“Deeper Than The Physical”

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Under the surface
Is a glorious beauty
In the depths
Of select souls
In this world
They bring clarity
To the blind
And the unloved
These souls
Have no hidden
Clause within them
All you have
To do is
Look further
Than your eyes
To see
Without Your
Sight
And presumptions
Leading you
To doubt
What could be magical
And freeing
Use
Whatever
Your heart
Your gut
Or intuition
Doesn’t matter
Just feel
They say
Beauty is in the eye
Of the beholder
It’s true
Can’t you see
Won’t you look
Beyond
The beauty
Of the physical
Outer layer
Somewhat deeper
Than the sea
There is a gem
Precious and rare
Inside of those
You would think
That wouldn’t be
They are full of Hope
And potential
But are consider
Ugly
Because no one
Has looked
Past the broken wing
And side halo
Hanging off their head
Dirty from
Getting
Down and dirty
In the trenches
Going deep
In a world
That don’t take
Kindly to hoping
And individual dreams
Yet they soldier
On to spread love
With smiles
And simple gestures
Through compassion
And their humanity
With no bias
In their heart
Towards color or gender
Their heart
Only beats
To the drum
Of love and
It’s ready to love
Another unconditionally
With only
The utmost purity
There are no conditions
What you must
Do for them
They are genuine
With no intentions
To use
Or hurt
Anybody
They refuse
To do it
Out of
Personal gain
They have
No jealousy
No hate
Within them
They win
When you win
When they help
All people
Succeed
In accomplishing
Their dreams
To living in
Their happily
Ever after

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Tunnel Vision”

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I do not
Need
To walk
In anyone
Else’s shoes
I will
Never be
A failure
I’m a winner
In my heart
Of hearts
I came
To my senses
I saw
What I was meant
To be
It’s not
Being with you
That person
Was a stranger
That possessed
My body
And corrupted
My soul
I cried
For days
To cleanse
Myself
When I wiped
My eyes
I was able
To see
The truth
For the
First time
I saw
With new sight
It was a
Vision of beauty
It was me
Smiling bright
I was
Without you
And my
Life was
All right
I promised myself
To never
Allow that image
To fade away
I finally
Had my strength
You made
Me weak
In the past
I could only see
Through
Tunnel vision
I got so far
Off track
I was
On a mission
Trying to prove
You wrong
Forgetting
Myself
Just for that
Short while
It felt like
An eternity
Walking
In your shoes
I was
Doing dumb shit
Mirroring you
Your stank
Attitude
And I allowed
Your anger to
Consume me
I was lost
Inside of you
I had to get out
I broke
The only rule
I had for myself
To always
Be true
Be me
And never
Be a duplicate

-Yellowbonewonda

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“How Do You Know”

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It’s easy
To be deceived
They come as
A teacher
A police officer
A family member
No one is exempted
To who
May be dangerous
Around children
I want to raise
A Healthy
Strong willed
Well rounded
Mentally stable
Productive
Compassionate
Individual
That will not
Allow
Any obstacle to
Discourage them
From
Reaching their goals
And doing their best
While using their
God’s given talent
To be happy
I will promise
To teach
And prepare them
For the concrete jungle
Help them
To not fall
Into the grasp
Of exploiters
My child
Any child
We need
To protect them
Stop
Calling them
Ugly
Stupid
And worthless
It lowers self-esteem
Making them
Easy prey
For the evil
To touch them
It’s lurking
And
Walking amoung us
On a daily
Ready to
Take advantage
Of their vulnerability
Demolishing their
Future dreams
For the price
Of their innocence
They will tell
Them lies
To gain their trust
Influencing them to
Depend on them
To give them love
And attention
That will not
Benefit them
In the least
I have to
Ask myself
How do I protect
And raise you
Keep you
Safe
I want a
Guarantee
Before I conceive you
That once I bring
You in this world
You will
Return the same
Way you left me
After you leave the nest
Will it be enough
To fill
You up
To capacity
With
My heart
My love
My everything
So many
Of these
Miserable
Horrible people
Want influence
And crush you
I’m so scared
Of the image
Seeing
My child
Broken
Defeated
And
Crying
Out of pain

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Books Unopened”

