“Now I Am Not Replaceable”

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Are you happy
With your gold digger
The one you left
Me for
The pass around @ss
Who’s in your pockets
Taking all of your cash
See you left a good one
To get a hood one
Now you calling
Begging for another chance
I never asked you
To give me money
To buy me exotic things
Or
To go on expensive trips
I was happy being with you
All I needed from you
Was for you to give me
100 percent
The same
I was giving to you
Since the day
We agreed to be exclusive
Be in this relationship
And
I am angry that
You lied when you told me
You wanted to settle down
You had no intention
Because you waited only
For a few years to pass
To start looking
Into our neighbor’s backyard
Thinking the grass was greener
On the other side
So why are you not happy
With my replacement
You said
I was not special enough
I asked for too much
To be respected
Treated with dignity
As your queen
I told you in the beginning
I refuse to
Wait in line
Waiting for your touch
What I wanted was
Until death parts us part
One woman
One man
No one else
So
NO
You do not get another chance

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Urges Of Humans”

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In a distant history
Long long ago
It was believed
Many demons existed
Two of which would creep
Into your bed
As you slept
One was an image of a woman
The other of a man
Incubus the male version
Succubus the female version
Depending on their victim
Would have sexual intercourse
With them without consent
People back then
Blamed it on them
Two demons
Of whom
Caused plenty havoc
For centuries
But what do you call
Those demons today
Those taking innocence
Away
I call them human
Flesh and blood
Rapist
Molesters
Predators
Of our community
They say their urges
Are uncontrollable
Unmanageable
But what help
Are they seeking
Who are they telling
To stop them
From doing such destruction
They only cry victim
When they are caught
And
Put in prison
Where the criminals of the world
Do not take kindly
Of their presence
Showing them
How it is to be
A victim
Being taken without consent
When do people take
Responsibility
Of the lack of
Humanity
Stop their excuses
Using their pass
To explain their present
Actions

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Truth Be The Carrier”

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I blow out
All lit matches
Brought before me
Extinguishing them quickly
Erasing any doubt
About me
And
As long as I live
Lies will never soar
Like buzzards
Around me
When I leave this realm
This life
This existance
To crossover into the
Next existence
The only thing
About me
That will be
Completely intact
Definitely
Will be
My name
My reputation
I will have no one
Accusing me of
Stopping my voice
Closing my mouth
Not defending
Myself
I will
Speak my truth
Loudly
Proudly
Without hesitation
Or
Ambivalence
Because
My legacy
I leave
Although mean
Some people say
Will be my
Honesty
Trustworthiness
My truth
Because
I refuse to hurt
Anyone with lies
I can not bare
To see that look
Of disappointment
Because
I have had that look
On my face
I know how it feels
To be lied to
So I figured
If I wanted that one thing
The truth
I believe everyone expect
The same
So just tell
The truth once
So as to avoid
What all lies leave
That infinite feeling
Of being deceived
Something beyond hurt
A lifetime of distrust

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Evil Seeks Both”

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It is evil
Slipping into
Clean skins
Without a heart
So it can walk around
Causing disarray
Disorder
Confusion
Chaos
Man or woman
It has no preference
Evil wants
Evil gets
While using an illusion
To look like us
Acting without
Morality
Integrity
Only informal crookedness
That makes it hard
To understand their complexity
Is only simplicity
To find out
It is up to you to step back
To take in the big picture
To figure out
The many
Twist
And
Turns
Of their personality
And
Avoid them before
They take over your life
For me it is simple
You have too much negative energy
I refuse to get close to you
I do not want to know
What lies beneath deceitful skin
After my senses start
Jumping off the charts
Alerting me to get away from you
If your life is lived in
An endless
Means of unscrupulousness
Deception
Double-dealing
Trickery
Without a conscious
I want no part of you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Stop Bothering Me”

