“Faces Inside Shadows”

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When you are
Sprinting
From the shadows
Trying
To escape
Your nightmares
Who are you
Running from
What is
Haunting
Stalking
Causing that
Fear inside
Of you
I see
The panic
On you face
So
What faces are
Surrounding you
What skeletons are
In your closet
That are
Peeking out
Scaring you
Into hysterics
Making you
A raving maniac
That is
Incoherent
And
Gasping
For air
Is it
Your enemies
Is it
Your victims
Is it
Your conscious
Because
I know
It is
Not me
Tell me
What can
I do
To help
How can I
Protect you
From the demons
Chasing you
How can I be
The
Heroin
In your story
I want to
Comfort you
Love you
Give you
Peace
And
Security
Please
Talk to me
I can
Be your
Haven
Your freedom

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Transparency Is Best”

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Do not
Let your lies
Become too
Comfortable
It attaches to
Your breathing
Something
That is an automatic
Response
From birth
Telling the
Truth
Is better
Than lying
If you do not
Want to see
Disappointment
In the eyes
Of loved ones
That believed
In you
And gave you
Space in their heart
Do not hold back
On your truth
When you are
Searching for
A lifetime
With someone
Who will complete
And love
You
Until
Death do you part
Place your
Cards on the table
And represent
Yourself
Be
Truthful
Transparent
And give
One hundred percent
To someone
That needs that
To open up
Their padlocked gate
Do not make
Promises you
Can not keep
No one
In this world
Wants to be
Lied to
To their face
It’s hurtful
And
Disrespectful
To say in the least
To build your
Foundation
On lies and deceit
Do not be in
A relationship
If you’re not
Going to be
Yourself
The truth is
What everyone
Signs up for
In any relationship
The good
The bad
And the ugly
Is part of
This universe
But to face it
With someone
That loves
And knows
Your truth
Is a new freedom
Making it easier
To exist here
In this
Chaotic place

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I Have Free Will”

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I’m really
Not trying
To hurt
Anyone’s feelings
I hate when
People
Make plans
For me
Not asking
What’s going
On with me
My mouth
Always gets me
In trouble
It has
No filter
To clean it
Don’t try
To bully me
Into a situation
I have
Obligations
To tend to
You don’t like
My answer
I can’t help you
It doesn’t make
Me mean
To disagree
With you
I don’t always
Have to agree
With you
I am
Not your child
I have an
Opinion
I refuse to
Do anything
Forced
On me
My life
Is mine
And
I am
It’s controller
Do not
Overshadow me
With your nonsense

-Yellowbonewonda

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“The Crazy Friend”

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Friends to
The end
A bestie
And definitely
Part of the family
Always borrowing
Your clothes
And eating
You out of
House and home
Being that
One person
In the group
That is bat shit
Crazy
Loud
A pain
In the ass
With every
Screw lose
In their body
Constantly
Talking alot
Of crap
To everybody
The best
Damn friend
To have
Having
Your back
When the
Time comes
For action
Up for anything
And everything
Down to party
Ready to jump
Into a fight
To defend you
With no explanation
Just instincts
And out of
Blind loyalty
It’s a love that
Is unconditional
No DNA needs
To bind them
It’s an
Unbreakable
Connection
Between them
That made
Friends into family

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I Value My Safety”

Why is it
That some people
Include me
In games
I don’t want
To play
Too many people
Putting me
In deadly situations
With riddles
That don’t
Make sense
And no
Plausible answers
To guess
I’m hanging
From
Death traps
I can not
Escape
There are no
Safety nets
To catch me
From sudden death

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I’m a guareenteed
Loser
In this game
When there
Are no
Rules
To keep me safe
I can not
Understand
Why there are
People
Happy at
Putting me
In danger
Because
They believe
My safety is
Not a value
To them
I am not
Put here
To be
Played with
Or
Entertainment
For people
That are
Unhappy
With their
Life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Limit Is Here”

