“My Defenses Were Defeated”

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It was
A living
Hell
To be
In a
Freezing
Jail cell
All alone
With no heat
I was
Losing my sanity
I was
So far gone
Paranoia
And
Delusions
Came over me
As I began
Asking icesickles
To be friends
With me
So I would
Have someone
Or
Something to
Watch over me
And
Those silly
Thoughts of
Being rescued
Or
Being released
Became
The plot
To a nightmare
So to speak
Will I
Won’t I
I felt hopeless
I was filled
With negativity
There was
No escape
I had
To adjust
To this fate
Day in
Day out
Talking
Through the darkness
As if someone
Could hear me
Feeling
Discouraged
Because I had
No reponse
It was just ice
I was not stupid
But to my surprise
My cries were heard
My prince
Came for me
Crashed
Through the walls
Of my defenses
And
Took me
Into his arms
Pulling me
Into a warmth
I had ever felt
Before him
It wrapped
Around me
Like a blanket
Melting
Everything
Inside of me
Setting me
Free
As I listened
To him heartbeat
That was
So strong
And
Beating
For me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Judge Me On My Merits”

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My guilt
My punishment
My innocence
My vindication
All are part
Of my fate
But I refuse
To take
The rap for
Someone else’s
Misdoings towards
Anyone
In this world
It is not mine
To take
I am not
Responsible for
Any conflict
That is caused
In my absence
I do not
Need to score
Another check
In the lost column
Losing opportunities
To get ahead
In this life
I am so tired
Of standing
In the middle
Of the road
Looking on
As everything
Drives away
Taking my reputation
Along with it
Tarnishing everything
I stand for
Because of the company
I keep
To judge me
Not because
Of my actions
Is a judgement
That will be
A mistake
No one but me
Defines me
So do not
Give me a verdict
That will
Seal my fate
Without
A jury
A trial
Or evidence
It is not justice
It is not right
I am not
Guilty by association
So please
Do not take
It there
Closing the door
In my face

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Trapped By Pain’s Games”

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More intimate
Than any
Of my relationships
It has been
Part of me
It knows me
Inside
And
Out
Pain
A sneaky
Cunning
Scheming
Devious
Deceitful
Unscrupulous
Son of a *itch
Has either
Been
My tormentor
Torturing me
Trying to break me
Into nothingness
Or
My lover
Loving on me
Caressing me
Sending me
Into ecstasy
Then causing
Me to cry
Afterwards
Because it
Walked out
Leaving me
For just
A moment
So I could
Panic
And
Think it
Is not coming back
It has been
Doing this
Continuously
Around the clock
Nonstop
My whole life
I can not
Escape from it
I have tried
Advoidance
Acceptance
Denial
Nothing has worked
I have
Noticed
It waits
When I feel
I am happy
It is gone
Then
It comes back
With a vengeance
Changing
Its face
And
Its strategy
To reenter
Into my life
Pain’s
Message to me
Is
It is not
Going anywhere
This burden
Will be
My baggage
That is not
Fully unpacked
Pouring out
Like
A bottomless pit
The contents
Are scattering
All around me
Boxing me in
So I can not
Move
It just
Wants me
To know
I can not
Run from it
It has me
And
Will not
Let go
NEVER

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Nobody Knows When”

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Odds
Are given
To us
Every moment
In our life
Sleep or Awake
No one is
Safe
From this fate
It was the day
That we were
Conceived
Our parents
Entered us
Into this contract
And once
We were born
We finalized it
By signing
In black and white
Our footprints
To acknowledge
Our life
Granting death
His access
To began his wait
If you do not
Believe me
Just look
At your
Birth certificate
It states
A beginning
Of life
With death
Undetermined
So now
You are
Entered
Into the game
Of chance
No one is immune
To the final
Decision
Or what will
Be the end
Of our life
May it be
Today
Tomorrow
Or days from now
A car
A bullet
A virus
Or
Natural causes
May be
Your way
It is a toss
Of coin
Heads
Or
Tails
Until balance
Comes back
And it’s up to
Mother Nature
And Grim Reaper
To keep tossing
That coin
To determine
Everyone’s fate

-Yellowbonewonda

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