“Trapped By Pain’s Games”

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More intimate
Than any
Of my relationships
It has been
Part of me
It knows me
Inside
And
Out
Pain
A sneaky
Cunning
Scheming
Devious
Deceitful
Unscrupulous
Son of a *itch
Has either
Been
My tormentor
Torturing me
Trying to break me
Into nothingness
Or
My lover
Loving on me
Caressing me
Sending me
Into ecstasy
Then causing
Me to cry
Afterwards
Because it
Walked out
Leaving me
For just
A moment
So I could
Panic
And
Think it
Is not coming back
It has been
Doing this
Continuously
Around the clock
Nonstop
My whole life
I can not
Escape from it
I have tried
Advoidance
Acceptance
Denial
Nothing has worked
I have
Noticed
It waits
When I feel
I am happy
It is gone
Then
It comes back
With a vengeance
Changing
Its face
And
Its strategy
To reenter
Into my life
Pain’s
Message to me
Is
It is not
Going anywhere
This burden
Will be
My baggage
That is not
Fully unpacked
Pouring out
Like
A bottomless pit
The contents
Are scattering
All around me
Boxing me in
So I can not
Move
It just
Wants me
To know
I can not
Run from it
It has me
And
Will not
Let go
NEVER

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Transparency Is Best”

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Do not
Let your lies
Become too
Comfortable
It attaches to
Your breathing
Something
That is an automatic
Response
From birth
Telling the
Truth
Is better
Than lying
If you do not
Want to see
Disappointment
In the eyes
Of loved ones
That believed
In you
And gave you
Space in their heart
Do not hold back
On your truth
When you are
Searching for
A lifetime
With someone
Who will complete
And love
You
Until
Death do you part
Place your
Cards on the table
And represent
Yourself
Be
Truthful
Transparent
And give
One hundred percent
To someone
That needs that
To open up
Their padlocked gate
Do not make
Promises you
Can not keep
No one
In this world
Wants to be
Lied to
To their face
It’s hurtful
And
Disrespectful
To say in the least
To build your
Foundation
On lies and deceit
Do not be in
A relationship
If you’re not
Going to be
Yourself
The truth is
What everyone
Signs up for
In any relationship
The good
The bad
And the ugly
Is part of
This universe
But to face it
With someone
That loves
And knows
Your truth
Is a new freedom
Making it easier
To exist here
In this
Chaotic place

-Yellowbonewonda

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