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Keep trying me
I dare you
My heart is
Out of this
Stop testing me
You really
Want me to
Fail drastically
I have no more
Cheeks
To turn
I’m there
Now
I’m tired of
Deceitful
Trifling liars
Being around
Here
I am
No
Saint
By any means
It will be
A cold day
In hell
Before
I die
For anyone’s sins
I’m tired of
People taking
My kindness
For weakness
It was called
Tolerance
And it is
At the limit
You’ve
Done me wrong
You’ve voided
Your
Unconditional
Love status
That bridge
You had
It’s condemned now
And deadly
To travel
I am not
Your mother
A friend
Or your family
Don’t
Call me
I don’t want to
Smell your
Shit fragrance
I will never
Help you
If you’re stranded
I can’t stand you
I’m ready to
Snap back
And finish this
I’ve extended
My hand
I’m done
Being the
Better one
It’s time
For me to be selfish
I’m Saving my
Last fingers
To survive with
I just want
Peace
And to be
Left alone

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Island Of Our Own”

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All I ask
Is that you
Promise
Yourself
That you
Will surrender
Your stress
Lock it up
Keeping it
Away from
This happiness
With both
Want to share
The pain you
Had before me
Don’t give
It so
Much control
Just
Direct all
Your senses
And
Concentrate
On us
Let’s stay
In our world
Our own piece
Of heaven
In the center
Of a
Complicated world
No outside
Madness
Will ever
Enter
What
Is outside
Stays outside
Where it can’t
Hurt us
Never
Destroying
What we’ve grown
This kingdom
Is no kingdom
Without this bond
I will always
Be your refuge
And you will be mine
So
Let me
Be that
Barbed wire
Surrounding
Protecting
And
Keeping you
Mentally
And
Emotionally strong
Don’t worry
All trespasses
Will not enter
So relax
And let go
Leaving all
Your worries
Behind you
When you
Come across
This heavenly
Threshold
Where we
Have built
A strong foundation
I can guarantee
All our past
Sweat and tears
Will hold
It up
In any storm
No weathering
Or
Taking shelter
Anywhere else
We are home

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Who’s In Control”

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No one
Knows your life
Or the struggle
You make
On a daily
Just don’t lie
About it
Live your Truth
Don’t hide
Behind the lie
That you are
An independent woman
When you rely
On men to pay
Your bills
And give you gifts
Answer
One question
What would you do
If men
Did not
Paying
Would you even
Consider it
To take off
Your clothes
And prance for them
You say men
Don’t take advantage
Of a you
Because you’re
Your own boss
But all you’ve bossed
Is opening your mouth
And laying on your back
Any right
It’s your decision
You made
Your choice
But
Are you really
Being true
To yourself
When you’re the
Next act
Following someone else
Stripping
For tips
Why are not
Confident
In your brain
And your good sense
To make money
The right way
And be your own boss
In any event
It’s your decision
To live your life
You don’t
Have to answer
To me
It’s not my life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Laid In Front Of You”

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Two glasses
On a table
Rotated to
Your point
Of view
It does not
Matter
Everyone else
Sees it as
Wrong
But you
Say it
Ain’t so
Your reasoning
Is warped
You will never
See
The truth
Even if
It was
Presented right
In front
Of you
My conclusion
Is I’m damned
In whatever
I do
I will never
Have the chance
To be
A part of
Your life
I’m forever
At arms length
Doubted
With no
Reason
To back it up
I’m feeling
Some type of way
Because you lied
You put me
In this position
Making me
Feel like
I’m the one
That is wrong
And blind
To the truth
I shouldn’t have
To defend myself
When I’ve
Committed no crime
Against you
You are the one
That let your
Past and enemies
Condemn me
Someone else
Made the decision
To hurt you
That was them
Not me
I’ve been here
Standing steadfast
Beside you
Never faltering
Real and confident
In every step
I made with you
I laid everything
About me
Out on the table
You should
Know me
My heart
My story
And my character
Nothing has
Ever changed
I’ve been the same
Person
I hate how
You say
You want
Someone real
But keep
Doing stupid
Things to offend me
Stop taking it
Out on me
I’ve never
Turned my back
Once on you
I was the one
That told you
You was family
And
Embraced you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Inexcusable Behaviour”