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Do not tempt a beast
Or
A beast is what you get
Thank you
For you attention
At the end of this
This needs to be over
Before a massacre eludes
Making it hard
To being cordial at best
I do not need you
Lane changing
Coming into my rearview
Or
Veering in front of me
Let us make
This clear
This is
My lane
That is
Your lane
Let us get
To where we are going
Without confusion
Without roadblocks
Without incident
Failure to communicate
Is not my problem
With anyone
I say what
I mean
I do as I say
My middle ground
Is staying in my lane
Keeping my opinions
To myself
If I am not asked
It is not mine to give
The end of story
Curtain closes on this act
So here is my dilemma
I thought it was impossible
To have too many people
Not knowing me
Lying on me
But I was proven wrong
Every time
I let my guard down
To invite them in
Into the secret realm
Of where my peace
Is kept
Peace of mind
Peace of heart
Yeah yeah
That mumbo jumbo crap
You think is not for me
To keep
Then your thought process
Is on the fritz
You need to fix it quick
Before I correct you on it
See I am not about
Playing games with my
Mental
Physical
Emotional health
With anyone
Fix your life
Or
I will fix it for you
Just know
If I fix it
My tools are
Impractical
Inappropriate
Unbecoming of a lady
That now stands before you
That beast inside of me
Even I do not want
To meet
No one is ready to see
Not you
Not me
She is uncontrollable
She only knows predator instincts
Not forgiveness
Not mercy
No feelings
Of how you will end up
After the massacre is unleashed
So before I leave
Do you have
Any more questions
Question and answer
Session is now
Open for you
This is your chance

-Yellowbonewonda

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“What Da”

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I do not want
To come out my character
For no one
Especially you
But I will
My irritation
My annoyance
Of the sight of you
I deal with it
Well enough
That is my cross
To bare
But heed my urgency now
I am asking you to keep
This in mind
This is the end
Of the road for you
I can not take
Much more of you
I am warning you
I am cautioning you
This is a public service announcement
For you
And
Anyone like you
To leave me alone
Because
I could careless
Either way of your
Success
Or
Failure
It does not matter to me
My thing is
I did nothing
I do nothing
To nobody
Nobody can say
I have done anything
To them
I mind my own damn business
I stay in my lane
I know nothing
About nothing
I do not gossip
I do not question
I do not interact
In conversations
That do not include me
So
Why is it
$Hit still falls on me
I am not understanding
This concept
This crap of
Why this is happening
To me
This worthless nonsense
This $hit storm
That is taunting
That is following
That is chasing me
I do not give
Two $hits about
What you do
How you do it
When you do it
Where you do it
When it does not concern me
Just
Stop being mad
I refuse to be in the audience
Clapping in the crowd
For you
Get over it
Be glad
Another person is not being
Fake with you
Kissing your @ss
Laughing behind your back
That is not me
Do you
I do me
Live your life
You do not need me
To be your cheerleader
In this world
That is what your family
And
Friends
Are for
I am neither to you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Cowards On The Run”

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When we met
I thought you was
Someone important
Someone to be respected
But I can not respect
A fraud
A counterfeit
A imitation of a person
That can not handle
The truth
Your sham of a life
Is what it is
A sham
With not substance
Beyond old war stories
You told
That never made it
Into the history books
You disgust me
And
I am tired of
You walking around
With your chest out
Huffing and puffing
Acting like
A big bad wolf
I do not need to understand
I do not need to try
You make my head hurt
Just listening to you
Telling lies
I only wish you
Stop talking
Boasting
Breathing out hot air
In my face
If you about it
Be about it
Live in your truth
Face the realness
Of the situation
Do not become a
Yellow-belly
Candy-ass
Scaredy-cat coward
Itching to runaway with
Your tail tucked
Between your legs
Retreating
Because you can not face
The words coming
Out my mouth

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Times Up”

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We are in a countdown
There is a deadline
It is coming up
We do not know when
But
Why wait
Stop procrastinating
Life is short
We can only hope
For how much is left
Hopefully years
Conceivable months
Possibly days
Maybe hours
Prehaps minutes
Or
Mere Seconds
Until
Time is up
But
Why wait
For another day
When today is the day
To be
To do
YOU
It is up to you
Nobody else
You are
The creator
And
The mastermaind
Of your happiness
Life is only complicated
When you are not living it
It is too short
For it not to be a fulfillment
It can change
In less than 30 seconds
From being excitedly happy
To down right miserable
The thing is
Are you strong enough
To respond to it
By getting up
Or do you rather
Lay down and take it
Playing the victim
Always not showing up
Life stops for no one
But will
End for everyone
Either
Today
Or
Tomorrow
Everyone lives
Going against a clock
Ticking tocking
Ticking tocking
Then it just stops
Your gone
Another born
To do it again
Until their time is up

