“Island Of Our Own”

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All I ask
Is that you
Promise
Yourself
That you
Will surrender
Your stress
Lock it up
Keeping it
Away from
This happiness
With both
Want to share
The pain you
Had before me
Don’t give
It so
Much control
Just
Direct all
Your senses
And
Concentrate
On us
Let’s stay
In our world
Our own piece
Of heaven
In the center
Of a
Complicated world
No outside
Madness
Will ever
Enter
What
Is outside
Stays outside
Where it can’t
Hurt us
Never
Destroying
What we’ve grown
This kingdom
Is no kingdom
Without this bond
I will always
Be your refuge
And you will be mine
So
Let me
Be that
Barbed wire
Surrounding
Protecting
And
Keeping you
Mentally
And
Emotionally strong
Don’t worry
All trespasses
Will not enter
So relax
And let go
Leaving all
Your worries
Behind you
When you
Come across
This heavenly
Threshold
Where we
Have built
A strong foundation
I can guarantee
All our past
Sweat and tears
Will hold
It up
In any storm
No weathering
Or
Taking shelter
Anywhere else
We are home

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Confused By You”

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How do you decipher
A mathematical equation
That was thought
To have been solved
Twenty years ago
The teacher approved
The answer
Saying you was correct
Then out of nowhere
You get
An outdated letter
Saying you failed
After they recalculated
All of the
So called data
I thought
Those years
Were behind me
Dead and Buried
Six feet deep
And a extra few feet
Cause I jumped in the grave
And stomped it
It’s restless spirits
A rising
Ghosts are haunting
Chanting in
Repeative whispers
Saying strange things
Like
I love you
I’ve missed you
And want to see you
It’s a miracle
Their eyes have opened
They’ve gained their sight
They finally noticed
I wasn’t there beside them
All this time
I spent a lifetime
Of detachment
Hiding in plain sight
Now I am no longer invisible
I’m so hesitant
To find out the answer
Do you
Want
My forgiveness
My tears
The broken pieces of my heart
To mend them
I’m not sure
I will be able to hand
Them all over
So careless
What is your
Ulterior motive
There’s a reason
For this call
You’re not telling me
The whole truth
Let’s count to three
Rip off
This bandaid quickly
Cut to the chase
Throwing it all
At once
The kitchen sink included
Because that day
I stood before you
Pleading my case
Trying so hard
Overexurting myself
Putting all my effort
In explaining
How priceless
And irreplaceable
I am
I still can not comprehend
How
I had to sale
Myself
As if I was brand new car
I was not a thing
I was a person
With feelings
You just wasn’t
Interested then
So how come
Now
I’m important

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Don’t Make Your Issues Mine”

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He has a lot of growing
Up to do
He knows what
He needs to do
To get back into
My good graces
That’s if he does not
Want to lose
His future
The woman
He wants to call
Wifey
And
The future mother
Of his unborn children
There is no comparison
Between
You and I
The problem
With hoes
And hoodrats
You try
Too hard
Playing on the fence
It’s more
To what’s
Between your legs
That will keep him
You have
To have
Intelligence
And beauty within
The type of woman
I am
And what I do
To keep any man
Is my secret
You think I am not
Aware of my surroundings
I see you thirsty
Hoes
You are irrelevant
To even try to compare
His lust for you
And his love for me
We are not
In the same area code
He wasn’t mine
When you met him
He was free
To do as he pleased
You and he
Did what
You did together
That’s on you
He did
What dogs do
While off their leashes
Running around
The neighborhood
Humping every
8itch in heat
It’s funny
You caught
Feelings
Stop using me
As the excuse
On why you
Can’t keep him
The best kept secret
Is that
When he’s with you
No matter the distance
He’s craving me
Dreaming of me
Wanting me
All day and night
I laugh
When you say
What’s between
His legs is magic
Yet that magic
Didn’t keep me
I got something
More in value
The key to his heart
You have fun
Doing what you do
I’m not scared to lose him
You can’t take
What’s not yours
In the first place
If I really
Wanted him
I will call him
But in our circumstance
He needs to grow up
And be the man
A leader
So until then
He will wish for
The woman
That is me
That can only fill his desires

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Mate”