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This pure love
Comes in a
Tarnished package
Covered in dirt
And grim
To hide among us
Confusing almost everyone
But the ones ready
To see
It’s value
You will
Never understand
Unless you’re open
To why your heart
Is not full
And
Does not beat
Strong
Calm
And
Steadily
It’s because you are
Missing out on
A love
So true
It is
Beyond the physical
It’s something
Of a spiritual connection
That is
Extraordinary
And a privilege
For those
That are willing
To love unconditionally
Taking it as a gift
And handling it
With special care
Like a museum curator
Opening it carefully
In a white room
With white gloves
Avoiding
Contamination
Trying not to
Lose it’s value
These beautiful spirits
Are rare books
In the library
And
Once you’ve read them
They will bring
New life
To everything
It’s up
To you
To continue
From the first page
To the last page
To see 
What lies beneath
The  surface
A marvellous story
Will be told
And will include you
It is a priceless
Experience
So
Wonderful
To know such
An
Amazing
Blessed
Anointed individual
That God wanted
To bless you with
To walk
Hand and hand
Through
Life
For Eternity

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Once Upon A Love”

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We use
To be
Close
So close indeed
Nothing could
Come between us
Even the air
We would breath
Had to fight
To squeeze between
Us
We couldn’t breath
Without each other
I was there
You was there
We were inseparable
Thick as thieves
We would
Smother ourselves
With each other
Talking through
The wee hours
Like there was
No other
Other people
Other place to be
Other whatever
It didn’t matter
We would fall asleep
On the phone
Waking up
To each others
Snoring
Then fall back
To sleep
Not hanging up
The phone
After
Exhausting ourselves
When we would
Share everything
A lifetime of stories
Of our life
Our dreams
And our future
Life stood still
In that moment
It was ours
And
Nothing was impossible
We was
A ride or die love
At least
We thought
Nothing could break us
But we are here
Now and
We are
Dying slowly
Falling apart
At the seams
Years have past
And it keeps
Getting ugly
Our love
Has become empty
Nothing is left
To refuel us

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Break Their Hold”

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All religious
Entities
Need to read
Their Holy Book
It’s not suppose to
Be a weapon
In human hands
It’s suppose to be
Divine inspiration
A record
Of a relationship
Between
God and humans
He did not
Put out
An Advertisement
And hire
No one
On this Earth
To be
Part of
His holy court
As judge
Jury
And Executioner
We all should
Be exhausted
By now
Of this ridiculous
Behaviour
We need to
Put our differences
Aside
And stand together
Stop all of
This mistreatment
Of your fellow
Man
Woman
Or
Child
Demeaning them
Disrespecting them
And killing them
Based on their
Color
Gender
Or lifestyle preference
It is no one’s
Business
But theirs
Stop taking away
Their choices
Free-will was given
By our one
And only creator
It’s too many people
Living in glass houses
Throwing stones
At other people
Just because
Someone does not
Believe in their beliefs
God will
Past his judgement
Just
Stop all this
Violence
And live Just
There is
Too much killing
It’s not about
Black Power
White Power
Brown Power
It is
Beyond that
I’m not going to
Dive into
The races
And get on
The bandwagon
Of who deserves
What
We are
All human
Fighting amongst
Ourselves
Being manipulated
By the masses
The instigators
Of the privileged
Controlling us
Dangling half truths
And all lies
In the media
Inciting
Old beliefs
Of hate
Ignorance
And stupidity
Having
Us to fight
Amongst ourselves
Being
Blind and not seeing
The truth
Right
In front of us
They want us to hate
Each other
To keep us
In line
While they cheat us
Out of our happiness
And our place
In heaven
Beside our maker
Their greed
Is a contagion
Wrapped in hate
Keeping us chained
To their nonsense
It’s time to
Call them
By their name
These
Politicians
Governmental agencies
And the Entitled
Are
Who they are
Minions of Satan

-Yellowbonewonda

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“An Urgence”

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I ask you
Girl in the mirror
I already know
You are phenomenal
A queen underneath
All this rawness
A talented
And
Creative
That needs her moment
To break out
And show
Her greatness
I don’t understand
Why I can’t talk
To you
I know you’re there
I catch glimpses
Of you
Everyday
In the mirror
I feel your power
Your beauty
Your presence
It is something
To be reckoned with
It’s an amazing glory
Yet I pretend
As if you are a stranger
I am afraid
You will not like me
And accept me
For who I am
Yes I am your
Secret admirer
I’ve been
Wishing
And hoping
To be like you
Studying your every move
I swear
I’m not stalking
No one
Your essence
Surrounds me
I’m in awe of
Your magnificence
A goddess
On Earth
In front of me
Beside me
All around me
But I see those
Shattered
And
Missing pieces
But once I’m together
My greatness will be
An unstoppable power
Yet my fear
Prevents me
From knowing
How to approach you
I feeling guilty
And ashamed
That I haven’t
Ask you
The important things
That has been in my heart
Needing answers
I need to know
These
Things that
Will set me free
What makes you
You
What are you thinking
Where are you going
What is the future
For me
And
Am I worthy

