“You Damn Sheep”

I did not
Read the
Fine print
It was a
Clause in it
It states
They can
Abandon me
After
The millionth
Sheep
I am a restless
Soul
That can not sleep
My eyes are
At half mass
My body is weak
As I lay
In bed
I start to sink
Into an oblivion
Between the sheets
I toss
And turn
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Looking for
The sleeper sheep
To come
To me
So I can
Count them
And fall
Into deep
Sleep
But
They are
Nowhere
To be found
They refuse
To help me
They rather
Deal with
The easy peeps
That
Go down
By the tenth
Sheep
I begged them
Time and again
Not to abandon me
And save me
From this fate
Of restless nights
Running together
I don’t know
Today’s date
I need their
Patience
And
Help
I can not
Do it by myself
I need them
Yet those
Dirty little
Bastards rather
Steal from me
Taking my sanity
With my
Lack of
Sleep
I warn everyone
Don’t be
Like me
Read everything
They give
To you
It’s deception
In the hearts
Of
Lazy
Creepy Sheep
Who are
Picking and
Choosing who
Gets sleep

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Need An Advocate For My Life”

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Do I keep
Walking
Or stand still
Until someone
Comes to
Find me
Waiting feels
Like a lifetime
And dying
Is an eternity
Either way
I risk
Being lost
It’s hell
In the middle of
Somewhere
Surrounded
By nothing
Wondering
Aimlessly
With
No direction
Just walking
In circles
Like I’m crazy
Looking
For something
That is rare
And hard to find
A piece
Of happiness
In the form
Of two pills
One states
Lie down
On my back
And die
The other
States
Stand tall
on my feet
And fight
To the death
If I have to
Either fate
By my hands
Are
Bad versus worst
Case scenario
I need
Something
More drastic
Taking all worries
Away
Of picking
The wrong one
So I’m
Giving it over
To a judger
A devil’s advocate
That is
Capable
Of weeding out
The ungrateful
And
The unworthy
With specific
Instructions
To give
My heart
To the one
Ready to die
For me
In order
To live
Forever
Up
In heaven
Beside me
With no
Fear
Deceit
Or
Heartache
To come
Home to

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I Value My Safety”

Why is it
That some people
Include me
In games
I don’t want
To play
Too many people
Putting me
In deadly situations
With riddles
That don’t
Make sense
And no
Plausible answers
To guess
I’m hanging
From
Death traps
I can not
Escape
There are no
Safety nets
To catch me
From sudden death

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I’m a guareenteed
Loser
In this game
When there
Are no
Rules
To keep me safe
I can not
Understand
Why there are
People
Happy at
Putting me
In danger
Because
They believe
My safety is
Not a value
To them
I am not
Put here
To be
Played with
Or
Entertainment
For people
That are
Unhappy
With their
Life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Limit Is Here”

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Keep trying me
I dare you
My heart is
Out of this
Stop testing me
You really
Want me to
Fail drastically
I have no more
Cheeks
To turn
I’m there
Now
I’m tired of
Deceitful
Trifling liars
Being around
Here
I am
No
Saint
By any means
It will be
A cold day
In hell
Before
I die
For anyone’s sins
I’m tired of
People taking
My kindness
For weakness
It was called
Tolerance
And it is
At the limit
You’ve
Done me wrong
You’ve voided
Your
Unconditional
Love status
That bridge
You had
It’s condemned now
And deadly
To travel
I am not
Your mother
A friend
Or your family
Don’t
Call me
I don’t want to
Smell your
Shit fragrance
I will never
Help you
If you’re stranded
I can’t stand you
I’m ready to
Snap back
And finish this
I’ve extended
My hand
I’m done
Being the
Better one
It’s time
For me to be selfish
I’m Saving my
Last fingers
To survive with
I just want
Peace
And to be
Left alone

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Island Of Our Own”

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All I ask
Is that you
Promise
Yourself
That you
Will surrender
Your stress
Lock it up
Keeping it
Away from
This happiness
With both
Want to share
The pain you
Had before me
Don’t give
It so
Much control
Just
Direct all
Your senses
And
Concentrate
On us
Let’s stay
In our world
Our own piece
Of heaven
In the center
Of a
Complicated world
No outside
Madness
Will ever
Enter
What
Is outside
Stays outside
Where it can’t
Hurt us
Never
Destroying
What we’ve grown
This kingdom
Is no kingdom
Without this bond
I will always
Be your refuge
And you will be mine
So
Let me
Be that
Barbed wire
Surrounding
Protecting
And
Keeping you
Mentally
And
Emotionally strong
Don’t worry
All trespasses
Will not enter
So relax
And let go
Leaving all
Your worries
Behind you
When you
Come across
This heavenly
Threshold
Where we
Have built
A strong foundation
I can guarantee
All our past
Sweat and tears
Will hold
It up
In any storm
No weathering
Or
Taking shelter
Anywhere else
We are home