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I want my match
My mate
That I will have
Forever
Someone that wants
What I want
Same goals
In life
Who is
On the same
Level
Someone that will
Complete me
And protect me
Being the last piece
Of my puzzle
When we are pinned against
The wall
My job is
To play timid
Protect his neck
And sneak attack
Any predator
If you want
What is ours
It will not be easy
To take
Our love
It’s a fight
To the death
What we built
Together
Is our paradise
No one else
Can have it
We will be devious
To defend
Falling into
Whatever position
Needed
To keep
Anyone who challenges us
Off balance
Our love
Our bond
Our life together
Is our priority
We will die
To protect each other
We are in this together
No one can break apart
The invincible
And unstoppable duo
This world
Will know
We are forever
And
We take things literal

Those whom God
Hath joined together
Let no man put asunder

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Gone Home”

By: Yellowbonewonda

There are some
People on this Earth
That exist
I think
They are heaven
Sent
Placed on Earth
To be tested
For whatever time frame
Of their pureness
Before they are taken
Into God’s grace
These are the Gone to Soon
Innocents of the world
Babies
Toddlers
Teens
Elders
That were
Not blinded
By the Devil’s
Charm and glamour
They saw the truth
And followed the path
They were sent on
To earn their wings
This test is like the
Hunger games
But no one is being killed
To win
A contagion of the deadly sins
Are set free
And the ones that are immune
From gluttony
Lust
Greed
Pride
Sorrow
Despair
Despondency
Wrath
Vainity
And Sloth
Are the ones chosen
For immediate release
You will never
See it in their eyes
Or in their demeanour
They have been through
Hell but they
Have never shown it
Walking through
Live minefields on a daily
Stepping with confidence
Knowing that wherever
They place their foot
Nothing will harm them
Because
There are angels
Guiding and protecting them
Shielding them from the blast
When others
Traveling along side
Of them
Are getting blown up
By the minute
These beautiful people
Are the anoitted
They are
Withstanding every
Trail and tribulation
Thrown at them
If you don’t know them
They are
The ones standing
Head high
Smiling from ear to ear
Like nothing has ever touched them
They are a testament
Of their faith
They believed
In a higher power
That all is well
Even when it
Doesn’t seem
Like it
They were told
In their dreams
Everything will be better
And to trust
Even when
No money is coming
Everything will be
Provided for
Just be happy
A roof is over their head
Clothes on their backs
And they have a full belly
Every thing else
That trickles through
Is icing on the cake
So I tell you
Stressing on things
Out of your power
Is something not worth it
Because tomorrow
Is not promised
And every minute
Should be
Treated as a blessing
Keep smiling
Through adversity
And follow that lighted path
To the old kingdom

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“Where Are You Going”

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When it comes
To Mother Nature’s
Wrath
She has no plan
She doesn’t care
About your circumstances
Floods
Earthquakes
Brush Fires
Snow storms
Droughts
Are thrown at us
She is blind
Like Lady Justice
We can’t do anything
But run and hide
Hoping she’s not mean
Or spiteful enough
To keep chasing
After us
When she fights
Nothing is fair
She throws
Houses
Buildings
Cars
Drowns
Anyone and everyone
Devastating nations
She is an equal opportunist
That speaks a language
Everyone understands
Globally
Her wrath
Spreads
All over
She doesn’t care
About anything
She has two questions
To ask
All of humanity
Live or die
And whatever your
Personal preference
On who you love
Political stance
And who you hate
Is irrelevant
Your fighting
Is not her problem
That’s your cross to bare
If you are
Rich or poor
Black or white
Democrat or Republican
Gay or Straight
Her mission is to
Destroy or let live
She is judge and jury
Of the physical land
That we live on
She doesn’t care about
Where your soul
Goes
Heaven or Hell
That is up to
A much greater power
Until then
She will show her truth
Through her actions
She doesn’t lie
Or make promises
To spare anyone
Over another
She accepts no bribes
Money can’t buy
Your life
No one
Is safe
Your
Last battle
With good and evil
Is based on your actions
Before her rampage
Of this Earth
So pray to your maker
And be absolved of your sins
Get to high ground
Stay out of her path
And hope she doesn’t
Change directions
Coming to your hiding place
Wiping out
Your existance