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Stand Up For Yourself”

Today
Either you
Will rise
And start fighting
To win back
What is yours
Or keep sinking
Into the quicksand
That they put you in
You have to know
They are standing
Nearby and
Watching you
Die a slow death
And laughing
While
You are struggling
You don’t have
To be
Stuck between
A rock and
A hard place
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Stop
Giving everything
And getting nothing
In return
From those
That don’t care
For you
Or have compassion
For your suffering
I don’t understand
Where is your dignity
Your backbone
To stand up for yourself
Do you like
Being preyed upon
Are you afraid
Of them
Hating you
Or getting mad
For you standing up
To them
And
Demanding respect
After they disrespected you
It is your right
To sometimes
Be selfish
You are giving
Too much
To the ungrateful
And they are using you
Taking your money
Your sanity
Just everything
That is good in you
When is it enough
For you
To say No
And keep
Something just for you
How is it so hard
For you
To put yourself
Before those that harm you
They give nothing
To uplift
Support
Or just love you
Stop being a
Meal ticket
That keeps giving
Until you are empty
Take charge
Of your destiny
Stop the complaining
And stand up to them
Be your own person
Or they will kill you
Take your spirit
Your will
And your soul
Leaving a shell
Behind
It’s time for a change
Before there
Is nothing
Left of you
To find

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Things Within”

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There is a war
Beneath my skin
No one sees
And I feel
It almost daily
Little people
Are inside
Of me
Killing me
Slowly
With torture
I feel
Little
Daggers
Piercing me
From the
Inside out
They are
Trying to
Break me
By any means
Necessary
Through
Scratches
Cuts
And
Gapping wounds
Breaking down
My defenses
One by one
They are
Everywhere
It’s a hostile takeover
I can not
Stop them
It’s an explosion
Of craters
Forming
As big
As the Grand Canyon
My skin
Is covered
By a red color
It’s leaking
As if
Someone shot me
And reloaded
Making sure
Of no survival
I can not
Replenish enough
Fluids
To save me
My heart
Can not
Take this stress
It’s weakening
Me
I am dying
By the minute
I’m falling
Into pieces
Shattering
To a point
Of never
Being put back
Together
Am I the only
One seeing this
Does that mean
I’m going crazy
Is
My perception
Of what
I’m going through
Too vivid
In imagination

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Have Your Childhood”

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It’s false advertising
A sexy package
That society
Is selling
Sex
Drugs
And fantasies
Living
Out of control
Acting like
No one has
Home training
Wilding out
Doing endless parties
Growing old
Too soon
Aging
By the minute
Drying up
Their bodies
In the process
Why does
Anyone want
This type of life
To grow up
So fast
Skipping childhood
To being irresponsible
It’s a glamourizattion
By the media
Adults on tv
Playing on
People’s fantasies
On how their
Life is suppose to be
Being rich
And famous
With unlimited mansions
Of course
I would want that
To skip through chapters
Of my development
Avoiding school
To being a celebrity
I’m thankful
I had self control
I had plenty of time
To get there
So why not
Enjoy my childhood
It’s here one minute
Gone the next
Blinders will be taken of
Real soon
Showing truth about
How life will be
After turning eighteen
In the eyes of the government
I’m a legal adult
Able to get tax
But not old enough
To drink
Responsibility
Becomes an unwanted attachement
A lifelong companion
And I’m playing
On the government’s playground
Where they are
The biggest bully
Stealing money
Straight out of your pockets
Big brother
He won’t protect you
When he wants his money
He’s getting his
So why are you rushing
To get burnt out
By the dollar bill
This race
Will take
A lifetime
An endless cycle
Of Sleep
Or not sleeping
Always thinking
Of ways to
Getting
To the top
Of the food chain

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Own Captivity”

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Boy
My
Assumptions
They are
A mother !ucker
From the beginning
Of this
Wicked journey
When you
Approached me
I was doomed
At that moment
I thought
I had won
The lottery
But I was living in
A twisted delusion
In Fairy Tale
Filled with monsters
And you was
Their leader
Why do you
Hate me
Enough to
Use me
Abuse me
Emotionally
Taking advantage
Of me
Not caring
That you
Are killing me
Depleting
My good nature
Causing me to
Cry
And be angry
Going mental
On this
Emotional rollercoaster
That is
Continuously going
In circles
I loved you
You could care less
You were immune
To my pureness
The one and only organ
Inside of me
My heart
Filled with an
Uncontainable contagion
Of love
Devotion
And loyalty
That I was
Giving to you
Freely
You hit it
Out of my hand
As I was handing
It to you
You looked at me
As if I had cursed
At you
Stabbed you
Or took your freedom
You lied
By omission
Of your intentions
You had
No feelings
Inside of you
All you wanted
Was my tears
To bathe in
Ciphering
My energy
On a daily
Not caring
If was weakening me
In the process
You recharged
And grew stronger
Off of me
Your magical fountain
And I’m 
Drying up
Completely