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I’ve recorded
And analyzed
Everything
Mentally
Never
Forgetting
The lies
That left
Your mouth
So easily
I won’t
Forget
That you lied
Straight to
My face
I remembered it
As if it
Was yesterday
So vividly
I can still
Taste
The hate
That spued from
Your mouth
You lacked
Self-respect
And all dignity
Your
Actions
Spoke
With fluidity
While slug
And sewage
Poured
Slowly
From all your
Crevices
Stinking up
The air
There was
No way
To breath
Around your
Poisonous
Toxicity
The habits
You’ve developed
From your past
Is hindering you
And
You’ve formed a
Very distinctive
Pelicular feature
That shields you
You are unable
To respect
Those good
To you
But today
My truth
Will be
Smacking you
I was born
With the capability
Of seeing
Truth
And
Bull shit
Around me
I treat
Your words as
Little Particles
Floating
In the air
About to plague
My environment
With a
Virus
With no cure
For me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Not In Line For You”

You said
You would
Need me
Want me
And
Love me
And only me
For life
But it wasn’t
The truth
Your sidechick
I guess
Had enough
Of you
Telling her
You would
Leave me
Divorce me
And make
Her your
New wife
You had
No intentions
In leaving
Her
Nor I
And that became
Your biggest mistake
You put
Your trust
In a scorned
Woman
With secrets
You kept
From me
And she got
Tired of
Your many excuses
She did
What she felt
Would make
Her happy
With one click
Destroying us
Sending
All the
Proof of
Your explicit
Relationship
Letters
Videos
Chats
In black
White
And color
Your cheating
Has costed
Us everything
It was
An ultimate kill
Killing us
Quickly

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I will not
Be the other woman
Waiting in line
For you
I gave you
All of me
You threw
It away
For a romp in
The hay
With someone
Otherthan me
Imploding
Everything
That mattered
Between us
There is
No way
To fixing
This mess
You created
Call her up
I know
She’s waiting for you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Enemy Of My Enemy”

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You live
With them
Everyday
Going to
Family events
Birthdays
Funerals
And
Holidays
You shouldn’t
Have to
Be afraid
Of what
They will
Do behind
Your back
But you are
You can’t
Trust them
As far as
You can throw
Them
It’s that
Heartbreaking
Saying
Who needs
Enemies
When you have
Family
No stranger can
Do worst
Than them
Than people
Closer to you
They know
You better
Than anyone
They are family
Your secrets
Are their ammunition
And they use
Them
Like bullets
Hitting you
In rapid
Fire sessions
Center mass
Shredding your heart
Into pieces
Guaranteeing no
Chance of rescuitation
All that’s
Needed to
Be done
Is to
Pronounce you
DOA
At the scene

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Karma Will Get You”

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I feel
Every time
I’m around you
I’m dry drowning
In front of you
I can not depend
On you
To save me
If I do
I should
Give up now
Lay down
And let mother nature
End my pain
And
Devour me
It’s just
The realization
I’ve come to
I’ve realized you
Will never
Attempt to come
To my rescue
You’re a liar
Manipulator
A con artist
You lie
About everything
Telling everyone
The sky is gray
When everyone
Sees it’s blue
You have never
Told the truth
To save one life
Including yours
That’s why
You are dead inside
God forbid
If you ever
Said to anyone
I put it on my
Mother
Father
Brother
Sister
Daughter
Son
Life
Everyone would
Fall dead then
No one will
Survive your curse
On them
You would like it
Wouldn’t you
You’re delusional
If you believe
You’ve fooled
The world
Your obsession
With yourself
Is clear as
A sunny day
In June
You want what
You want
At any cost
Not caring
Who gets hurt
In the process
You have
No heart
To give
And
Compassion
Is a curse word
If anyone
Ask for it
From you
You are evil
You get kicks
And thrills
Out of
Tormenting
People
God
Does not like ugly
You will get yours
I don’t have
To do nothing
To you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Grow Up Or Leave”