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Imminent Threat”

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I will never be trapped
My mind is fixated
As long as I have
Strong breathing
A heartbeat
Physical strength
Emotional
Mental stability
Courage
And
Determination
Inside of me
Whoever stands between
Me
And
It
I will wrestle
I will terminate
Any attempt
To discourage me
From getting where
I desire to be
No one will
Choke the life
Out of me
I reject ever attempt
To have that advantage
Over me
If that is your task
I promise
It will not be easy
To complete
I will keep reaching
I will find a way
I will not be held
Against my will
I will not have
Fear inside of me
Backing down
From this fight
Is not an option for me
Fighting to the death is
I rather die trying
Because I will not
Succumb to defeat
My life is mine
The Almighty gave it to me
It is only his to take

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Dreaming A Little Dream”

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I am not seeking advice
Only venting
You see
First
Let us get this out of the way
I do not have things on my mind
That keep me up at night
My mind is blank
As blank as can be
I just do not feel sleepy
I have tried everything
Hot epsom salt baths
Lavender incents burning
Sipping chamomile tea
Black out curtains
Putting me in
Pitch black darkness
Sleeping medications
Over-the-counter
And
Prescribed to me
Even
Counting damn sheep
I hate those little bastards
They keep running from me
I just concluded
I am part of an experiment
Called Team No Sleep
I toss and turn
Until the new daybreak
Getting exhausted from wanting
To sleep
I just want to dream
Of all the possibilities
Made for me
Believe me
It is not
Where rainbows
Raindrops
And
Dancing unicorns be
All that crap
Is not for me
My dream is being
Successful
Traveling the world
Having fun
With a family
Created by me
Well damn
I guess that is my
Rainbows
Raindrops
Dancing unicorns
Dream
For me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Mother Earth”

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Like ripples
In a pond
We have ripples
In the Earth
Are we acting
Are we ignoring
As if we are unaware of
The looming truth
When did people
Become untroubled
About the complexities
Of life
Not realizing simple truth
That the Earth’s
Entire ecosystem
Is out of wack
And
This system
Which brings us life
Sadly
It needs protecting
From us
Building
Cutting
Destroying
Everywhere
Everything
Is sentencing us
To death
It is time
To accept
Your part in this
To deny it
You are inviting death
To take us all
At once
We destroy it
We destroy us
So
We need to slowdown
Before all resources
Are tapped out
Let the Earth
Replenish
Key components
That we need to nourish
Every living being
And
Thing on this Earth
Because
Once it is gone
It is gone
No way to steal it
No way to buy it
This gift
That was giving
Will be the gift
That will stop giving
And
Go into
A hard reboot
To clear
All of us out

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Extinguish Domestic Terrorism”

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Can we all
Just get along
This would be a wonderful wish
To ask
And
To be granted
By a magical genie
Granting wishes
For these famous words
To come true
To connect on a level
Live and let live
In an environment of peace
But for some reason
We can not
Because we are stuck
In a continuum
A continuous sequence of events
That have greatly changed
But still mostly the same
Because of certain people
With their
Funky attitudes
That are in denial
And
Unable to accept
Facts
That people are different
Whether it be
Skin
Gender
Sexual preference
Or
Religious beliefs
I wish they come to grips
No one is leaving
And
They are holding us back
No matter how far
We have come
To get to this place
This big @ss elephant
In the middle of the room
Is still a sore subject
When approached
People get roudy
Ready to fight
Because conversations
Take on a life of their own
As people full of ignorance
Lose their damn mind
And
Step over a known line
They should not cross
To submerge theirselves
Into a pool of hate
Only to get what
They did not expect
People fighting back
Because the intolerance of
Speaking out of turn
Saying things they should not
Behaving improperly
As if they did not
Have common sense
Is not in season
Anymore
It is a new dawn
We need to rise
Together to get pass
This disrespectful behavior
The cruelty
The savagery
The malfeasance
Of these home grown terrorist
Committing domestic terrorism
On us all
It is unscrupulous
It needs to be eradicated
Now