-Yellowbonewonda

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“A Body With No Soul”

By: Yellowbonewonda

As I sit
Alone in this
Empty mausoleum
Once called our home
I am seeing hallucinations
Or is it
An apparition
Of you
A lost spirit
With no soul
Not present
Or accountable
Of the destruction
That is going on in
This house
It is
No longer a home
For the living
Release me from
This curse
Of you constantly
Haunting me
And not loving me
We are lost
And only holding on
Because we are familiar
To one another
But that’s not
What love is
We are either
Together
Or going our separate ways
Out of survival
So we can fill
This emptiness inside
That is close to the core
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We can not
Keep living
In this
Parallel world
Where you
Don’t love me
I can’t bare to live
A lifetime
Outside of your heart
A Castaway
Left on a deserted island
Surrounded by sharks
These women are out
For my blood
They smell it
In the water
They are ready
To devour me
Tear me limb
From limb
To take my place
And stand in my shoes
As if I was never
There
In the first place
Why do
You put me
Through this heartache
I would have never
Envisioned
You ever mistreating me
You’re losing
Me completely
And you don’t care
Unless someone
Else starts to see me

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“Twisted Words”

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I’ve already got
Too many
Voices and personas
In my head
I’m apologizing
To myself
I made
A mistake
I let your voice
Be louder
Than mine
I allowed you to enter
Into my head space
Messing up
My thought process
Causing me to
Question my decisions
About what’s
In my heart
And what I know
Is Truth
I must believe
In me
and
What I do
Is best for me
I’m not being naive
It’s my survival
Mechanism
My intuition
Is in tune
It has gotten me
Thus far
But you
Caught off guard
Throwing me off my feet
Causing me
To fall too quick
I couldn’t brace myself
It’s not your fault
It’s mine
I heard you
And your doubts
But your doubts
Are not mine
And I won’t start
Doubting myself now
I’ve lived this long
Doing what I do best
Being the person
With near misses
In every situation
In my life
I got this
Sit back and see
I’m on a level
No one understands
I’ve trained myself
To be mindful
In tuned with who I am
I’ve seen evil
And greatness
In everyone
My survival
Is my instincts
I’m trusting it
To keep me
And take care
Of me
So let me
Take my minute
To regroup
Pull it together
And do a cleansing breath
Cast off
All that was said
Then
You can see
Me in action

Yellowbonewonda

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“Mission A Go”

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It’s the fourth of July
Year-round
In this bedroom
Mission is a go
Overwhelm me
Make all my senses
Taste
Smell
Touch
Sight
Hearing
Burst and shoot
Like firecrackers
No t.v.
No phones
We are our
Only distractions
We will be our
Best and most engaging
Entertainment
Lighting up the sky
Causing the
Ohhhs and awwws
Out of excitement
I want your love
To take me over
No thinking
Just doing
Animal instincts
Tearing and devouring
And
Smothering me
With unlimited kisses
From my head to my toes
Igniting my ignition
Putting me in overdrive
Sending me plummeting
Out of control
Off the highest mountain
As you touch my body
I want to quiver and shiver
As if I’m cold
But I am not
My body is spasming
In a seizure
Blurring the lines
Of lust and love
Causing goosebumps
To line up
All over my body
At attention
Ready and willing
To do whatever
Your marching orders
Tell them
Without questioning
I trust you to
Complete every mission
Diving deeper
Into my waters
There are no dangers
Other than
Falling deeper
In love
Than we are
This moment
In each other’s arms
Not wanting to let go
In fear of enemy capture

Yellowbonewonda

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“Stop Killing My Children”