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Wasting Your Time”

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You have an
Invisible target
On your back
Without knowing
The answer to why
Some people
Are hateful
Hurtful
And all about theirself
Is simple
It’s something they
Didn’t get
As a child
A hug
A kiss
Or a good old spanking
But now
That they’ve
Become an adult
They are acting out
Or is it just possible
They were
Born that way
Cruel
Heartless
And an @$$
Who knows
I’m not diagnosing
Whatever they are searching for
Be careful
They see what
They need
Inside of you
They are
In their
Delusion
Wanting to see
Someone else wading
In the same crap
Called their life
It’s funny
They actually believe
Their life
Is better
Yet they don’t know
You from Adam or Eve
So stop stressing yourself
In asking
Why and how come
It’s not personal
You got caught
In their hunting scope
And became tonight’s dinner
Wrong place
Wrong time
You are their pawn
In
A Game
Called misery loves company
And it feel like
A Chainsaw massacre
They don’t care
To see no one else’s
Pain
It’s a formed habit
They’ve developed
Self absorbed bastards
Believing
They deserve
What’s not theirs
And your an obstacle
To defeat
Call it what it is
Stop looking for
Answers
It is too
Exhausting
Choose your
Sanity
Don’t be a victim
Be a survivor
You will never understand
How some people are
Just ignore them

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Absentee Family”

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I wasn’t loved
By my family
They were abusive
After awhile
It is all excuses
To not
Be accountable
For yourself
Today
At this minute
The guilt game
Only effects
Those that feel emotions
You need to realize
You are not
Your past transgressions
Your situation
Although tragic
Must be put to rest
No one has
A hold on you
As much as you do
Memories
Memorized
Engrained into your brain
Yet the keys to your chains
Are in your hands
Your
Mother
Father
Siblings
Or extended family
If they are
In the same mindset
They won’t help you
Unshackle yourself
Release that innocent child
That was you
From all those past fears
Tears and sadness
You’ve grown to be somebody
And you fought
With determination
Not to be the people
That cause this tragedy
One day came
And it was kismet
You crossed my path
I was able to
Give what you needed
Pure energy
That filled
What was almost
An empty vessel
Just
Start your healing
It’s now up to you
To nourish it
Empathy
And
Compassion
Are emotions
You will be feeling
Coming
In waves
Surging
On a daily
Today
Tomorrow
And
The tomorrow’s thereafter
Just be open
To receiving it
It’s not complex
Take care of you
Give thanks
That you made it through
You are
Where you should be
Standing before
Your future
And potential
Happiness
Don’t let a biological disaster
Called your DNA
Keep a hold of
Who you want to be
Where you want to be
And how you are continuing
To get there
Your protectors
Came in all forms
Guiding you
Helping you to function
Until this moment
Where you need to
Forgive them
For the sake of you
So you can
Stop concentrating
On a scared child
Afraid of the boggie monster
It’s time to
Relax into your new found spirit
Relate to your present happy self
Release all of the negativity
Of once being defeated
That person
That taught you
In your past
To hate
Was evil and vindictive
And the new person
Teaching you presently
To love
Is compassionate and loving
Move on
And live your life
In spite of
The ones that
Refused to support
Love and cherish you
They are irrelevant

-Yellowbonewonda

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“First Sight Delight”

He thought of me
As a mystic
Almost as if
I was a paranormal
A clairvoyance
Of some type
A magical creature
That came from a made
Up story
Getting inside of him
His
Mind
Body
And
Soul
I made little effort
In infiltrating him
I did it with no warning
It was beyond
The normalcy
Of everyday patterns
His life was going
And the day we met
He was taking
His life back
From every
Demanding body
Job
Family
Friends
He wanted more
And he put
A stop to it
Not missing
Another day
Of nature’s beauty
He began
Carrying his head up
High
Eyes scanning
His surroundings
It was something
Pulling him
Directing him
To the here and now
And when our eyes met
It was glorious
It was at first sight
I had already integrated
Inside of him
Causing a sensory overload
A new vibranance of life
Sparked
He was filled
With true love’s
Healing
His loneliness
And empty heart
Was no more
It was no denying it
The magnetic charge
That was building
With such strength
A connection that
Spiked
With an overwhelming
Love and devotion
So unimaginable
It consumed all the air
And buried our bodies
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Under a ton
Of bricks
Dumped all at once
On top of us
It was so
Confining
Yet Surprisingly
Comforting
And calming
This story I tell
Although you are reading
These words
It’s still unexplainable
Common words
Give it
No justice
Describing
A love
So fullfuling
It’s
Everlasting
And powerful
Not diluted
In its purest form
That is bigger than
The both of us
Unstoppable
Invincible
And growing stronger
And stronger