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Depends How You See It”

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This is our current status
We do not know
Where the people
In this world
Will end up
We only know
What is being
Put out in this world
As the only answer
To get a point across
Is confusion
And
It is not working
To many people on the offensive
To many people on the defensive
No middle ground
Causing
A retroactive human reaction
Get those that got you
But how does it give us
A solution
Everyone is fighting
No one is listening
Miscommunications
On everything
No one accepting apologizes
No one giving apologizes
After things have gone wrong
And
People said the wrong things
Granted
We all have
That burning inferno sensation
Deep down inside our bellies
That drives us close
To the edge of madness
But it is how we process
Those feelings
Really shows
The type of person
You are truly made of
Are you
A person
Who act out on their rage
With an eye for eye mentality
Acting like a barbarian
Beating your chest
Causing volatile riots
Being pulled away in handcuffs
Only to not be heard
Or
A person
Who controls their temper
Thinking of the consquences
Of their actions
Doing things civilized
Fighting for their rights
To be heard
Peacefully being seen
And
Understood
Gathering up the masses
Of people willing
To march along beside you
And
Cause a movement
For change
In the situation
Who would you rather be
A fifteen minute fame whore
Or
A movement leader
Making history

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Hugs Refresh Life”

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I was not paying attention
I got compliacent
I let my guard down
I was unaware
As it flanked me
From all directions
I had nowhere to run
It covered every chance
I had of egress
I had no way out
It was such
A strong presence
This invisible force
It caused me to stop
Dead in my tracks
I felt encircled
As it approached
At first it came slowly
Then it pounced
Engulfing me
Into its warmeth
Into a bear hug
Something I needed
Something that was missing
From my daily activities
Memories of blissfullnes
Being in the arms of
Someone I needed
Someone I loved
Who made me safe
Refilled my energy
Refreshed my purpose
Cleared my cache
Of useless data
That drained me
I always feel invigorated
By their love
Their hug is magic

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Secret Plans Of Disaster”

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They are making
Too many movements
Behind their backs
They are hiding something
Passing whatever
It is amongst themselves
Keeping it as a secret
They are not fighting
For peace
And
It is all written
In the private journals
Plans only exchanged
Between them
And
No one is paying attention
Something bigger is happening
We are only seeing fragments
Of what they have planned
But it is not enough evidence
For you to believe
That we are going
One by one
Two by two
To the slaughter
These professional manipulators
Mission is to find
Weak minded people
Willing to follow them
Blindly
Into any situation
Dangerous people
Who do not
Ask any questions
Just
Shoot reload
Shoot again
People
This society is in danger
It needs a swift kick
In the @ss
Face the realization
That there are
A great amount of people
Being weeded out
For a specific reason
And
No one is looking
At the bigger picture
These mindless zombies
Doing their bidding
Are just tools
Killing off potential
Great leaders
And
No one is seeing this
We need to stop believing
All this stuff out here
Is random coincidences
Stop believing in people
Saying the sky is green
Take your rose coloured
Glasses off
Look for yourself
Gather facts
Form an opinion
Instead of having
An opinion given to you
It is time
To wake up

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Calculated Actions To Get By”

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Her experiences
Validate
Her feelings
No one
Beside her
Can make decisions
For her
To coerce
To tempt
To force her
To get over it
It is in her due time
Not yours
And
If you do not
Take the time
To know her story
It is on your ignorance
To then speak on things
Which you have not
Experienced
It is insensitive
To people
That are hurting
To not be heard
By someone willing
To listen
This is why
She calculates
All her movements
In the way she
Talks to everyone
Real information
She gives about herself
It is only
For those
Whom she trusts
And
Her trust
Comes sparingly
In a very
Restricted manner
Those that got it
Got it by putting
In the hard work
By earning it
Because
She has been
Hiding
Her aches
Her pains
Her feelings
All of her life
Hiding them
So deep
That no one notices
The dread
The terror
The distress
Inside of her
Because when
They see her
All they see
Is her smiling
Throughout the day
Not noticing
That her pain
Has only
Laid peacefully
Around them
Only
Because she is
Good at hiding
Secrets of the
Fragmentation
Of her spirit
Of her mentality
The hardship of
What is her life
Is sensitive information
Not made for gossip