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Yes ma’am
No ma’am
Is what I’m teaching them
My child
Is my responsibility
There are no
Uncontrollable
Outbursts
Talking back
Fighting
Cussing at anytime
Telling me no
When I tell them
To do something
Their homework
Done
Their room
Clean
Graduating
A must
Book smarts
Street smarts
The legal hussle
Of this system
On check
Striving to be their best
Being
Something more
Than a thug
Or a thot
Being hard headed
And loose
Is not an option
They are
Prepared and avoiding
You
The ones with guns
Ready to kill them
Coming from my womb
Don’t try to
Slide my child
On the assembly line
Tattooing
CPS property
On their ass
Telling them to call
You
When I discipline
And correct them
This is not an unlimited
Reproduction
Making children
So you can kill them
When they are misbehaving
Out in these streets
Where guns are easily
Accessible
You won’t tie my hands
I am the Queen
In this castle
And
My King is right
Beside me
Supporting me
In my rants
Together or not
We are their protectors
Teachers
And
Nuturers
The creators of these
Little ones
In this house
We established for them
To follow
Rules and regulations
We are preparing
Them
To live
And
Be
Part of
A productive society
But
If you want them
Come and get them
Take care of them
Raise them to be
What you call
Decent human beings
Disposable children
To be killed off
Lied on
By the media
Giving a poor excuse
Why they deserved to die
Saying
They were
Part
Of a broken home
Where no one loved them
A disgrace
A delinquent
Given
A death sentence
In these streets
Not my kids
They
Will not fall
Through those
System cracks
These future
Kings and Queens
Will be
Making moves
Like champions
Building empires
Unstoppable
Pillars of the community

Yellowbonewonda

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“Not On My Watch”

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How do I unplug
From you
Disconnect
And walk away
From you
Not care
What happens to you
I can’t
It’s
Not as easy
As you may think
To pull away
Unconnecting
That connection
We have between us
It is
Electrifying
Refreshing
Recharging
It brings new life
To me on a daily
It’s not in my nature
To stand on the sidelines
Or walk away
From those that
Need me
I have a Good Samaritan
Heart
That goes toward
An accident
Helping
To save a life
From the brink on death
I won’t
Be afraid
Wait
And see who else
Will help
It’s a do
Or die situation
Action
Is the only option
Helping anyone
In need of helping
You can depend on me
I got your back
And then some
Once a friend
Always a friend
You’re never alone
I’m your
Chameleon
Changing
Blending in
And watching you
To catch you
When you fall
I am
A fighter
That will fight negativity
That cloud your judgement
A motivator
That will push you
Past your weakness
A cheerleader
That will encourage
Your spirit
To push your body
Across
The finish line
First prize
Is a guarantee
Your life
Your happiness
Your everything
Is always a value
And nourished
By me
Believe that

Yellowbonewonda

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“Too Much At Once”

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I opened
Two boxes
And can’t close them
Again
Those damn
Shiny boxes
Were so tempting
I released a plague
Out of them
It’s twisting and turning
My life
And crumbling it
I’m fighting
To climb
From the depths of
This Earth
Cause
My @ss is burning
This can be heaven or hell
For me
On this new journey
I feel like I am caught
Between a rock
And a hard place
And it’s killing me
My blessings
And curses
Are mixed up
Confusing me
If I walked away
To catch my breath
And stop from spinning
I’m suffocating from
Lack of air
I’m seeing things
That have different meaning
I won’t allow
No one
To break me
Break my heart
And tell me lies
Of who I was to them
And who they believe
I am
To be
I am not that person
I used to be
Bright eyed
And bushy tailed
Cute
And cuddly
I have a way
About me
I am cautious
With my curiosity
It’s so much
To take in my mind
It’s overwhelming
I don’t know where to start
At the beginning
Or
At the end
To this story
A drama series
That won’t end
Or die off easily

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Family Ties”

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We are caught
In governmental
Red tape
We are legalized strangers
Linked as family
Based on a common ancestor
Stating that we are
Blood bound relatives
Yet it still does not
Meet my definition
Of family
If what you know
About me
Can be found
On the internet
In public record
My name
My birthday
Possibly my favorite color
Any stranger
Can be family
If they want
To know me superficially
I want something more
In-depth
A real connection
Someone I can depend on
That will love me
With no ulterior motives
I don’t want to rely on
What I was told
From birth
You are kin
And I have to accept it
I won’t
Love you
Unconditionally
After being
Lied
Robbed
and taken advantage of
At some point
You have to release them
Enemies as family
Is not what I’m
Looking for
Falling without
A safety net
Crashing and burning
A horrid death
At the hands of
These so called people
Because of history
My survival instincts
Flight or fight
Kicks in
To protect
Myself
I don’t have time
For this foolery
Because I was told
You were family

-Yellowbonewonda

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“No One Else Is Invited”

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There are
Two invitations
To the unknown
One for you
The other for me
No need to RSVP
Time is
Infinite
Location
Where we can be free
To do what adults do
Being entrapped
In a
Seduction dance
That can go
All night
Carrying out
All of our little
Nasty fantasies
It’s time
To explore
Together
Uncharted territory
Let us map
A new discovery
Down my chest
Between the mountains
To my secret valley
A paradise
Where we can
Moan
And groan
Together
Touching
Caressing
Kissing
Each other
Intertwining
Our bodies
Until we reach estascy