I’m not
That other
Woman that
You had
Last
In your bed
I can not
Be
In a relationship
With a man child
I’m grown
Looking for
A grown up
Relationship
I’m only
Accepting
To live
My life
With man
I don’t want
To have to
Break it down
Every time
We talk
As if you’re
My child
Your mother
Raised you
I should be
Reaping the benefits
Of her
Hard work
Giving you
Values
Morals
And
Common sense
Yet I’m talking
Slow and carefully
Pronouncing each word
Almost sounding
Them out
So you don’t
Get lost
Sit back
Listen to
A grown person
Speak
Learn
Something
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Before you
Bounce
A check
You can not cash
You are too
Busy trying
To over talk
Me
But you haven’t
Heard a word
I said
You’re in over
Your head
Too stubborn
Full of yourself
You are not seeing
Past your
Pride
Your ego is bruised
You are
Quick to fight
Ready for action
No talking
Or listening
To my side
You would rather
Have things
Get out of hand
Being a type of
Man
That will
Lose everything
Quicker than
A blink
Because you’re not
Noticing
I’m one step
From throwing
In the towel
Leaving
And not returning
Again
Don’t punish me
Because
You don’t like
My answers
I gave
To questions
That don’t
Make sense
You haven’t
Proved your case
In the least
I haven’t lied
I won’t
Admit to anything
Not the truth
Either believe me
Or leave me
I will not satisfy
Your rants
Grow up and
Stop acting
Like an a$$

-Yellowbonewonda

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“I’m Not Following Your Footprints”

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He created me
To be
An original
Someone unique
Marching to
My own beat
So stop
Your
Sanctimonious
Holier
Than thou
Routine
Concentrate
On where
You are going
After your
Life is complete
Your opinion
Of me
Does not
Define me
You do not
Know who I am
What I’ve seen
What I’ve
Been through
Stop being
So quick
To judge
And
Kill
People
Who are different
I am tired
Of you yelling
At the top
Of your lungs
About you
Being Christian
My life
Is not
For you
To judge
But you
Do it anyway
Telling me
My God
Will
Not love me
Because of
What I choose
To be
Or do
In my life
Yet he is
The one
That created me
So why do
You care
Where my soul goes
Heaven or Hell
It is not
Your problem
It is between
Me and my maker
He knows
Me better
Than anyone
That my heart
Is his
And filled
With his love
Pumping
Throughout me
He chooses
To gift me
The ability
To
Walk
Talk
Breath
Everyday
That his blessing
To me
You may not
See it
In his eyes
I’m unique
Special
And what
He created
Me to be
So let me be
Who I am
Suppose to be

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Waiting On Destiny”

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This feeling
I’m feeling
Is foreign
To me
I do not
Feel
Like
Me
It’s a stranger
With my face
In front of me
Staring through the
Mirror
Right
At me
I am
A million miles
Away from
Where I want
To be
In my dreams
In my reality
I’m
No where
But in space
Floating about
Aimlessly
My life is
Not
A Happy one
Not
A Sad one
Either
I’m
Just part
Of
An existence
Not yet
Able to
Reach my
Full potential
And being who
I need to be
My hand is raised
Like
I’m in class
Waiting on
The teacher
To count me
I’m one of those
People
Waiting on
Destiny
I’m in line
For greatness
And I’m not moving
Until I see
The path
I should take
To get me there
The almighty has
Blessed and engrained
Patience inside
Of me
So I will wait
On him
And only him
To guide me
I know it
Will be marvelous
A phenomenon
That all will
Want to see
I will be
His masterpiece
Being what
I should be
And
Not what I want
To be

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Fountain Of Youth”

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I gave
My love
Freely
Being
Deaf
Blind
And
Stupid
All together
Misguided in the game
Of love
Giving too much
Too soon
Being all in
On love
Giving
One hundred percent
Before I knew
You better
You
Kept your distance
But reeled me in
While still remaining
To be a stranger
Refusing to give
Your entire heart
Or even a piece
Of it
Yet I still
Did not
See it as
A game
You were playing
I should have
Known better
I gave
My youth
To you
And you did not
Deserve it
You was
A taker
And not a giver
You loved
Bathing
In my tears
On a daily
Not caring
About your actions
You thrived on
Making me weaker
As you grew strong
While laughing
At my
Crippling demeanor
Now when
I looked
In the mirror
I see
Something that’s
Not me
A Weak
Broken
Woman
I had to finally
Face myself
The truth was
You was never
My hero
Just
Low level zero
That played me
I wish
I had noticed
It sooner
I was
Hell bent
Being in loving
With someone
I did not
Want to see
Anything clearer
I was denial
I have to
Stop searching
For love
In all the wrong places
Then blaming others
On my bad decisions
I stayed
Too long
In a situation
Where I was
Slowly dying
And recharging
Someone else’s
Power

