Of happiness
In the form
Of two pills
One states
Lie down
On my back
And die
The other
States
Stand tall
on my feet
And fight
To the death
If I have to
Either fate
By my hands
Are
Bad versus worst
Case scenario
I need
Something
More drastic
Taking all worries
Away
Of picking
The wrong one
So I’m
Giving it over
To a judger
A devil’s advocate
That is
Capable
Of weeding out
The ungrateful
And
The unworthy
With specific
Instructions
To give
My heart
To the one
Ready to die
For me
In order
To live
Forever
Up
In heaven
Beside me
With no
Fear
Deceit
Or
Heartache
To come
Home to

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I Value My Safety”

Why is it
That some people
Include me
In games
I don’t want
To play
Too many people
Putting me
In deadly situations
With riddles
That don’t
Make sense
And no
Plausible answers
To guess
I’m hanging
From
Death traps
I can not
Escape
There are no
Safety nets
To catch me
From sudden death

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I’m a guareenteed
Loser
In this game
When there
Are no
Rules
To keep me safe
I can not
Understand
Why there are
People
Happy at
Putting me
In danger
Because
They believe
My safety is
Not a value
To them
I am not
Put here
To be
Played with
Or
Entertainment
For people
That are
Unhappy
With their
Life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Limit Is Here”

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Keep trying me
I dare you
My heart is
Out of this
Stop testing me
You really
Want me to
Fail drastically
I have no more
Cheeks
To turn
I’m there
Now
I’m tired of
Deceitful
Trifling liars
Being around
Here
I am
No
Saint
By any means
It will be
A cold day
In hell
Before
I die
For anyone’s sins
I’m tired of
People taking
My kindness
For weakness
It was called
Tolerance
And it is
At the limit
You’ve
Done me wrong
You’ve voided
Your
Unconditional
Love status
That bridge
You had
It’s condemned now
And deadly
To travel
I am not
Your mother
A friend
Or your family
Don’t
Call me
I don’t want to
Smell your
Shit fragrance
I will never
Help you
If you’re stranded
I can’t stand you
I’m ready to
Snap back
And finish this
I’ve extended
My hand
I’m done
Being the
Better one
It’s time
For me to be selfish
I’m Saving my
Last fingers
To survive with
I just want
Peace
And to be
Left alone

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Island Of Our Own”

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All I ask
Is that you
Promise
Yourself
That you
Will surrender
Your stress
Lock it up
Keeping it
Away from
This happiness
With both
Want to share
The pain you
Had before me
Don’t give
It so
Much control
Just
Direct all
Your senses
And
Concentrate
On us
Let’s stay
In our world
Our own piece
Of heaven
In the center
Of a
Complicated world
No outside
Madness
Will ever
Enter
What
Is outside
Stays outside
Where it can’t
Hurt us
Never
Destroying
What we’ve grown
This kingdom
Is no kingdom
Without this bond
I will always
Be your refuge
And you will be mine
So
Let me
Be that
Barbed wire
Surrounding
Protecting
And
Keeping you
Mentally
And
Emotionally strong
Don’t worry
All trespasses
Will not enter
So relax
And let go
Leaving all
Your worries
Behind you
When you
Come across
This heavenly
Threshold
Where we
Have built
A strong foundation
I can guarantee
All our past
Sweat and tears
Will hold
It up
In any storm
No weathering
Or
Taking shelter
Anywhere else
We are home

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Crashing Below”

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I’m standing
Naked
And exposed
With no secrets
To hide
While everyone
Gauk at me
And shake
Their head
As I tell
My truth
I’m tired of
Being the
Leading lady
In this
Drama series
Full of hate
I’m sick
Of making
People believe
The lies
We are spoon
Feeding them
It’s cheap Caviar
In an expensive
Restaurant
We can’t pay
We are not
The perfect couple
We have not
Been happy
And in love
For some time
It’s only a front
For company
On special occasions
Or on family days
Packed with fun
I’m just tired
Of pretending
That
We have a home
When it’s
Only four walls
And furniture
It is
Empty with
No soul
I am no longer
Afraid
Of losing
This thing
We’ve built
With smoke screens
And mirrors
It’s time to let go
I’m not getting
Paid for
My skills
I’ve played
This character
Well enough
This award
Winning performance
As the good wife
It is played out
And I’m
Canceling
The show
I’ve been
Dangled
Off a
Condemned bridge
For far
Too long
I felt him
When he let go
Losing his grip
On my hand
My death
Was slow
I fell
On the rocks
And
My body
Split
In two
Yet that
Wasn’t my torture
It was when
He
Looked down
Stared back
And laughed
At me
Without a care
Where did
It all go wrong
When did you start
Hating me
I remembered
You loved me
You said
You saw
A life
Within me
But your actions
Said differently
My best friend
Became my enemy
And the murderer
That left me
Freezing
In the cold