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Emergency Heart Surgery”

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There is a foreign object
In my chest
Its been there
For a long time
The pain
Has dulled
But the nuisance of it
Is causing
Difficulties
In my breathing
The doctor said
He can not give me
Anymore time
Emergency surgery
Is set for today
To remove
A dead piece
Of my heart
That is you
I’m ready
To risk it all
To be free
I need
To let go
So I can
Breath
Without the toxicity
That is killing me
I can not longer be
Second to last
I’m not excepting
Your foolery
Your intentions
To break me
It is over
Submitting
Is unacceptable
Not an option
If the cost
Is losing
My dignity
It’s too high of a price
Of being your lady
Only on special occasions
I am no one’s accessory
I am an original
One of a kind
Refusing to be
Boxed up
Collecting dust
Looking pretty
You don’t
Play with me
On a daily
The world
Is at my door
All I need is to
Explore

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Popping Your Cork”

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Too often
Beautiful
Vibrant
Intelligent women
Lose all common sense
When it comes to dudes
Picking at the bottom
Of the barrel
Thugs
Broke back
Pretend preachers
Down-and-out ballers
And left over
Take aways
That surely have spoiled
They are damaged goods
Sold as is
Damn duds
No return
No refund
No bargain
In the end
Two choices
Either
Stick with him
Or
Dump him
No one else wants
Your broken toys
If every woman
Step back
And notice
Something magnificent
Within them
A geyser
Growing
And
Ready to explode
It’s an easy outcome
That will happen
Depends on the man
Standing before her
A good man
Knows how to tender
That passion
Turning it
Into blissfulness
That gives
Back
Over and over again
But
A Boy
In a man’s skin
A guy
That has no goals
For his future
Won’t amount to $hit
Won’t be $hit
And is full of $hit
And constantly
Looking
To ignite her fuse
Waiting to see
Her blow
Just to call
Her crazy
And out of control
This is a man
That doesn’t love her
Won’t help her
Or don’t want her happy
Because he’s an @sswhole
Everyone is a threat to him
Because everyone
Sees his true self
Forget about decorum
It is time
To
Go insane
Get your point across
Let them have it
Pop your cork
Let it flow
Full steam ahead
Gain your sanity
Say everything
Bottled up
No one has the right
To walk all over you
Leaving you broken
And confused
Asking questions
Why your life
Is the way it is
Or
How come people
Treat you bad
I say it
It’s time you take control
And leave
Dumb @sses
In your rearview
Far in your past

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Untapped Strength”

Negativity
Breeds
Like a virus
Until all hope
Is gone
Sometimes you need
A special person
Supportive enough
To help you out
A flashlight
Guiding you
To your freedom
When you are drowning
By idle thoughts
Thoughts
That are suffocating
To a point
You can not breathe
Or function
Use
Your lifeline
When you’re tapped out
To help
You figure it out
Make sure they are
Ready
And willing to
Have your back
Someone that
Has everything
You need
Strength
Stamina
Devotion
And dependability
When you call
And you are close
To the edge
They are
Able
To pull
You back
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Everything is temporary
Life
Jobs
Relationships
And
Emotions
If Nothing
Is Right
Today
Give it
A few
Tomorrows
To get better
Your life is a gift
You leave it
Too soon
You will never know
Your potential
It’s a slow race
To the finish line
Yet everyone wins
Making it
Through their journey
Life is worth it
It’s better to be
Lost
And searching
Because is always
A good chance of
Being found
Or
You finding
Your own way out
Just
Believe
In yourself
Better days are coming

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Protecting My People”

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I take on the job
Free of charge
As a lioness
Being mean
Instinctive
Territorial
And protective
Watching over
Hidden diamonds
Covered
In the blackness
Inside the deepest
Darkest cave
Just sparkling
Bright and
Full of potential
Some people
Just need
To be
Protected
In some moments
I stand up
And defend
The innocence
That lives
Within
People
I call
Them
Pure hearts
And yes
I am their keeper
Sheltering them
From those
That are
Evil
Walking among
Normal people
I will pledge
To do my best
To not allow
Their extinction
They are amazing
Wonderful
Beautiful
Human beings
People take
Advance of them
Because they can
Stealing their
Pureness
Stunting their
Flawless
Happy
Joyful
Character
By
Abusing
Neglecting
Tossing them
Around
And throwing
Them in the garbage
I want to
Shake them
To get some
Sense in them
To stop being
Their predators
Entertainment
I want to
Help them
Get their life together
And
Start acknowledging
A worth
Of
Being someone
That has a future
Not being doormat
Walked on
Day and night
Taken advantage of
Because of their
Good nature