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Only Truth Be Told”

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With me
Or against me
Take heed
To my warning
A lie is
A deal breaker
In any type
Of relationship
With me
It is not
Me
You are saving
With your lies
But yourself
Be truthful
To avoid a decision
That is mine
To make
I am not afraid to
Live without you
In my life
I will have
No regrets
Do not
Come to me
Without
Your truth
Come quickly
With your answers
When I ask questions
That matter to me
Say it
Without thinking
Too much
To save face
Your lies
Will never
Give me comfort
So do not
Make it
Your only excuse
To avoid
The disappointment
Upon my face
There is a greater
Price to pay
For every lie
You kill
What was ever good
Between us
And replacing it
With empty space
Dividing us
So much
We will never
Be able to
Find our way back
To each other’s
Embrace
You can not have
It both ways
Either you
Live alone
In a house
Full of lies
Or
With me
In Truth
It’s only one world
I can live in
And I know
You know
Which place
Do not put it
On me
When you let
Your cowardness
Help
Lead you into
Pushing my hand
And choosing
To leave
After I find out
What you
Could not
Say
To my face

-Yellowbonewonda

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“What If Game”

Going back
And forth
Between
Two World’s
Is dangerous
Either let go
Of your pain
Or let go
Of your joy
You can not
Hold on to
Two World’s
Without consequence
Jumping in
And out
Of them
On a daily
One day you
Will explode
And lose your sanity
On reentry
What would you do
Would you stay
Or
Would you run away
From the commitment
Of loving me
Living for me
And being with me
Forever and a day
If I tell you
I love you
I need you
I want you
Would you be happy
Would you be joyful
To have everything
In me
Your wife
In your bed
Your queen
In your heart
The future mother of
Your children
The best friend
You can always trust
But you want
To play
This game
We can play
Of course
The
What if game
Just hope you don’t lose
Because all games
Have to end
Someday
What ifs
Are the scenarios
That will leave
You empty
Cold
And alone
At night
In your bed
Searching for
What you lost
Because
You was too afraid
To open your
Heart
And let go of
Things in
Your head
You can not
Hold on to the
Past
It’s History
That’s what it is
It has nothing
To do with me
Someone else
Caused your pain
Don’t take it
Out on me
Don’t treat me
As if I am
Your enemy
I’m not the one
That broke your heart
Leaving behind
A tortured soul
Not able to
Leave among
The living
Release your sorrow
Heal your heart
Take my hand
And let me lead
You to our forever
Just made for us
A beautiful
Place indeed

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-Yellowbonewonda

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“An Urgence”

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I ask you
Girl in the mirror
I already know
You are phenomenal
A queen underneath
All this rawness
A talented
And
Creative
That needs her moment
To break out
And show
Her greatness
I don’t understand
Why I can’t talk
To you
I know you’re there
I catch glimpses
Of you
Everyday
In the mirror
I feel your power
Your beauty
Your presence
It is something
To be reckoned with
It’s an amazing glory
Yet I pretend
As if you are a stranger
I am afraid
You will not like me
And accept me
For who I am
Yes I am your
Secret admirer
I’ve been
Wishing
And hoping
To be like you
Studying your every move
I swear
I’m not stalking
No one
Your essence
Surrounds me
I’m in awe of
Your magnificence
A goddess
On Earth
In front of me
Beside me
All around me
But I see those
Shattered
And
Missing pieces
But once I’m together
My greatness will be
An unstoppable power
Yet my fear
Prevents me
From knowing
How to approach you
I feeling guilty
And ashamed
That I haven’t
Ask you
The important things
That has been in my heart
Needing answers
I need to know
These
Things that
Will set me free
What makes you
You
What are you thinking
Where are you going
What is the future
For me
And
Am I worthy