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Deeper Than The Physical”

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Under the surface
Is a glorious beauty
In the depths
Of select souls
In this world
They bring clarity
To the blind
And the unloved
These souls
Have no hidden
Clause within them
All you have
To do is
Look further
Than your eyes
To see
Without Your
Sight
And presumptions
Leading you
To doubt
What could be magical
And freeing
Use
Whatever
Your heart
Your gut
Or intuition
Doesn’t matter
Just feel
They say
Beauty is in the eye
Of the beholder
It’s true
Can’t you see
Won’t you look
Beyond
The beauty
Of the physical
Outer layer
Somewhat deeper
Than the sea
There is a gem
Precious and rare
Inside of those
You would think
That wouldn’t be
They are full of Hope
And potential
But are consider
Ugly
Because no one
Has looked
Past the broken wing
And side halo
Hanging off their head
Dirty from
Getting
Down and dirty
In the trenches
Going deep
In a world
That don’t take
Kindly to hoping
And individual dreams
Yet they soldier
On to spread love
With smiles
And simple gestures
Through compassion
And their humanity
With no bias
In their heart
Towards color or gender
Their heart
Only beats
To the drum
Of love and
It’s ready to love
Another unconditionally
With only
The utmost purity
There are no conditions
What you must
Do for them
They are genuine
With no intentions
To use
Or hurt
Anybody
They refuse
To do it
Out of
Personal gain
They have
No jealousy
No hate
Within them
They win
When you win
When they help
All people
Succeed
In accomplishing
Their dreams
To living in
Their happily
Ever after

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Who’s In Control”

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No one
Knows your life
Or the struggle
You make
On a daily
Just don’t lie
About it
Live your Truth
Don’t hide
Behind the lie
That you are
An independent woman
When you rely
On men to pay
Your bills
And give you gifts
Answer
One question
What would you do
If men
Did not
Paying
Would you even
Consider it
To take off
Your clothes
And prance for them
You say men
Don’t take advantage
Of a you
Because you’re
Your own boss
But all you’ve bossed
Is opening your mouth
And laying on your back
Any right
It’s your decision
You made
Your choice
But
Are you really
Being true
To yourself
When you’re the
Next act
Following someone else
Stripping
For tips
Why are not
Confident
In your brain
And your good sense
To make money
The right way
And be your own boss
In any event
It’s your decision
To live your life
You don’t
Have to answer
To me
It’s not my life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Laid In Front Of You”

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Two glasses
On a table
Rotated to
Your point
Of view
It does not
Matter
Everyone else
Sees it as
Wrong
But you
Say it
Ain’t so
Your reasoning
Is warped
You will never
See
The truth
Even if
It was
Presented right
In front
Of you
My conclusion
Is I’m damned
In whatever
I do
I will never
Have the chance
To be
A part of
Your life
I’m forever
At arms length
Doubted
With no
Reason
To back it up
I’m feeling
Some type of way
Because you lied
You put me
In this position
Making me
Feel like
I’m the one
That is wrong
And blind
To the truth
I shouldn’t have
To defend myself
When I’ve
Committed no crime
Against you
You are the one
That let your
Past and enemies
Condemn me
Someone else
Made the decision
To hurt you
That was them
Not me
I’ve been here
Standing steadfast
Beside you
Never faltering
Real and confident
In every step
I made with you
I laid everything
About me
Out on the table
You should
Know me
My heart
My story
And my character
Nothing has
Ever changed
I’ve been the same
Person
I hate how
You say
You want
Someone real
But keep
Doing stupid
Things to offend me
Stop taking it
Out on me
I’ve never
Turned my back
Once on you
I was the one
That told you
You was family
And
Embraced you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Inexcusable Behaviour”