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Patiently Waiting”

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I can not pretend
To like you
Love you
Understand you
Or care for
Your well-being
I don’t
Do fakeness
My face
Mirrors my emotions
And my body
Reacts
To bull$hit
A built
In lie detector
Ready to go haywire
So
Please keep your distance
I’m afraid your propinquity
It may lead me
Into temptation
To act crazy
I’m everready
To put
My hands on you
Releasing all
My pinned up anger
Only for you
What you do
How you breath
Being in proximity of me
Makes me suspicious
I’m locked and loaded
My sonar is always
Tracking
Waiting on your
Boldness
To approach me
I will choose my battles wisely
But you come into my space
We going to war
All ammunition
Will be spent
If you know
What’s good for you
Keep on your side
And I’ll stay on mine
We will live
A full healthy life
Of being cooperative
Where we can coexist

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Clear Thought Process”

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Rain is
The forgotten
Symphony
Music instruments
Made in nature
The best kept secret
To those
Able to hear it
It’s a gift
To experience it
In its glory
As it pitter-pats
Against all things
In nature
I personally melt
Into it’s musicality
It is comforting
Relaxing
And Refreshing
As I sway
Back and forth
No more restlessness
I fall asleep
Dreaming in the Matrix
I hear the rain
It changes me
It’s hypnotic
And calming
Putting a pause
To my scattered
Thought process
It shuts me down
Then reboots me
After an extensive
Maintenance check
Cooling
My mainframe
So
I don’t crash
Avoiding
A blackout
Extending across nations
So beware
Hackers
Trolling for priceless data
It’s protected
By my white hats
Fortifying it
So no one
You will
Erase
My memories
My character
Or
Exploit
My temperament
Changing me
Into the beast
No one wants
To meet

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Food For Thought”

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Why do you rush
Here and there
Take your time
Enjoy the scenery
You only have
One life to live
Stop chasing behind
Faces on paper
There are other
Things in life
That are important
Stop neglecting
Your happiness
And the simple things in life
Like family and friends
They are the ones that
Love you unconditionally
They provide you
The freedom to be who
You want to be
Without being caught
In censorship
Satisfy those
Cravings before
It starts crying like a baby
Refusing to be ignored
Making you
Tired
Exhausted
And incoherent
Causing you to fall
Into a trap
Of grabbing
Everything
That captivates you
Then
It’s too late
You’re overeating
And overburdened
Your eyes are big
Magnifying your hunger
Your stomach is suffering
To the point of
Exploding
Take my advice
Eat slowly
Chew each morsel
Taste your food
As if it was
The first time
Savour it
Record the data
Imprint it permanently
On your DNA
Making it apart of you
Sense there is
More
To your life
Other than despondency

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Going To Faraway Places”

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I have
No worries
The heavenly father
Will bless
And replenish
What I’m needing
To keep on my journey
Those takers
Will continue
Even after I’m gone
On their destructive path
They are set on
Killing all beauty
Around them
I promise myself
I will be long gone
And out of reach
Far from that obliteration
That is them
I’ve learned from my past
I was too focused
On everyone
Except me
My energy
My love
Giving
All of me
Helping others
Neglecting myself
I’m not complaining
I gave it freely
But it was so draining
I finally had to recognize
That everyone
Does not
Deserve me
Who I am
As a person
What I offer
To the equation
For a long time
I’ve been
Malnourished
And
Dehydrated
Mentally
Physically
And
Emotionally
Not feeding myself
With nutritional substance
To substantial satisfy
Or fill me
I had no urge
Or visible belly bulge
That forced me
To unbutton
My pants
Before sitting
After eating
Some people are
Just takers
Taking all the good
And leaving
Footprints behind
Up and down your back
But whatever treasure
They think
They stole from me
Will
Diminish quickly
What they have
It’s too
Good and powerful
It will vanish
As they raise it to
Their mouth
Before consumption
Leaving them hungry
And Searching
To impoverish from
The next person
They see

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Confused By You”