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Cupid’s Plan”

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I could not evade
And escape
Cupid’s arrows
Forever
I gave up
And allowed it to
Pierce me right
Through my heart
Creating a wonderful havoc
That uprooted my world
Today
Love and insanity
Took over me
Making me
Go against
All my rules
My common sense
Went out the window
I was caught
In a forceful attraction
Causing me to
Spin out of control
I’m in love
And in lust
With the one
And only
Person in this world
That is
My soulmate
My best friend
My confidant
Who knows me well
I was yours
I could not
Resist
I fell fast
And got entangled
Into your passionate gaze
Looking steadily
And intently
I felt
Confined and cornered
All my life
Until
My mind
Body
And Soul
Connected
On all levels
With yours
We became One
It was an
Overwhelming
Exhilarating
Joy
It’s like a dream
Come true
You
Wanting me
Needing me
And
Embracing our love
As we
Come together
Our clothes
Dropping to the floor
One by one
Teasing our loins
Anticipating
The feeling when
Will we feel
The passion
That is building up
Beneath these clothes
I’m begging
Please
Please
Kiss me
Caress me
And pentratrate
My walls
Fill me
With the utmost estascy
That is
Beyond
This realm
Of this
Destined love

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Stand Up For Yourself”

Today
Either you
Will rise
And start fighting
To win back
What is yours
Or keep sinking
Into the quicksand
That they put you in
You have to know
They are standing
Nearby and
Watching you
Die a slow death
And laughing
While
You are struggling
You don’t have
To be
Stuck between
A rock and
A hard place
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Stop
Giving everything
And getting nothing
In return
From those
That don’t care
For you
Or have compassion
For your suffering
I don’t understand
Where is your dignity
Your backbone
To stand up for yourself
Do you like
Being preyed upon
Are you afraid
Of them
Hating you
Or getting mad
For you standing up
To them
And
Demanding respect
After they disrespected you
It is your right
To sometimes
Be selfish
You are giving
Too much
To the ungrateful
And they are using you
Taking your money
Your sanity
Just everything
That is good in you
When is it enough
For you
To say No
And keep
Something just for you
How is it so hard
For you
To put yourself
Before those that harm you
They give nothing
To uplift
Support
Or just love you
Stop being a
Meal ticket
That keeps giving
Until you are empty
Take charge
Of your destiny
Stop the complaining
And stand up to them
Be your own person
Or they will kill you
Take your spirit
Your will
And your soul
Leaving a shell
Behind
It’s time for a change
Before there
Is nothing
Left of you
To find

-Yellowbonewonda

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“A Body With No Soul”

By: Yellowbonewonda

As I sit
Alone in this
Empty mausoleum
Once called our home
I am seeing hallucinations
Or is it
An apparition
Of you
A lost spirit
With no soul
Not present
Or accountable
Of the destruction
That is going on in
This house
It is
No longer a home
For the living
Release me from
This curse
Of you constantly
Haunting me
And not loving me
We are lost
And only holding on
Because we are familiar
To one another
But that’s not
What love is
We are either
Together
Or going our separate ways
Out of survival
So we can fill
This emptiness inside
That is close to the core
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We can not
Keep living
In this
Parallel world
Where you
Don’t love me
I can’t bare to live
A lifetime
Outside of your heart
A Castaway
Left on a deserted island
Surrounded by sharks
These women are out
For my blood
They smell it
In the water
They are ready
To devour me
Tear me limb
From limb
To take my place
And stand in my shoes
As if I was never
There
In the first place
Why do
You put me
Through this heartache
I would have never
Envisioned
You ever mistreating me
You’re losing
Me completely
And you don’t care
Unless someone
Else starts to see me

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“Twisted Words”

