“Cautious Distrust”

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I do not live
In a fairytale
I am not
That little
Innocent girl
That gobbled up
The lies you once told
And
Continue to tell
I am a little wiser
Stronger
Experienced of the world
I know truth
Is actions
Not empty words
Thrown at me
So I am inclined
To doubt
Your intentions
Your motivations
I question
Everything
Anything
That involves you
I believe
In my heart
You are inspired
Purely by self-interest
Trying to gain
Some type of advantage
Over me
Your pursuit
To seek me out
Without regard for
The people involved
It is selfish
Reprehensible
Inexcusable
Repugnant of you
Because you are
Still mendacious
Fraudulent
Full of treachery
You live so dishonestly
Why can’t you
Act honorably
Your selfish reasons
Whatever
They maybe
Only push people away
Just
Tell the truth
Why are you
Really here
Do you want forgiveness
Do you want a relationship
Are you being pressured
What is it
That you want
Because the hair on my neck
Is standing at attention
Signaling I should be
Vigilantly watchful of you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I Wear My Hats Proudly”

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I am told
My facial expressions
Are priceless
I wish
I could see
What
The person
In front
Of me
Is seeing
But maybe not
Because
People
Have told me
I come off
Mean
When I am
Not trying
To be
But
Anyway
That will not
Change me
Love me
Or
Hate me
It makes no
Difference
Because
I am
Who
I am
I can be
Harmless
I can be
Ruthless
When I open
My mouth
Sometimes
My roar
Comes out
Silent
Until
The volume
Is turned up
When my opinion
Is asked
I say
Friend
Or
Foe
Be cautious
When you step
Beyond
Those boundaries
My truth
Is not
For all
And a lie
You will not
Hear from me
I do not
Do fake
I do not hold
My tongue
For anyone
You ask
I answer
And
Be prepared
Expect my truth
If you want
A lie
Ask another
Because
I do not
Kiss
No one’s @ss
And
Hold their hand
When the
Truth is
What they need
To hear

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I Pass Player”

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Player
Player
Here is
My disclaimer
I refuse
To get played
By you
I do not want
In my future
To be
A scorned woman
Plotting vengeance
To get back
At you
I refuse to be
That kind of woman
Miserable because
Of you
I checked
My list
On things
To accomplish
In my life
My thoughts
My dreams
My bed
And it
Did not
Include you
So get it
Through both of
Your heads
I am not
Interested
Your charm
Your looks
Your existence
Does not
Peak my curiosity
I do not need
To get
To know you
To understand
The true you
So take
The games
You want
To play
The lies
You want
To tell
The thoughts
Of you squirming
Your way
Into my bed
And
Go somewhere else
With that
I refuse to
Give you
Any of
My time
My energy
My loving
So you can
Mistreat me
Like others
Before me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Me Against Me”

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I am
All alone
Wading
Waiting
In the middle
Of an ocean
Full of feelings
I can not trust
Trying
To figure out
A mystery
Before I drown
And it is
Too late
I need to know
Who is
The traitor
Or traitors
Inside of me
My mind
My heart
Or
Both
My mind said
Do not believe
My heart
My heart said
Do not believe
My mind
They are
Both pointing
The finger
At each other
Who is lying
Who is telling
The truth
I do not know
Which to trust
I feel
They are both
Against me
Somehow
I am
At that point
Of taking
Extreme measures
And
Stop trusting
Either of them
Because neither are
Providing information
I have zero help
To help
Myself
Something needs
To give
I need
To get out
Of this mess
This bewilderment
And heartbreak
I feel
It is
Distorting everything
That was once
Felt like
Common sense
And
I am about
To be lost
My cracks are
Showing
I am slowly
Breaking apart

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Sequels Are Needed”