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Crashing Below”

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I’m standing
Naked
And exposed
With no secrets
To hide
While everyone
Gauk at me
And shake
Their head
As I tell
My truth
I’m tired of
Being the
Leading lady
In this
Drama series
Full of hate
I’m sick
Of making
People believe
The lies
We are spoon
Feeding them
It’s cheap Caviar
In an expensive
Restaurant
We can’t pay
We are not
The perfect couple
We have not
Been happy
And in love
For some time
It’s only a front
For company
On special occasions
Or on family days
Packed with fun
I’m just tired
Of pretending
That
We have a home
When it’s
Only four walls
And furniture
It is
Empty with
No soul
I am no longer
Afraid
Of losing
This thing
We’ve built
With smoke screens
And mirrors
It’s time to let go
I’m not getting
Paid for
My skills
I’ve played
This character
Well enough
This award
Winning performance
As the good wife
It is played out
And I’m
Canceling
The show
I’ve been
Dangled
Off a
Condemned bridge
For far
Too long
I felt him
When he let go
Losing his grip
On my hand
My death
Was slow
I fell
On the rocks
And
My body
Split
In two
Yet that
Wasn’t my torture
It was when
He
Looked down
Stared back
And laughed
At me
Without a care
Where did
It all go wrong
When did you start
Hating me
I remembered
You loved me
You said
You saw
A life
Within me
But your actions
Said differently
My best friend
Became my enemy
And the murderer
That left me
Freezing
In the cold

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Deeper Than The Physical”

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Under the surface
Is a glorious beauty
In the depths
Of select souls
In this world
They bring clarity
To the blind
And the unloved
These souls
Have no hidden
Clause within them
All you have
To do is
Look further
Than your eyes
To see
Without Your
Sight
And presumptions
Leading you
To doubt
What could be magical
And freeing
Use
Whatever
Your heart
Your gut
Or intuition
Doesn’t matter
Just feel
They say
Beauty is in the eye
Of the beholder
It’s true
Can’t you see
Won’t you look
Beyond
The beauty
Of the physical
Outer layer
Somewhat deeper
Than the sea
There is a gem
Precious and rare
Inside of those
You would think
That wouldn’t be
They are full of Hope
And potential
But are consider
Ugly
Because no one
Has looked
Past the broken wing
And side halo
Hanging off their head
Dirty from
Getting
Down and dirty
In the trenches
Going deep
In a world
That don’t take
Kindly to hoping
And individual dreams
Yet they soldier
On to spread love
With smiles
And simple gestures
Through compassion
And their humanity
With no bias
In their heart
Towards color or gender
Their heart
Only beats
To the drum
Of love and
It’s ready to love
Another unconditionally
With only
The utmost purity
There are no conditions
What you must
Do for them
They are genuine
With no intentions
To use
Or hurt
Anybody
They refuse
To do it
Out of
Personal gain
They have
No jealousy
No hate
Within them
They win
When you win
When they help
All people
Succeed
In accomplishing
Their dreams
To living in
Their happily
Ever after

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Who’s In Control”

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No one
Knows your life
Or the struggle
You make
On a daily
Just don’t lie
About it
Live your Truth
Don’t hide
Behind the lie
That you are
An independent woman
When you rely
On men to pay
Your bills
And give you gifts
Answer
One question
What would you do
If men
Did not
Paying
Would you even
Consider it
To take off
Your clothes
And prance for them
You say men
Don’t take advantage
Of a you
Because you’re
Your own boss
But all you’ve bossed
Is opening your mouth
And laying on your back
Any right
It’s your decision
You made
Your choice
But
Are you really
Being true
To yourself
When you’re the
Next act
Following someone else
Stripping
For tips
Why are not
Confident
In your brain
And your good sense
To make money
The right way
And be your own boss
In any event
It’s your decision
To live your life
You don’t
Have to answer
To me
It’s not my life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Tunnel Vision”