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Before You Judge Be Open”

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Stop living in
Your comfortable
Blacked out bubble
Form an attachment
Other than society’s
Normal
To hate one person
Over the other
Race
Gender
Or over
Someone’s else’s drama
A friend
A family member
Hating to hate
Someone’s presence
Making you develop
Those traits
Of ignorance
And prejudice
Without knowing
About those
“Others”
That are breathing
The same air
As you do
Is almost a crime
Against humanity
To miss those
Blessings
Because of your unfamiliarity
Causes a mass hysteria
That is contiguous
With no medicine
Because someone is different
This is
When it’s important
To open
Your eyes
And remove those blinders
To see pass
Someone’s physical features
To ask
Who they are
Stop passing judgement
Don’t keep listening
To break room gossip
Everyone has a unique story
Stop pushing your beliefs
On those that don’t want them
Believing that people
Should feel
Like you feel
In every situation
Is ludicrous
Voice your thoughts
Then
Back off
And watch what develops
A place of civility
And good feeling
Of people being
Human
And respectful
Without judgement
Let God
Do his job
And make
Your effort
To
Treat everyone
As individuals
With a clean slate
Beginning
Their own story
A gift that is priceless
To all
To be welcomed
As a person

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Closest And Longest Relationship”

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I’ve been threatened
With empty threats
My whole life
I was never afraid
Of her
She would
Always tell me
If I wasn’t her child
I’d be dead long ago
I won’t tell any lies
I did test her
Whenever I felt
A need for adrenaline
To run like the wind
So she didn’t catch me
Somedays
I actually thought
I saw hot scalding steam
Come out of her
It was so comical
Bursting out of her head
Ears
And
Mouth
Capable of making
Third degree burns
All over my body
Yet I have no wounds
Scars
Or a dysfunctional relationship
CPS
Was never called
I was always too slippery
I’m all grown up
The same individual
In a supersized package
No longer a child
Now a woman
But I know she’ll always
Have an open contract
On me
And in fine print
It states
She’s the only one
That has permission
To take my life
As she was the one
That gave it to me
That woman
I call Mama
She knows
Who I am
And knows my attitude
Falls between
Mean $itch
And don’t care
Very frequently
I am
What her
And her village
Raised me to be
A great mixture
Of no nonsense
No drama
A lot of Love
Compassion
Straight truth
And
A whole lot of honesty
Mixed
Very thoroughly
I’m not perfect
By any means
Never have been
Never will be
I have my hang ups
Nonchalant attitude
Speak my mind
Without a filter
Mind my own
Damn business
Maneuvering through life
Trying
To not
Be put
In anybody’s
Bull $hit
You will never
Catch me
Ear hustling
A conversation
I barely listen
To the person
Talking directly
To me
I zone out
On a regular
I lack the ability
To keep
My attention
Focused on
The blah blah blahs
Everyone sound like
Charlie Brown’s teacher
I am not pretending
To be
Mother Teresa
I have no mission
To save
The world
The only agenda
Thus far
Is making
Sure my crazy lady
That was born to birth me
Has what she needs
She will never need
To beg from
Anybody
I’m
The first and last in line
Taking on the
Responsibility
I don’t know
How to be selfish
She asks for it
I take care of it
She
Will never be
Something I can’t manage
We grew up
As kids
Side by side
Thick as thieves
Together
No distance
Is too far
To travel
When my heartbeat
Skips a beat
Or flatlines
I’m dropping everything
Running as if I was an Olympian
Breaking record
Breaking time
Winning the gold medal

-Yellowbonewonda

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“A Storm Of Reckoning”