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I am searching
And encouraging
For any fairy tale
Author
To tell me
The truth
I need to know
Before I waste
My life away
Waiting
For the person
That could be
Or will be
My everything
My heartbeat
My best friend
My companion
The One
That will love me
Through this life
Into eternity
How to keep them
Because ending
A story with
Happily ever after
Does not
Make it
The End
Of the story
It is no preparation
For the future
Where is
The next sequel
A continuance
Telling us
What happens
After marriage
Give us
The skinny
A percise record
Expressed accurately
In words or pictures
It does not matter
We need
It to survive
Through trials and
Tribulations
When
Friends
Family
Enemies
Or
Each other
Become part of
The equation
Because we all
Can not runaway
Into the forrest
And
Take refuge
In a fortress
With traps around
To ward off
Anyone
Wishing
To do harm
To our family
Please
Provide us guidance
And
Write the sequel

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Secrets Are Nuclear”

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It is no secret
Everyone knows
What is done
In the dark
Will eventually
Come to the light
Lies and Secrecy
Can cause
Complete devastation
The numbers
Are off the charts
Friendships
Relationships
Marriages
Nations
Broken
Lives taken
Because
You made the
Wrong choice
Causing a monumental
Defeat to any
Bleeding heart
That loves
Cares
And will experience
The crushing lost
My advice
Do not be dazzled
By a two sided coin
In front of you
That has
One side Fire
And the other Ice
Once you flip it
It is
An instant lost
On every toss
Avoid it
At any cost
Refuse to touch it
Back away
Leave it
Laying there
Because
The only outcome
Is the burning of
Sturdy bridges
And/Or
Freezing  solid
Someone’s heart
So are you 
So willing to walk
Around carrying
A nuclear device
That has too
Many variables
That can come forward
And set it off
Human nature
Will be your end
Eventually 
Everyone talks
Blowing up
Everything
Because of
Feelings being hurt
Not caring
If either
The innocent
Or
The wicked
Are
Caught 
In the middle
Of the blast
Of all the chaos

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Second Chance To Fail”

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You convinced me
To allow you to
Rewrite our story
And give you
Another chance
To play
The leading man
Seeking
His second chance
To change
What made us
Into a disater movie
You assured me
Not to worry
Because
You had
My back
My front
All sides
Of me
To catch me
So I would not
Fall to hard
On the pavement
You was so convincing
I believed
You wanted
To create
This love story
With me
Live in bliss
For the rest
Of our lives
Together as a family
But
This time
It was a record moment
When your
Signals
Started to go haywire
Causing me worry
All over again
Questioning if you
Were lying
Your words
And actions
Conflicted
And
You refuse
To give me clarity
You did not
Bother to talk
To me
You stopped
All communication
With no explanation
I do not
Know the reason
Why we cleaned
The slate
When it was
Within days
You crushed
Any and all dreams
We mentioned
We wanted
Creating
The second series
To another disater story

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Heartless Relations”

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I finally
Discovered
How this
Relationship
Collapsed
Why coldness
Fills the inside
Of my heart
And now
How to warm it
Even after
The heartache
You put me through
I am not
Completely broken
My memories
Helped me
To see
The truth
About you
They came with
Such forcefulness
Flooding back
To tell me
A story
Our life
Played
On a big screen
In my head
As a movie
At first
It was
Too fast
But it eventually
Slowed down
Showing me
In great detail
What you did
To me
And
How you tried
To leave
Me broken
It began
By you telling
One lie
Then another lie
Building
And creating
A life
On a crooked foundation
Topped with
A house of cards
That was
Ready to crumble
At any moment
It was not
My fault
You could not
Tell the truth
I loved you
I will not
Regret it
I meant it
I was in it
It is your loss
When we
Could have
Had a beautiful
Story

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I Stand By Truth”

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Do not tell
Me lies
Or
Lie about me
Saying I did
Anything
That I
Did not do
Keep me
Out of the
Black and white
Print
When I read
The morning
Paper
I only want
The facts
I am not
That person
Willing to
Bend over
And
Take it
Ingesting what
You are
Feeding me
Without
Putting up
A fight
Nor am I that
Type of person
To start
Crying
And
Saying
My feelings
Were hurt
I will defend
Myself
At any
And all cost
So do not
Include me
In any mess
Your gossiping
And
Half truths
I do not want
To hear it
Or be part
Of it
Just leave me
Out of
That nastiness
It is not
My business
So do not
Make it mine
Or you will
Be preparing
For a fight

-Yellowbonewonda

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