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I do not
Need
To walk
In anyone
Else’s shoes
I will
Never be
A failure
I’m a winner
In my heart
Of hearts
I came
To my senses
I saw
What I was meant
To be
It’s not
Being with you
That person
Was a stranger
That possessed
My body
And corrupted
My soul
I cried
For days
To cleanse
Myself
When I wiped
My eyes
I was able
To see
The truth
For the
First time
I saw
With new sight
It was a
Vision of beauty
It was me
Smiling bright
I was
Without you
And my
Life was
All right
I promised myself
To never
Allow that image
To fade away
I finally
Had my strength
You made
Me weak
In the past
I could only see
Through
Tunnel vision
I got so far
Off track
I was
On a mission
Trying to prove
You wrong
Forgetting
Myself
Just for that
Short while
It felt like
An eternity
Walking
In your shoes
I was
Doing dumb shit
Mirroring you
Your stank
Attitude
And I allowed
Your anger to
Consume me
I was lost
Inside of you
I had to get out
I broke
The only rule
I had for myself
To always
Be true
Be me
And never
Be a duplicate

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Laid In Front Of You”

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Two glasses
On a table
Rotated to
Your point
Of view
It does not
Matter
Everyone else
Sees it as
Wrong
But you
Say it
Ain’t so
Your reasoning
Is warped
You will never
See
The truth
Even if
It was
Presented right
In front
Of you
My conclusion
Is I’m damned
In whatever
I do
I will never
Have the chance
To be
A part of
Your life
I’m forever
At arms length
Doubted
With no
Reason
To back it up
I’m feeling
Some type of way
Because you lied
You put me
In this position
Making me
Feel like
I’m the one
That is wrong
And blind
To the truth
I shouldn’t have
To defend myself
When I’ve
Committed no crime
Against you
You are the one
That let your
Past and enemies
Condemn me
Someone else
Made the decision
To hurt you
That was them
Not me
I’ve been here
Standing steadfast
Beside you
Never faltering
Real and confident
In every step
I made with you
I laid everything
About me
Out on the table
You should
Know me
My heart
My story
And my character
Nothing has
Ever changed
I’ve been the same
Person
I hate how
You say
You want
Someone real
But keep
Doing stupid
Things to offend me
Stop taking it
Out on me
I’ve never
Turned my back
Once on you
I was the one
That told you
You was family
And
Embraced you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Inexcusable Behaviour”

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I’ve recorded
And analyzed
Everything
Mentally
Never
Forgetting
The lies
That left
Your mouth
So easily
I won’t
Forget
That you lied
Straight to
My face
I remembered it
As if it
Was yesterday
So vividly
I can still
Taste
The hate
That spued from
Your mouth
You lacked
Self-respect
And all dignity
Your
Actions
Spoke
With fluidity
While slug
And sewage
Poured
Slowly
From all your
Crevices
Stinking up
The air
There was
No way
To breath
Around your
Poisonous
Toxicity
The habits
You’ve developed
From your past
Is hindering you
And
You’ve formed a
Very distinctive
Pelicular feature
That shields you
You are unable
To respect
Those good
To you
But today
My truth
Will be
Smacking you
I was born
With the capability
Of seeing
Truth
And
Bull shit
Around me
I treat
Your words as
Little Particles
Floating
In the air
About to plague
My environment
With a
Virus
With no cure
For me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Enemy Of My Enemy”

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You live
With them
Everyday
Going to
Family events
Birthdays
Funerals
And
Holidays
You shouldn’t
Have to
Be afraid
Of what
They will
Do behind
Your back
But you are
You can’t
Trust them
As far as
You can throw
Them
It’s that
Heartbreaking
Saying
Who needs
Enemies
When you have
Family
No stranger can
Do worst
Than them
Than people
Closer to you
They know
You better
Than anyone
They are family
Your secrets
Are their ammunition
And they use
Them
Like bullets
Hitting you
In rapid
Fire sessions
Center mass
Shredding your heart
Into pieces
Guaranteeing no
Chance of rescuitation
All that’s
Needed to
Be done
Is to
Pronounce you
DOA
At the scene

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Karma Will Get You”