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How do you decipher
A mathematical equation
That was thought
To have been solved
Twenty years ago
The teacher approved
The answer
Saying you was correct
Then out of nowhere
You get
An outdated letter
Saying you failed
After they recalculated
All of the
So called data
I thought
Those years
Were behind me
Dead and Buried
Six feet deep
And a extra few feet
Cause I jumped in the grave
And stomped it
It’s restless spirits
A rising
Ghosts are haunting
Chanting in
Repeative whispers
Saying strange things
Like
I love you
I’ve missed you
And want to see you
It’s a miracle
Their eyes have opened
They’ve gained their sight
They finally noticed
I wasn’t there beside them
All this time
I spent a lifetime
Of detachment
Hiding in plain sight
Now I am no longer invisible
I’m so hesitant
To find out the answer
Do you
Want
My forgiveness
My tears
The broken pieces of my heart
To mend them
I’m not sure
I will be able to hand
Them all over
So careless
What is your
Ulterior motive
There’s a reason
For this call
You’re not telling me
The whole truth
Let’s count to three
Rip off
This bandaid quickly
Cut to the chase
Throwing it all
At once
The kitchen sink included
Because that day
I stood before you
Pleading my case
Trying so hard
Overexurting myself
Putting all my effort
In explaining
How priceless
And irreplaceable
I am
I still can not comprehend
How
I had to sale
Myself
As if I was brand new car
I was not a thing
I was a person
With feelings
You just wasn’t
Interested then
So how come
Now
I’m important

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Hey Mister”

Hey Mister
Excuse me
I have a story
To run by you
Let’s take a ride
On memory lane
For a while
To see if you remember
That girl
Back in the day
That had your
Tail a waging
Well that firecracker
She’s my mother
Stop hating on her
She does not deserve it
She did what
You couldn’t
And was a parent
She did her job
And then some
Taking care
Of her responsibility
I heard the rumors
From those wicked
Little birdies
How you denied me
Because of my color
Even Stevie Wonder
Could see
I looked just like you
A splitting image
And very good balance
Of you and my mother
Thankful back in those days
We only needed
Grandma
The DNA investigator
She
Took one look at me
And said
Stop bothering her
I was your child
And Stop your denial
Yet that wasn’t what
Crushed my image of you
I had no anger
I was very observant
I continued
To give our relationship
A chance
And kept visiting
To get to know you
But the only thing
I remember
You never getting close to me
Staying in the shadows
Watching me
Never interacting with me
That hollowed feeling
Was disturbing and grew
Inside me
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You had no light
Shining to guide me
I felt
So lost
Being near you
So as distance grew
I went with it
Letting go of
False dreams
Of
Being a daddy’s little girl
Even in the same room
We were on different planets
You on yours
Me on mine
With no way
Between them
I didn’t pretend
Or glamourize you
I saw reality
You was my birth father
And wasn’t daddy material
We were linked
By blood
And nothing else
Those dreams of
A little girl
Wanting a daddy
Is long gone
And almost forgotten
You just missed something
That was glorious
The good
The bad
And the ugly
Of being there
Celebrating with me
My accomplishment
Protecting me
From bad relationships
And loving me
Unconditional
Who stands now
In front of you
Is someone
That is a
Good person
Beautiful
Intelligent
Good heart
Be happy
I’m still here
Alive and kicking
Hard as ever
I’m just Numb
To childish fantasies
I’m a grown woman
I don’t hate you
You’re a stranger
And if you want to know me
Pick up your phone
And call me
My number has been same
For decades

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Don’t Make Your Issues Mine”

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He has a lot of growing
Up to do
He knows what
He needs to do
To get back into
My good graces
That’s if he does not
Want to lose
His future
The woman
He wants to call
Wifey
And
The future mother
Of his unborn children
There is no comparison
Between
You and I
The problem
With hoes
And hoodrats
You try
Too hard
Playing on the fence
It’s more
To what’s
Between your legs
That will keep him
You have
To have
Intelligence
And beauty within
The type of woman
I am
And what I do
To keep any man
Is my secret
You think I am not
Aware of my surroundings
I see you thirsty
Hoes
You are irrelevant
To even try to compare
His lust for you
And his love for me
We are not
In the same area code
He wasn’t mine
When you met him
He was free
To do as he pleased
You and he
Did what
You did together
That’s on you
He did
What dogs do
While off their leashes
Running around
The neighborhood
Humping every
8itch in heat
It’s funny
You caught
Feelings
Stop using me
As the excuse
On why you
Can’t keep him
The best kept secret
Is that
When he’s with you
No matter the distance
He’s craving me
Dreaming of me
Wanting me
All day and night
I laugh
When you say
What’s between
His legs is magic
Yet that magic
Didn’t keep me
I got something
More in value
The key to his heart
You have fun
Doing what you do
I’m not scared to lose him
You can’t take
What’s not yours
In the first place
If I really
Wanted him
I will call him
But in our circumstance
He needs to grow up
And be the man
A leader
So until then
He will wish for
The woman
That is me
That can only fill his desires

-Yellowbonewonda

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