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Take My Friendship Seriously”

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Two caged birds
Learning to fly free
Found a friendship
That made us family
True friends
Fighting beside each other
Standing with each other
Sharing our secrets
Leaning on each other
In good and bad times
A friendship that should be
A union where
Truth is express
To each other’s face
Whether we like it
Or
Not
So why are you surprised
By my honesty
I disclosed
How my friendship worked
My disclaimer
Was this
With you
I will fight
Until the end
Of time
If you are justified
In your actions
And right
But
If you are wrong
You can not fault me
For stating
The obvious
When telling you
The real problem
Is you
That your
Rageful emotions
Is misplaced
That you need to
Face the truth
I am not a friend
Willing to
Puff you up
To fight
Because I want
To see you
At your best
I protect mines
I refuse to
Allow an injustice
Of you getting hurt
And
I will not let you
Act out of stupidity
I keep your best interest
At heart
Keeping you leveled headed
Is part of my job
So you can make
Better choices
Because
No matter what
I have your back
And
I will say things
You do not want
To hear
That no one else
Is willing to say
To you face
I refuse to be a cowardest
Being afraid
To make that choice
Putting you in a position
To fight over stupid stuff
Because I did not
Tell you
It was not right
My thing is
I believe
If fighting
Must be done
It will
Be our last resort
When a immanate threat
Is standing face to face
With us
With no way out
And
We have to
Fight for our life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Communicable Diseases”

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When you do not care
They do not care
And
The risks are
Like bullets
Flying out of
A metaphoric
Machine gun
Harming everyone
You sleep with
It all starts
When you invite
A person
Into your temple
Not caring about
Their name
Family background
Sexual history
Or
If he/she
Will be there
In the morning
Do you understand
This kind of thinking
Only decreases
Your value
Desecrates
Your body
Shortens
Your life
Having sex with
Multiple partners
Do not make you
A man nor a woman
Only a coward
Unable to
Face your demons
When looking
In the mirror
If you hate
What you see
Fix it
Fix you
Do not cause
Unnecessary problems
Because
The ramifications
Of collecting
Frequent flyer miles
To the nearest clinic
Due to habitual
Wellness checks
Health scares
Is like
Russian roulette
With a condom
That is man made
It can get
Torn
Punchered
Left off
Leaving
You choosing
One of
Two paths
A death sentence
Or
A baby
Which
A majority
Of people
Out here are
Not capable of
Facing either
So stop with the
Disregarded
Common sense
Of what the world
Is really like
Sexual transmitted diseases
Sexual predators
Unwanted pregnancy
With strangers
It is a world
Which lacks self control
And
It is at its finest
As if people have
A death wish
Or
Two *ucks
About the outcome
Living in the moment
People can not be
Afraid to be alone
Or
So willing to lay on
Their back
Because they do not
Want to solve
The mental mystery of
What broke them
In the first place
People you only have
One life
Why cut it short
Off a dumb decision
Of having sex
With a stranger

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Movements Of Woman”

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If you was to think
What would
Move with grace
Majority of people
Would think of
It as being a woman
She is a very
Persuasive being
When using her charms
To influence
A person’s behavior
She would make you feel
A calming peace
Or
A state of agitation
It is in
Her beauty
Her strength
The control in her
Movements
Her power
Her ability
To direct attention
Without using her voice
It is a skill
Which has
Simplicity
Refinement
As she dance
To music that is
Inside her heart
Her fluidity is beyond
Physics
Her body
Moves like water
Curling
Arching
Becoming
Shapes comparable
To a majestic wave
Drawing closer to
The shore
It is breathtaking
To see
People looking on
Gasping in awe
As the highest
Climactic point
Begans to peak
And
Crash on cynics
Clobbering them
With astonishing force
Persuading them
Into questioning
How they should approach her
How they should love her
How they can win her
Be in her presence
So they can
Feel her embrace

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Time Infinite Life Is Not”