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I feel
Every time
I’m around you
I’m dry drowning
In front of you
I can not depend
On you
To save me
If I do
I should
Give up now
Lay down
And let mother nature
End my pain
And
Devour me
It’s just
The realization
I’ve come to
I’ve realized you
Will never
Attempt to come
To my rescue
You’re a liar
Manipulator
A con artist
You lie
About everything
Telling everyone
The sky is gray
When everyone
Sees it’s blue
You have never
Told the truth
To save one life
Including yours
That’s why
You are dead inside
God forbid
If you ever
Said to anyone
I put it on my
Mother
Father
Brother
Sister
Daughter
Son
Life
Everyone would
Fall dead then
No one will
Survive your curse
On them
You would like it
Wouldn’t you
You’re delusional
If you believe
You’ve fooled
The world
Your obsession
With yourself
Is clear as
A sunny day
In June
You want what
You want
At any cost
Not caring
Who gets hurt
In the process
You have
No heart
To give
And
Compassion
Is a curse word
If anyone
Ask for it
From you
You are evil
You get kicks
And thrills
Out of
Tormenting
People
God
Does not like ugly
You will get yours
I don’t have
To do nothing
To you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Leave The Drama On TV”

I try
To keep
My life
Simple
And
Easy
To the best
Of my ability
By keeping
The most important
People close
And near to me
That love me
Dearly
I do not care
For liars
Thieves
And
Drama queens
To surround me
I have that on
Cable TV
I can watch
It any time
I feel the need
For a drama series
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Granted
No one
Owes me
Anything
Only thing
I ask for
Is peace
And respect
And I will
Come easy
With an open
Mind
And clean ears
To hear
You speak
Just have something
To say to me
I will not wait
For a open mouth
With a voice
That is silent
I don’t need
Your deafening
Silence
Inside of me
My gift
I gave
I showed up
To something
Ill-prepared
And slapped
Together with
Crazy glue
You threw
That opportunity
In the garbage
So easily
All you had
To do
Is be Real
Lead with honesty
Speak your truth
Then
Give your love freely
It would have
Been
A start
To a new beginning

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Not Following Your Footprints”

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He created me
To be
An original
Someone unique
Marching to
My own beat
So stop
Your
Sanctimonious
Holier
Than thou
Routine
Concentrate
On where
You are going
After your
Life is complete
Your opinion
Of me
Does not
Define me
You do not
Know who I am
What I’ve seen
What I’ve
Been through
Stop being
So quick
To judge
And
Kill
People
Who are different
I am tired
Of you yelling
At the top
Of your lungs
About you
Being Christian
My life
Is not
For you
To judge
But you
Do it anyway
Telling me
My God
Will
Not love me
Because of
What I choose
To be
Or do
In my life
Yet he is
The one
That created me
So why do
You care
Where my soul goes
Heaven or Hell
It is not
Your problem
It is between
Me and my maker
He knows
Me better
Than anyone
That my heart
Is his
And filled
With his love
Pumping
Throughout me
He chooses
To gift me
The ability
To
Walk
Talk
Breath
Everyday
That his blessing
To me
You may not
See it
In his eyes
I’m unique
Special
And what
He created
Me to be
So let me be
Who I am
Suppose to be

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Professional Liars”

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We all know
Those
Type
Of people
Those
Pathological liars
They have
Never told
A truth
In their life
Even if their
Life depended
On it
Lying is
First and
Second nature
To them
They do it
Like breathing
Every inhale
And exhale
They take
And make
They engulf
The world with
Their toxicity
Killing
Anything
And everything
That’s good
Around
And in you
Painfully
And slowly
But when
You finally
Back off
And distance
Yourself
Out of
Self preservation
People look
At you
As if you
Are the devil
In the family
Asking
How could you
Hold a grudge
Towards your blood
And saying
You should
Be the bigger person
Turn the other cheek
To get slapped
Again
Hell no
It’s not
That type
Of party
I’ve turned
Enough cheeks
Now I’m black
And blue
All over
I’m tired
Of being
The bigger person
I didn’t do
Anything
Horrible
I just walked away
And that was
Best for me
My story
Is now a happily
Ever after
I had enough
I could not waste
No more time
On them
That’s why
You see a
Cold as ice
Demeanor
Towards them
I’ve played
The fool
Too many times
I’m tired of
Being their victim
Giving too
Much rope
For them to
Hang me
So stop trying
To change my
Mind
To make a truce
Between us
It does not
Benefit me
In the least
After they’ve
Lied
Stole
And
Cheated me
And still
Give no apology