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I’ve recorded
And analyzed
Everything
Mentally
Never
Forgetting
The lies
That left
Your mouth
So easily
I won’t
Forget
That you lied
Straight to
My face
I remembered it
As if it
Was yesterday
So vividly
I can still
Taste
The hate
That spued from
Your mouth
You lacked
Self-respect
And all dignity
Your
Actions
Spoke
With fluidity
While slug
And sewage
Poured
Slowly
From all your
Crevices
Stinking up
The air
There was
No way
To breath
Around your
Poisonous
Toxicity
The habits
You’ve developed
From your past
Is hindering you
And
You’ve formed a
Very distinctive
Pelicular feature
That shields you
You are unable
To respect
Those good
To you
But today
My truth
Will be
Smacking you
I was born
With the capability
Of seeing
Truth
And
Bull shit
Around me
I treat
Your words as
Little Particles
Floating
In the air
About to plague
My environment
With a
Virus
With no cure
For me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Not In Line For You”

You said
You would
Need me
Want me
And
Love me
And only me
For life
But it wasn’t
The truth
Your sidechick
I guess
Had enough
Of you
Telling her
You would
Leave me
Divorce me
And make
Her your
New wife
You had
No intentions
In leaving
Her
Nor I
And that became
Your biggest mistake
You put
Your trust
In a scorned
Woman
With secrets
You kept
From me
And she got
Tired of
Your many excuses
She did
What she felt
Would make
Her happy
With one click
Destroying us
Sending
All the
Proof of
Your explicit
Relationship
Letters
Videos
Chats
In black
White
And color
Your cheating
Has costed
Us everything
It was
An ultimate kill
Killing us
Quickly

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I will not
Be the other woman
Waiting in line
For you
I gave you
All of me
You threw
It away
For a romp in
The hay
With someone
Otherthan me
Imploding
Everything
That mattered
Between us
There is
No way
To fixing
This mess
You created
Call her up
I know
She’s waiting for you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Enemy Of My Enemy”

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You live
With them
Everyday
Going to
Family events
Birthdays
Funerals
And
Holidays
You shouldn’t
Have to
Be afraid
Of what
They will
Do behind
Your back
But you are
You can’t
Trust them
As far as
You can throw
Them
It’s that
Heartbreaking
Saying
Who needs
Enemies
When you have
Family
No stranger can
Do worst
Than them
Than people
Closer to you
They know
You better
Than anyone
They are family
Your secrets
Are their ammunition
And they use
Them
Like bullets
Hitting you
In rapid
Fire sessions
Center mass
Shredding your heart
Into pieces
Guaranteeing no
Chance of rescuitation
All that’s
Needed to
Be done
Is to
Pronounce you
DOA
At the scene

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Karma Will Get You”

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I feel
Every time
I’m around you
I’m dry drowning
In front of you
I can not depend
On you
To save me
If I do
I should
Give up now
Lay down
And let mother nature
End my pain
And
Devour me
It’s just
The realization
I’ve come to
I’ve realized you
Will never
Attempt to come
To my rescue
You’re a liar
Manipulator
A con artist
You lie
About everything
Telling everyone
The sky is gray
When everyone
Sees it’s blue
You have never
Told the truth
To save one life
Including yours
That’s why
You are dead inside
God forbid
If you ever
Said to anyone
I put it on my
Mother
Father
Brother
Sister
Daughter
Son
Life
Everyone would
Fall dead then
No one will
Survive your curse
On them
You would like it
Wouldn’t you
You’re delusional
If you believe
You’ve fooled
The world
Your obsession
With yourself
Is clear as
A sunny day
In June
You want what
You want
At any cost
Not caring
Who gets hurt
In the process
You have
No heart
To give
And
Compassion
Is a curse word
If anyone
Ask for it
From you
You are evil
You get kicks
And thrills
Out of
Tormenting
People
God
Does not like ugly
You will get yours
I don’t have
To do nothing
To you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Grow Up Or Leave”