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I’ve already got
Too many
Voices and personas
In my head
I’m apologizing
To myself
I made
A mistake
I let your voice
Be louder
Than mine
I allowed you to enter
Into my head space
Messing up
My thought process
Causing me to
Question my decisions
About what’s
In my heart
And what I know
Is Truth
I must believe
In me
and
What I do
Is best for me
I’m not being naive
It’s my survival
Mechanism
My intuition
Is in tune
It has gotten me
Thus far
But you
Caught off guard
Throwing me off my feet
Causing me
To fall too quick
I couldn’t brace myself
It’s not your fault
It’s mine
I heard you
And your doubts
But your doubts
Are not mine
And I won’t start
Doubting myself now
I’ve lived this long
Doing what I do best
Being the person
With near misses
In every situation
In my life
I got this
Sit back and see
I’m on a level
No one understands
I’ve trained myself
To be mindful
In tuned with who I am
I’ve seen evil
And greatness
In everyone
My survival
Is my instincts
I’m trusting it
To keep me
And take care
Of me
So let me
Take my minute
To regroup
Pull it together
And do a cleansing breath
Cast off
All that was said
Then
You can see
Me in action

Yellowbonewonda

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“I Can’t Hate No More “

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We have lost
Our dream
Of being
Together forever
This house
Is in a realm
Of purgatory
Unblessed
A prison
With two psychotics
Together
Living on
No food
No water
Only the Devil’s enchantment
Can’t you see
We are
Slowly dying
What was good
Between us
Is history
There are posters
Posted
Stating
We are missing
Our dreams are gone
This marriage
Is a travesty
Our vows
Didn’t include
All this toxicity
The thought of becoming
Mortal enemies
Is reality
Fighting
Arguing
Screaming
Then
Going to bed
Angry
Repeating
It again
And again
We are on
A merry-go-round
Spinning
Ourselves dizzy
But
Today is the day
To find clarity
The beginning
To the end
Of this tyranny
We need
Out of this
Craziness
No more talking
No more
Casting blame
And trying to remember
Who stopped
Loving who
We both did
And stopped
Caring
To build up
Our kingdom
What’s left now
Is instability
Landslide of debris
Let us
Please leave
Before it kills us

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Food For Thought”

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Why do you rush
Here and there
Take your time
Enjoy the scenery
You only have
One life to live
Stop chasing behind
Faces on paper
There are other
Things in life
That are important
Stop neglecting
Your happiness
And the simple things in life
Like family and friends
They are the ones that
Love you unconditionally
They provide you
The freedom to be who
You want to be
Without being caught
In censorship
Satisfy those
Cravings before
It starts crying like a baby
Refusing to be ignored
Making you
Tired
Exhausted
And incoherent
Causing you to fall
Into a trap
Of grabbing
Everything
That captivates you
Then
It’s too late
You’re overeating
And overburdened
Your eyes are big
Magnifying your hunger
Your stomach is suffering
To the point of
Exploding
Take my advice
Eat slowly
Chew each morsel
Taste your food
As if it was
The first time
Savour it
Record the data
Imprint it permanently
On your DNA
Making it apart of you
Sense there is
More
To your life
Other than despondency

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Animal Insincts”

I’m reduced to
Waiting for someone
To feed me my food
Through a closed
Fortified door

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People still feel my frustration
Fearing my aggressiveness
Afraid of my sharp teeth
And razor cut claws
These prison guards know
How much I hunger for freedom
And if they make one slip up
I won’t waste my opportunity
They think I am the lesser of humanity
That my life is not valuable as any other life
On this Earth
I watch as they Kill us
One by one as if it’s for sport
Mounting our heads on their wall
As if it was a fair fight
Using bullets
Tazers and tranquilizer darts
Pretending to be the ultimate predator
But come at me without your weapons
And you will see my aggressive nature
I have been a caged animal
For so long
Captured by man
Taken from my home
Separated from my pride
A magnificent beast
I was
Full of life
No one could compare me
To any other
I turned heads by my shining grace
I was a majestic royal
I made the laws of the lands
Even though it’s confusing
I was feared by everyone
And loved by all
Top of the food chain
Inside my own domain
Now I’m reduced to
People’s amusement
They point and laugh
At my sadness
I’m stuck in this cage
Missing my home
Imprisoned for the rest of my life
I’m disappearing
Diminishing to a mere house pet
I must remember everyday
And not be broken down
I am a fierce predator
That stands in front of you
I have strong bloodlines
Coursing through my veins
Calming my spirit
Encouraging me to imagine
The crisp air back home
Feeding the predator in me
I am not just an animal
And it doesn’t
Give you
The right
To erase my kind
As if we don’t matter
I am a determined
To get back to my family
You will not be
Stuffing or mounting me
Any time in the near future