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Waiting On Destiny”

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This feeling
I’m feeling
Is foreign
To me
I do not
Feel
Like
Me
It’s a stranger
With my face
In front of me
Staring through the
Mirror
Right
At me
I am
A million miles
Away from
Where I want
To be
In my dreams
In my reality
I’m
No where
But in space
Floating about
Aimlessly
My life is
Not
A Happy one
Not
A Sad one
Either
I’m
Just part
Of
An existence
Not yet
Able to
Reach my
Full potential
And being who
I need to be
My hand is raised
Like
I’m in class
Waiting on
The teacher
To count me
I’m one of those
People
Waiting on
Destiny
I’m in line
For greatness
And I’m not moving
Until I see
The path
I should take
To get me there
The almighty has
Blessed and engrained
Patience inside
Of me
So I will wait
On him
And only him
To guide me
I know it
Will be marvelous
A phenomenon
That all will
Want to see
I will be
His masterpiece
Being what
I should be
And
Not what I want
To be

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Fountain Of Youth”

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I gave
My love
Freely
Being
Deaf
Blind
And
Stupid
All together
Misguided in the game
Of love
Giving too much
Too soon
Being all in
On love
Giving
One hundred percent
Before I knew
You better
You
Kept your distance
But reeled me in
While still remaining
To be a stranger
Refusing to give
Your entire heart
Or even a piece
Of it
Yet I still
Did not
See it as
A game
You were playing
I should have
Known better
I gave
My youth
To you
And you did not
Deserve it
You was
A taker
And not a giver
You loved
Bathing
In my tears
On a daily
Not caring
About your actions
You thrived on
Making me weaker
As you grew strong
While laughing
At my
Crippling demeanor
Now when
I looked
In the mirror
I see
Something that’s
Not me
A Weak
Broken
Woman
I had to finally
Face myself
The truth was
You was never
My hero
Just
Low level zero
That played me
I wish
I had noticed
It sooner
I was
Hell bent
Being in loving
With someone
I did not
Want to see
Anything clearer
I was denial
I have to
Stop searching
For love
In all the wrong places
Then blaming others
On my bad decisions
I stayed
Too long
In a situation
Where I was
Slowly dying
And recharging
Someone else’s
Power

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Only Truth Be Told”

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With me
Or against me
Take heed
To my warning
A lie is
A deal breaker
In any type
Of relationship
With me
It is not
Me
You are saving
With your lies
But yourself
Be truthful
To avoid a decision
That is mine
To make
I am not afraid to
Live without you
In my life
I will have
No regrets
Do not
Come to me
Without
Your truth
Come quickly
With your answers
When I ask questions
That matter to me
Say it
Without thinking
Too much
To save face
Your lies
Will never
Give me comfort
So do not
Make it
Your only excuse
To avoid
The disappointment
Upon my face
There is a greater
Price to pay
For every lie
You kill
What was ever good
Between us
And replacing it
With empty space
Dividing us
So much
We will never
Be able to
Find our way back
To each other’s
Embrace
You can not have
It both ways
Either you
Live alone
In a house
Full of lies
Or
With me
In Truth
It’s only one world
I can live in
And I know
You know
Which place
Do not put it
On me
When you let
Your cowardness
Help
Lead you into
Pushing my hand
And choosing
To leave
After I find out
What you
Could not
Say
To my face

-Yellowbonewonda

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“It’s On You”

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You give
Undeserving
People
Permission
To continue
Doing the
Same thing
Over
and over again
To you
They are not
The villain
In your heroic
Story
Of being the
Only good
Person
That shit
Just happens to
Everyone
Sees
What you’re
Too blind to see
You’re in love
With love
And if
It’s your choice
To continue
With the game
You are playing
You can not
Keep asking
To change the rules
A skunk
Is a skunk
You can not change
The smell
That it sprays on you
It’s just
Not going to happen
Either
Accept them
As is
A piece of
Foul smelling
Crap
Or keep it moving
You’re no longer
A victim
The only enemy
You truly have
Is the person
Standing on
The other
Side of the mirror
Looking back at you
The reflection
Can be scary
To look at
But you have
To confront
Those sad little
Psyches inside
Of you
If you
Continue
Down the road
Of self destruction
It’s your road
To travel
You can not
Keep blaming
People that use you
Once you’ve
Discovered
Their motives
Of taking everything
Away from you
Your choices are clear
Either stay
Or go
And
If you choose
To stay
Stop being angry
And pretending
That you are feed up
Every time
They disappoint you
You won’t leave
You rather have
Half or three fourths
Of a person
Than find
Someone better
For you
You love
That misery
Keeps your bed
Warm at night
To be with
A taker
A liar
And a cheater
Hmmm
The answer should
Be clear
NO
Right
Yet that is not
The answer
Everyone thought
You would choose
You do not
Want anything better
Than what
You already have
Now
And it is
Nothing