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Something so
Wonderful
Is going on
Everyone’s thoughts
Are lingering
On doom and gloom
The storm
Is not a storm
Of destruction
Your thoughts and fears
Are misleading you
Take another look outside
Through clear eyes
See the beauty
A cleansing is going on
And those that are scared
Are hiding
The wind is blowing
With great strength
Developing
As tornadoes
Hurricanes
Tsunamis
Trying to remove demons
Possessing everyone
With no soul
The thunder is roaring
To scare the rest of them
That stayed
Behind
Hiding in the darkness
Waiting to be forgotten
So they can begin again
Tempting people
To fall off their path
Once again
So that they can
Easily steal souls
From Jesus
The rain is falling
At a rapid pace
Tears from our guardian angels
Spreading holy water
Casting out
The left over demons
Driving all the
Evil away from
This place
Causing a rebirth
To new life
New decisions
For the ones
Of great power
That are able
To make a change
To change
Their minds
Before The Almighty comes down
And pass judgement
On those that
Are leading
Everyone astray
People are in denial
Fighting and saying
Who is best
To guide them
But no one is
Choosing wisely
When they keep choosing
A man
Who thinks
He’s god
But he is a false
Prophet
Leading them
To damnation
No one on this Earth
Man nor woman
Can make anything
Great again
But the Almighty
So start praying
To him
To hardened this crooked
Man’s heart
So he will
Be seen in his true image

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Look Closer To Her Face”

For every moment
Of happiness
There is sorrow
In the hearts
Of every girl and woman
As
A daughter
When she comes in the world
She cries for her first breath
Not knowing the world around her
To be safe
As
A mother
She sees the world
At its worst
She cries for her love ones life
Hoping they come home safely
Every night
As
A grandmother
When her world comes to an end
She cries for peace
To wash over
Everyone she leaves behind
Hoping they
Will be happy
And remember her in their hearts
In her life
There are more than a million tears
That will go unnoticed
That will flow
Many times down her
Beautiful face
That you can trace
By looking
From her eyes down to her cheeks
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Every teardrop will be bigger than
The next
Echoing louder than the other
Making huge puddles
Around her feet
Gathering throughout her life
Causing waves that could take out nations
She has carried many burdens
Many times over
In a world of many wrongs
Making the strongest spirit
Feel powerless
Impossible to protect those she cherish
Because her family thinks she’s crazy
Overprotective
Or a mess
She knows the truth
In this day and age
Her maternal instincts
Are fined tuned
To her loves
From the moment they leave
And return
Where they are considered safe
So no matter
How many times
You say don’t worry
She will
Wait and
Think
Of the what Ifs
Whenever she feels
Evil is lurking
She is always praying for
Everyone’s safety
Hers
Yours
Everybody’s
Everyday
Nonstop
So I beg you to understand
A woman may cry many tears
Throughout her life
But the thing is
To stop
Letting them go unnoticed
Wipe her tears
And appreciate her worry
Knowing she is the one that loves
Unconditionally
With every part of her being
Stop being so dismissive
Because you don’t feel
What she feels
She is grandmother
Mother and daughter
With a loving heart
So she is valid

-Yellowbonewonda

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“What Life Could Be”

You must have been
An angel
Heaven sent
I was caught
In a daze
As my eyes
Met yours
To my surprise
A sparkle
Illuminating within them
Gave me peace
I couldn’t move
As you vanquished
All my misery
And negativity
Pushing
The darkness
Within me
Into the light
No more things
That go bump
In night
They’ve stopped haunting
Me
For the first time in my life
You’ve done miracles
That no one
Else could do
It’s as if I’ve died
And gone to heaven
Surrounded by the warmth of God’s grace
Finally fulfilled
Walking through gardens
Of blossoming fruits and flowers
That blossom for eternity
Where everything is plentiful
With no reason to return
To this awful place
You are a true master
Of all beasts
To calm all of them
Within me
As you took your chance
With a passionate embrace
Pulling me into you
As you cupped my face
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When your lips
Touched mine
I felt our heartbeats
Become one
Giving me the true meaning
Of being loved
And feeling safe
I was lost for so long
After wondering
Aimlessly
Going in cirles
Chasing dreams
That would vanish
When I got close
But
With one kiss
Planted a seed in me
Of pure happiness
Nothing else mattered
A bubble surrounded us
As the world went silent
And everything froze
Into place
I didn’t know
That falling in love with you
Could be so sudden
But it felt like I known you
All my life
To bring me
Such a beautiful gift
And a promise
Of
Peace
Love
Security
And happiness
For the rest of my life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Confidence Not Conceited”

