“Trapped By Pain’s Games”

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More intimate
Than any
Of my relationships
It has been
Part of me
It knows me
Inside
And
Out
Pain
A sneaky
Cunning
Scheming
Devious
Deceitful
Unscrupulous
Son of a *itch
Has either
Been
My tormentor
Torturing me
Trying to break me
Into nothingness
Or
My lover
Loving on me
Caressing me
Sending me
Into ecstasy
Then causing
Me to cry
Afterwards
Because it
Walked out
Leaving me
For just
A moment
So I could
Panic
And
Think it
Is not coming back
It has been
Doing this
Continuously
Around the clock
Nonstop
My whole life
I can not
Escape from it
I have tried
Advoidance
Acceptance
Denial
Nothing has worked
I have
Noticed
It waits
When I feel
I am happy
It is gone
Then
It comes back
With a vengeance
Changing
Its face
And
Its strategy
To reenter
Into my life
Pain’s
Message to me
Is
It is not
Going anywhere
This burden
Will be
My baggage
That is not
Fully unpacked
Pouring out
Like
A bottomless pit
The contents
Are scattering
All around me
Boxing me in
So I can not
Move
It just
Wants me
To know
I can not
Run from it
It has me
And
Will not
Let go
NEVER

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Daytime/Nighttime Misery”

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It is usually
When sunlight
Peaks through
Everyone’s windows
Waking up
Those doing
The nine to five
Work creep
When they
May come
To me
I am
On their schedule
They do not care
If I sleep
Those sleep sheep
Assigned to me
Are some
Temperamental
Little bastards
They did
This to me
They come
When they come
Unbeknownst to me
So every night
I am fighting
And losing
Night time
To sleep
So I had
To adjust
To dozing
In the daytime
But like clockwork
Eyes close
Phone rings
I answer
Deliriously
My mind is
Jumbling up
Words
I can not
Speak
Nor
Think
I do not
Understand
The language
Anyone is
Speaking to me
It is like
Hearing
White noise
From a TV station
That has gone
To sleep
I have no
Comprehension
Of what is
Being asked
Of me
I am so tired
Of being tired
I beg you
Could you
Just let me
Sleep
I do not remember
Ever having
Eight hours
Of unirrupted sleep
I am not
A dayriser
I am
A night crawler
Now
So your timetable
Does not pertain
To me
Please do adjust
Your communication
With me
Do not call
Pop up
Or
Include me
In any
Daytime activities
I will be
Sleep

-Yellowbonewonda

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