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Stand Up For Yourself”

Today
Either you
Will rise
And start fighting
To win back
What is yours
Or keep sinking
Into the quicksand
That they put you in
You have to know
They are standing
Nearby and
Watching you
Die a slow death
And laughing
While
You are struggling
You don’t have
To be
Stuck between
A rock and
A hard place
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Stop
Giving everything
And getting nothing
In return
From those
That don’t care
For you
Or have compassion
For your suffering
I don’t understand
Where is your dignity
Your backbone
To stand up for yourself
Do you like
Being preyed upon
Are you afraid
Of them
Hating you
Or getting mad
For you standing up
To them
And
Demanding respect
After they disrespected you
It is your right
To sometimes
Be selfish
You are giving
Too much
To the ungrateful
And they are using you
Taking your money
Your sanity
Just everything
That is good in you
When is it enough
For you
To say No
And keep
Something just for you
How is it so hard
For you
To put yourself
Before those that harm you
They give nothing
To uplift
Support
Or just love you
Stop being a
Meal ticket
That keeps giving
Until you are empty
Take charge
Of your destiny
Stop the complaining
And stand up to them
Be your own person
Or they will kill you
Take your spirit
Your will
And your soul
Leaving a shell
Behind
It’s time for a change
Before there
Is nothing
Left of you
To find

-Yellowbonewonda

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“A Body With No Soul”

By: Yellowbonewonda

As I sit
Alone in this
Empty mausoleum
Once called our home
I am seeing hallucinations
Or is it
An apparition
Of you
A lost spirit
With no soul
Not present
Or accountable
Of the destruction
That is going on in
This house
It is
No longer a home
For the living
Release me from
This curse
Of you constantly
Haunting me
And not loving me
We are lost
And only holding on
Because we are familiar
To one another
But that’s not
What love is
We are either
Together
Or going our separate ways
Out of survival
So we can fill
This emptiness inside
That is close to the core
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We can not
Keep living
In this
Parallel world
Where you
Don’t love me
I can’t bare to live
A lifetime
Outside of your heart
A Castaway
Left on a deserted island
Surrounded by sharks
These women are out
For my blood
They smell it
In the water
They are ready
To devour me
Tear me limb
From limb
To take my place
And stand in my shoes
As if I was never
There
In the first place
Why do
You put me
Through this heartache
I would have never
Envisioned
You ever mistreating me
You’re losing
Me completely
And you don’t care
Unless someone
Else starts to see me

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“In Your Feelings”

By: Yellowbonewonda

Just because
I don’t answer
When you call
Or talk to you
On a regular
Does not mean
I’m ignoring you
$hit rises
And falls
Without warning
Life happens
And human factors
Become unexpected parts
Of the damn equation
Assumptions
Will get you
Blacklisted
Your choices
Will be
To be burned
Recycled
Or buried somewhere
In the middle
Of nowhere
Don’t have
Conversations
In your head
And conclude
Before asking
Wait to see
If there is
A good reason
Check your attitude
Before you get
Your @ss handed to you
It’s not necessary
To become
A code 187
Murdering your chances
Because you didn’t
Come correct
Because of your
Biased conversations
Between
You
Yourself
And your @sshole
They are all wrong
In their three way
Conviction
Without a trial
To hear evidence
That opposed them
Get out of your feelings
You’re not the center
Of anyone’s universe
So take caution
Before approaching
Any situation
Nothing is
As it seems
What’s happening
In this world
Could be serious
And you are
In some unwarranted
Emotions
Choosing the wrong way
And now there is
A declaration
Of war
And you are
Being killed off
With no compassion
Empthy
Or sympathy
Because of your
Blind approach
On your decisions
To being froggy
Leaping before looking
Then crashing and burning
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“Jacked Up And Pissed”