I walk with pride
Head held high
Leaving footprints
Behind
Showing you where
I’ve come from
And where I’m heading
If you think to follow
My path
Keep up
I’m not slowing down
I’m walking with a purpose
Not going in circles
I’m focused
I will go
As far as my thick luscious legs
Will carry me
I am not conceited
By no means
Just taught
To weed out the bullies
That would call me
Names Otherthan
My given
Having self awareness
Is my greatest power
To be an individual
With high self-esteem
To beat those that don’t
At a game
That they can not play with me
Because I’ve already won
Not stooping to their level
Just by being me
Something they don’t know about
It’s just mandatory
For a fighter
To know for a fact
No one can break me
Or hinder me from my purpose
Because after I was made
The mold was broken
Making no efforts
To duplicate
My combination of genes
Was deliciously put together
And in that
There was a magnificent creation
Of a confident warrior
Not afraid to say
I am special
And when I look in a mirror
The reflection
Staring back at me
Is a beautiful queen
That has her own power
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My smile is described to me as warming
Friendly and comforting
To those that are willing
To get to know me
I give off a scent
So sweet and alluring
That smell like carmel
As though
It’s been poured all over me
From head to toe
I always have a following
Of pets and children
And I think that’s the reason
But what do I know
It’s whatever it maybe
I’m just guessing

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Read The Disclaimer”

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In any kind of relationship
I encounter
My love is the most guarded
Part of me
My sensitive side
My vulnerable side
It’s exciting and contagious
I’m selective in my VIPs
That may see
Or experience it
It comes at a high price
No one can afford
It’s priceless
And valued more than any materialistic thing on this planet
That are man made
And have a price tag
Of cash value
When I feel love and loyalty is reciprocated
I see the beauty of creativity
In the smallest detail
Quality outdoes quantity to me
My bond with you is for life
I just ask you
To take consideration
That
This is a piece of me
Once given
Can’t be given back
The same way
It can only heal
Leaving ugly scars
And I won’t be able to cover it
That’s why I beg you to
Please
Agree before you take it
To promise
That you will nurture and protect it
From this day to eternity
To truly see it
At it’s fullest blossom
I don’t give it
Just to anyone
I will always
Disclose it in a disclaimer
In black and white
And full blown color
So it’s not misunderstood
Or taken lightly
Read the fine print and hear me
On the importance of how to take care of it
My love is a special edition
Once you’ve been loved by me
It will be very unlikely
That you will ever forget the experience
I’m very bold
And very direct
My intentions
Are unfortgettable
I leave no doubt of my feelings
Extremely forward
And self assured
Sometimes I come across
As an aggressive
Or mean as some may describe me
But I’m leaving nothing to chance
There are no head games
What you see is
What you get
I tell you exactly what I want and what I like
I have no what ifs
Running through my head
At night
My words I speak
Come with no regrets
I have a fire
That burns bright and hot
If you are not ready for it
It will burn you to a crisp
Loyalty and honesty is pivotal to a solid foundation
With me
I protect and encourage anyone I love
To be at their best
And be better than the rest
Not letting no one speak ill of them
In my presence
It’s beneath me to just “quit”
On someone or something
If I find no evidence to support
The crimes they’ve done against me
But when I do the find evidence
It will be swift judgement
So don’t betray me
Because it will be immediate
When your chances will be
Permanently revoked
And you will be
Without the fulfillment of my deepest love

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Animal Insincts”

I’m reduced to
Waiting for someone
To feed me my food
Through a closed
Fortified door