I’m not
That other
Woman that
You had
Last
In your bed
I can not
Be
In a relationship
With a man child
I’m grown
Looking for
A grown up
Relationship
I’m only
Accepting
To live
My life
With man
I don’t want
To have to
Break it down
Every time
We talk
As if you’re
My child
Your mother
Raised you
I should be
Reaping the benefits
Of her
Hard work
Giving you
Values
Morals
And
Common sense
Yet I’m talking
Slow and carefully
Pronouncing each word
Almost sounding
Them out
So you don’t
Get lost
Sit back
Listen to
A grown person
Speak
Learn
Something
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Before you
Bounce
A check
You can not cash
You are too
Busy trying
To over talk
Me
But you haven’t
Heard a word
I said
You’re in over
Your head
Too stubborn
Full of yourself
You are not seeing
Past your
Pride
Your ego is bruised
You are
Quick to fight
Ready for action
No talking
Or listening
To my side
You would rather
Have things
Get out of hand
Being a type of
Man
That will
Lose everything
Quicker than
A blink
Because you’re not
Noticing
I’m one step
From throwing
In the towel
Leaving
And not returning
Again
Don’t punish me
Because
You don’t like
My answers
I gave
To questions
That don’t
Make sense
You haven’t
Proved your case
In the least
I haven’t lied
I won’t
Admit to anything
Not the truth
Either believe me
Or leave me
I will not satisfy
Your rants
Grow up and
Stop acting
Like an a$$

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Waiting On Destiny”

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This feeling
I’m feeling
Is foreign
To me
I do not
Feel
Like
Me
It’s a stranger
With my face
In front of me
Staring through the
Mirror
Right
At me
I am
A million miles
Away from
Where I want
To be
In my dreams
In my reality
I’m
No where
But in space
Floating about
Aimlessly
My life is
Not
A Happy one
Not
A Sad one
Either
I’m
Just part
Of
An existence
Not yet
Able to
Reach my
Full potential
And being who
I need to be
My hand is raised
Like
I’m in class
Waiting on
The teacher
To count me
I’m one of those
People
Waiting on
Destiny
I’m in line
For greatness
And I’m not moving
Until I see
The path
I should take
To get me there
The almighty has
Blessed and engrained
Patience inside
Of me
So I will wait
On him
And only him
To guide me
I know it
Will be marvelous
A phenomenon
That all will
Want to see
I will be
His masterpiece
Being what
I should be
And
Not what I want
To be

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Fountain Of Youth”

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I gave
My love
Freely
Being
Deaf
Blind
And
Stupid
All together
Misguided in the game
Of love
Giving too much
Too soon
Being all in
On love
Giving
One hundred percent
Before I knew
You better
You
Kept your distance
But reeled me in
While still remaining
To be a stranger
Refusing to give
Your entire heart
Or even a piece
Of it
Yet I still
Did not
See it as
A game
You were playing
I should have
Known better
I gave
My youth
To you
And you did not
Deserve it
You was
A taker
And not a giver
You loved
Bathing
In my tears
On a daily
Not caring
About your actions
You thrived on
Making me weaker
As you grew strong
While laughing
At my
Crippling demeanor
Now when
I looked
In the mirror
I see
Something that’s
Not me
A Weak
Broken
Woman
I had to finally
Face myself
The truth was
You was never
My hero
Just
Low level zero
That played me
I wish
I had noticed
It sooner
I was
Hell bent
Being in loving
With someone
I did not
Want to see
Anything clearer
I was denial
I have to
Stop searching
For love
In all the wrong places
Then blaming others
On my bad decisions
I stayed
Too long
In a situation
Where I was
Slowly dying
And recharging
Someone else’s
Power

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Only Truth Be Told”

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With me
Or against me
Take heed
To my warning
A lie is
A deal breaker
In any type
Of relationship
With me
It is not
Me
You are saving
With your lies
But yourself
Be truthful
To avoid a decision
That is mine
To make
I am not afraid to
Live without you
In my life
I will have
No regrets
Do not
Come to me
Without
Your truth
Come quickly
With your answers
When I ask questions
That matter to me
Say it
Without thinking
Too much
To save face
Your lies
Will never
Give me comfort
So do not
Make it
Your only excuse
To avoid
The disappointment
Upon my face
There is a greater
Price to pay
For every lie
You kill
What was ever good
Between us
And replacing it
With empty space
Dividing us
So much
We will never
Be able to
Find our way back
To each other’s
Embrace
You can not have
It both ways
Either you
Live alone
In a house
Full of lies
Or
With me
In Truth
It’s only one world
I can live in
And I know
You know
Which place
Do not put it
On me
When you let
Your cowardness
Help
Lead you into
Pushing my hand
And choosing
To leave
After I find out
What you
Could not
Say
To my face

-Yellowbonewonda

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