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We are lined
Up to be slaughtered
By a system
With no feelings
Cold
Calculating
Full of deception
They don’t call
You by your name
Or know your face
From Adam or Eve
Just by
Your social security
Branded on your @ss
At birth
They sit behind
A desk
Pushing paper
Shuffling us
Until we fall
Through the cracks
We are the
The injuried
The dying
And the helpless
Our pain
And
Our tears
Go unseen
Our begging
And
Pleading
Go unheard
The deaf
The blind
And the belligerent
Are in charge
And have authority
Of who lives
Or dies
Back to work
Light duty
Or permanently disabled
Is a label
Given to you
When you are caught
In their system
These people
Work in their offices
Feeding on the public
With no compassion
Ignoring the human factor
And
Seeing us
As cents
Dollars
And decimal points
They don’t care
About legitimacy
Or confirming tests
Stating truth
It’s bull$hit
We are put
Out to pasture
Wrapped in red tape
Left to find
Our way out
While they
Refuse to
Pay
A dime
For any recovery
They hold out
Until you’re close to dead
Or burnt out
From pure exhaustion

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Animal Insincts”

I’m reduced to
Waiting for someone
To feed me my food
Through a closed
Fortified door

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People still feel my frustration
Fearing my aggressiveness
Afraid of my sharp teeth
And razor cut claws
These prison guards know
How much I hunger for freedom
And if they make one slip up
I won’t waste my opportunity
They think I am the lesser of humanity
That my life is not valuable as any other life
On this Earth
I watch as they Kill us
One by one as if it’s for sport
Mounting our heads on their wall
As if it was a fair fight
Using bullets
Tazers and tranquilizer darts
Pretending to be the ultimate predator
But come at me without your weapons
And you will see my aggressive nature
I have been a caged animal
For so long
Captured by man
Taken from my home
Separated from my pride
A magnificent beast
I was
Full of life
No one could compare me
To any other
I turned heads by my shining grace
I was a majestic royal
I made the laws of the lands
Even though it’s confusing
I was feared by everyone
And loved by all
Top of the food chain
Inside my own domain
Now I’m reduced to
People’s amusement
They point and laugh
At my sadness
I’m stuck in this cage
Missing my home
Imprisoned for the rest of my life
I’m disappearing
Diminishing to a mere house pet
I must remember everyday
And not be broken down
I am a fierce predator
That stands in front of you
I have strong bloodlines
Coursing through my veins
Calming my spirit
Encouraging me to imagine
The crisp air back home
Feeding the predator in me
I am not just an animal
And it doesn’t
Give you
The right
To erase my kind
As if we don’t matter
I am a determined
To get back to my family
You will not be
Stuffing or mounting me
Any time in the near future

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Breaking Down”

I have not done it in awhile
But I had a good reason
My body was not prepared
For the new stretches

Muscles have weakened
Stiff and not as limber
As it once was
Only a few years ago

I bent over to
Touch my toes
As I came up
I stopped

Suddenly half way up
I grabbed
Under my breast
Swelling had already set in

As big as my palm
Increasing by the second
Almost covering half my body
Over my ribs

It felt so unnatural
All I could do was
Hold on to dear life
To a chair arms length away
from me

The pain was nothing
I could walk off
My eyes teared up
Someone noticed

Causing panic all around me
People rushing to my rescue
My silence and facial expressions
Said it all

I couldn’t speak
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t breathe
I could only hear the person

Standing next to me
Holding me up
Saying
Take a slow

Deep breath
Breathe breathe
Don’t tense up
It wasn’t working

The attention of everyone staring
Made me more anxious
I was panicking
The surges were hitting me

Worser than the other
Getting rapid and stronger
Coming one after another
Not giving me a chance to catch my breath

Don’t touch me
Don’t move me
Played in my head
Just leave me be

I can get through this
Don’t bother
It was as if something was moving
Under my chest outward

It felt like a ripple effect
As if someone
Had thrown a pebble
Into a body of still water

Causing
A sound so clear
But faint
And if you turned away

Before the pebble hit
You miss the awesomeness
In seeing something so small
Causing water

To move in rapid motion
Creating mini
Circles
Expanding bigger and bigger

Until it disappears
But to me
It was not awesomeness
It was pure torture

So bad I felt like I was having
An out of body experience
Escaping for a moment
Until it was safe

To re-enter
I would not
Wish this pain
On my worst enemy

I hate being this broken
Helpless
And so angry
Because no one knows how to fix me

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-Yellowbonewonda

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