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Breaking Down”

I have not done it in awhile
But I had a good reason
My body was not prepared
For the new stretches

Muscles have weakened
Stiff and not as limber
As it once was
Only a few years ago

I bent over to
Touch my toes
As I came up
I stopped

Suddenly half way up
I grabbed
Under my breast
Swelling had already set in

As big as my palm
Increasing by the second
Almost covering half my body
Over my ribs

It felt so unnatural
All I could do was
Hold on to dear life
To a chair arms length away
from me

The pain was nothing
I could walk off
My eyes teared up
Someone noticed

Causing panic all around me
People rushing to my rescue
My silence and facial expressions
Said it all

I couldn’t speak
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t breathe
I could only hear the person

Standing next to me
Holding me up
Saying
Take a slow

Deep breath
Breathe breathe
Don’t tense up
It wasn’t working

The attention of everyone staring
Made me more anxious
I was panicking
The surges were hitting me

Worser than the other
Getting rapid and stronger
Coming one after another
Not giving me a chance to catch my breath

Don’t touch me
Don’t move me
Played in my head
Just leave me be

I can get through this
Don’t bother
It was as if something was moving
Under my chest outward

It felt like a ripple effect
As if someone
Had thrown a pebble
Into a body of still water

Causing
A sound so clear
But faint
And if you turned away

Before the pebble hit
You miss the awesomeness
In seeing something so small
Causing water

To move in rapid motion
Creating mini
Circles
Expanding bigger and bigger

Until it disappears
But to me
It was not awesomeness
It was pure torture

So bad I felt like I was having
An out of body experience
Escaping for a moment
Until it was safe

To re-enter
I would not
Wish this pain
On my worst enemy

I hate being this broken
Helpless
And so angry
Because no one knows how to fix me

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-Yellowbonewonda

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“Shadow Games”

I am not satisfied
Not by the food I eat
Not by the career I chose
Not even my purpose in this life

I question myself on a daily
Where am I going
In this lifetime
I have been wondering aimlessly
Far too long

I am hungry for something
That feels so far
Out of my reach
This craving has created sleepless nights
Making me delirious and crazy

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It has me spinning in circles
Chasing my tail
I am so clueless
I do not know what I want

Or what direction to go
I am a dog looking for my bone
Unsure
Where I buried it

It seems I’ve been searching
For what I’ve been missing inside myself
So long it’s becoming an unsolvable mystery
My anxiety has been building up

Feels like a volcano
Ready to erupt
Flowing out Hot lava
Burning everything it touches

This hunger of mine
Is a torturous thing
Never giving me peace
My stomach is always rumbling

As if I am starving
But I skip no meals
I have always cleared my plate
I eat everything

Getting my nourishment
It’s not enough
I have never felt full
A familiar emptiness

That has been with me
Since my first breath
That has grown stronger and stronger
Day after day

I am being pulled
In all directions
I feel I’m coming undone
I am afraid

That what I’m searching and craving for
May never be found
My hunger is leading me blindly
Only to have me chasing shadows

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Free Yourself”

Are you going to rise up
Or
Are you going to fall by the wayside
Are you a leader
Or
Are you going to follow the leader
Never seeing nothing
Other than the back of someone’s head

When do you think for yourself
When will you stop and listen
To the music playing all around you
The world is a symphony with its own instruments

So dance and sing freely
Dance and sing like you are in your bedroom
Or in the shower
Dance and sing like no one else is watching
Like there is no care in the world
And you are finally free

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Free of bullying
Free of peer pressure
Free of expectations
Free of hate

Everyone in this world
Has problems
Has struggles
Has weakness

But to rise up from the fire around you
All you have to do is rise

Your feet are for walking
Your head is for thinking
Your hands are for working
Your mouth is for talking

Use them to begin
The chapter of YOU

-Yellowbonewonda

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