“Me Against Me”

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I am
All alone
Wading
Waiting
In the middle
Of an ocean
Full of feelings
I can not trust
Trying
To figure out
A mystery
Before I drown
And it is
Too late
I need to know
Who is
The traitor
Or traitors
Inside of me
My mind
My heart
Or
Both
My mind said
Do not believe
My heart
My heart said
Do not believe
My mind
They are
Both pointing
The finger
At each other
Who is lying
Who is telling
The truth
I do not know
Which to trust
I feel
They are both
Against me
Somehow
I am
At that point
Of taking
Extreme measures
And
Stop trusting
Either of them
Because neither are
Providing information
I have zero help
To help
Myself
Something needs
To give
I need
To get out
Of this mess
This bewilderment
And heartbreak
I feel
It is
Distorting everything
That was once
Felt like
Common sense
And
I am about
To be lost
My cracks are
Showing
I am slowly
Breaking apart

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Wash Over Me”

It was partially
My fault
I accept
That part
I kept
Breathing
New life
Into something
That was dead
It will never
Be the same
That pureness
That was inside
Of me
You stabbed
My heart
And left me
For dead
All
That was good
Inside of me
Has leaked out
Leaving nothing
Left inside
The reserve tanks
They are empty
Except for fumes
Now I sit here
Impatiently
Waiting to be
Lead to
The magical waterfall
That will cascade
Over my head
Cleansing
Everything
About me
Including the hell
You put me
Through
Away
Erasing all
The things
That was haunting me
And banish you
Out of my dreams
Renewing my
Memories
So I can
Get over
All the pain
And
Tears
You left me
Swimming in
Looking
For some
Form of proof
That Love
Is still attainable
And
Not another love
Folk tale
I do not
Want to believe
That I can not have
Or
Will not have
A true love
Before I am dead

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Heartless Relations”

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I finally
Discovered
How this
Relationship
Collapsed
Why coldness
Fills the inside
Of my heart
And now
How to warm it
Even after
The heartache
You put me through
I am not
Completely broken
My memories
Helped me
To see
The truth
About you
They came with
Such forcefulness
Flooding back
To tell me
A story
Our life
Played
On a big screen
In my head
As a movie
At first
It was
Too fast
But it eventually
Slowed down
Showing me
In great detail
What you did
To me
And
How you tried
To leave
Me broken
It began
By you telling
One lie
Then another lie
Building
And creating
A life
On a crooked foundation
Topped with
A house of cards
That was
Ready to crumble
At any moment
It was not
My fault
You could not
Tell the truth
I loved you
I will not
Regret it
I meant it
I was in it
It is your loss
When we
Could have
Had a beautiful
Story

-Yellowbonewonda

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