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People still feel my frustration
Fearing my aggressiveness
Afraid of my sharp teeth
And razor cut claws
These prison guards know
How much I hunger for freedom
And if they make one slip up
I won’t waste my opportunity
They think I am the lesser of humanity
That my life is not valuable as any other life
On this Earth
I watch as they Kill us
One by one as if it’s for sport
Mounting our heads on their wall
As if it was a fair fight
Using bullets
Tazers and tranquilizer darts
Pretending to be the ultimate predator
But come at me without your weapons
And you will see my aggressive nature
I have been a caged animal
For so long
Captured by man
Taken from my home
Separated from my pride
A magnificent beast
I was
Full of life
No one could compare me
To any other
I turned heads by my shining grace
I was a majestic royal
I made the laws of the lands
Even though it’s confusing
I was feared by everyone
And loved by all
Top of the food chain
Inside my own domain
Now I’m reduced to
People’s amusement
They point and laugh
At my sadness
I’m stuck in this cage
Missing my home
Imprisoned for the rest of my life
I’m disappearing
Diminishing to a mere house pet
I must remember everyday
And not be broken down
I am a fierce predator
That stands in front of you
I have strong bloodlines
Coursing through my veins
Calming my spirit
Encouraging me to imagine
The crisp air back home
Feeding the predator in me
I am not just an animal
And it doesn’t
Give you
The right
To erase my kind
As if we don’t matter
I am a determined
To get back to my family
You will not be
Stuffing or mounting me
Any time in the near future

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Breaking Down”

I have not done it in awhile
But I had a good reason
My body was not prepared
For the new stretches

Muscles have weakened
Stiff and not as limber
As it once was
Only a few years ago

I bent over to
Touch my toes
As I came up
I stopped

Suddenly half way up
I grabbed
Under my breast
Swelling had already set in

As big as my palm
Increasing by the second
Almost covering half my body
Over my ribs

It felt so unnatural
All I could do was
Hold on to dear life
To a chair arms length away
from me

The pain was nothing
I could walk off
My eyes teared up
Someone noticed

Causing panic all around me
People rushing to my rescue
My silence and facial expressions
Said it all

I couldn’t speak
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t breathe
I could only hear the person

Standing next to me
Holding me up
Saying
Take a slow

Deep breath
Breathe breathe
Don’t tense up
It wasn’t working

The attention of everyone staring
Made me more anxious
I was panicking
The surges were hitting me

Worser than the other
Getting rapid and stronger
Coming one after another
Not giving me a chance to catch my breath

Don’t touch me
Don’t move me
Played in my head
Just leave me be

I can get through this
Don’t bother
It was as if something was moving
Under my chest outward

It felt like a ripple effect
As if someone
Had thrown a pebble
Into a body of still water

Causing
A sound so clear
But faint
And if you turned away

Before the pebble hit
You miss the awesomeness
In seeing something so small
Causing water

To move in rapid motion
Creating mini
Circles
Expanding bigger and bigger

Until it disappears
But to me
It was not awesomeness
It was pure torture

So bad I felt like I was having
An out of body experience
Escaping for a moment
Until it was safe

To re-enter
I would not
Wish this pain
On my worst enemy

I hate being this broken
Helpless
And so angry
Because no one knows how to fix me

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-Yellowbonewonda

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“Shadow Games”

I am not satisfied
Not by the food I eat
Not by the career I chose
Not even my purpose in this life

I question myself on a daily
Where am I going
In this lifetime
I have been wondering aimlessly
Far too long

I am hungry for something
That feels so far
Out of my reach
This craving has created sleepless nights
Making me delirious and crazy

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It has me spinning in circles
Chasing my tail
I am so clueless
I do not know what I want

Or what direction to go
I am a dog looking for my bone
Unsure
Where I buried it

It seems I’ve been searching
For what I’ve been missing inside myself
So long it’s becoming an unsolvable mystery
My anxiety has been building up

Feels like a volcano
Ready to erupt
Flowing out Hot lava
Burning everything it touches

This hunger of mine
Is a torturous thing
Never giving me peace
My stomach is always rumbling

As if I am starving
But I skip no meals
I have always cleared my plate
I eat everything

Getting my nourishment
It’s not enough
I have never felt full
A familiar emptiness

That has been with me
Since my first breath
That has grown stronger and stronger
Day after day

I am being pulled
In all directions
I feel I’m coming undone
I am afraid

That what I’m searching and craving for
May never be found
My hunger is leading me blindly
Only to have me chasing shadows

-Yellowbonewonda

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