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Time may be unlimited
But life for us
Humans
It is not
We are born
At a specific time
Only to live
For an undetermined
Amount of time
Eventually to die
Ending our time
On Earth
So I wish
Some people would
Face their actions
Take responsibility
Clear their consciousness
Not go to
Their deathbed
Knowing
They are conveying
A false impression
Of themselves
No one ask
To be born
But when we are
We depend on
Rely on
Expect
The TWO
Bringing life
Into this world
To get their crap together
Whether
Together
In a relationship
One nightstand
Orgie
On a break
Friends with benefits
Not sure of the relationship
Who cares
It does not matter
The creation of this
Little innocent creature
Does
The nature of life
Is to have growth
Through experiences
Maturity after
The stupidity of immaturity
When choosing
Or
Accidentally
Becoming parents
Because
Bringing new life
Into this crazy world
We live in
Even with
The stress
All the uncertainties
The dangers
This world has
This is not
The world’s problem
This problem
You created
You laid down
Deciding not to protect
Yourself
At the time
Not considering
Eventhough it
Felt so good
Did not mean
A baby was not impossible
To produce
You need a refresher
On sex education
If you did not have
The vision
The forethought
A child
Could be a possibility
After going at it
Without protection
That is not 100%
Prevention
Unless you are sterile
Then that is
A bullet dodged
But still
Why risk it
Only to wait
Until the baby is born
To deny it
Wasting precious time
Speaking falsely
Uttering untruth knowingly
You did
The deed
Get a DNA
End speculation
Because it is
Already
Too many secrets
Walking around
Breathing
Without answers
Because of continued
Shenanigans
Between immature parents
And
Their denial of
Their Olympic
Sex escapades events
In their youth

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Cautious Distrust”

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I do not live
In a fairytale
I am not
That little
Innocent girl
That gobbled up
The lies you once told
And
Continue to tell
I am a little wiser
Stronger
Experienced of the world
I know truth
Is actions
Not empty words
Thrown at me
So I am inclined
To doubt
Your intentions
Your motivations
I question
Everything
Anything
That involves you
I believe
In my heart
You are inspired
Purely by self-interest
Trying to gain
Some type of advantage
Over me
Your pursuit
To seek me out
Without regard for
The people involved
It is selfish
Reprehensible
Inexcusable
Repugnant of you
Because you are
Still mendacious
Fraudulent
Full of treachery
You live so dishonestly
Why can’t you
Act honorably
Your selfish reasons
Whatever
They maybe
Only push people away
Just
Tell the truth
Why are you
Really here
Do you want forgiveness
Do you want a relationship
Are you being pressured
What is it
That you want
Because the hair on my neck
Is standing at attention
Signaling I should be
Vigilantly watchful of you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Circles Can Be Broken”

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Unless you want to
Short change yourself
Limit your potential
Know that
Nothing will ever
Disappear
Or
Stop coming
For you
Because you pretend
It is not there
It will always
Skulk
Prowl
Pussyfoot around inside
The darkest corners
Of your psyche
Like a lurch
Fumbling around
With toxins
Polluting
Your soul
Your mind
Your spirit
Until you confront it
Head on
Acknowledging
That it exist
Hiding
Or
Running from it
Only
Confines you
Inside a circle
That will continue
Circling you back
Until you tackle
The roadblock
You built
Your fears
Your tears
Your insecurities
Your self-doubt
Everything
You have chosen
To use as an excuse
To avoid
Living your life
Is by your choice
And
If you want
To get to other side
Use the tool
That will fit your hand
Use it
To knock down
The recurring situation
Your apprehensions
Your confusion
The invisible prison
In your mind
Fight for
Your life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Playing A Fictitious Character”

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Veteran tricksters
Are always cheating
To get ahead
Creating false identities
To steal
Precious moments
That they can never feel
Or give to another person
Because they are not real
Being a good person
Never plays out right
We are usually
The last people
To finish the race
It is sorrowful
To lose by playing
By the rules
So
My questions are
How does it feel
For you to treat me
The way you do
How can you live
With yourself
Knowing
You do the things you do
You have been
The source of my tears
For years now
You have seen them
Flow down my cheeks
Only to puddle
Beneath my feet
I detest that
You put
That sadness
Inside of me
You pitiful
Pretender
Pretending
You do not see
I saw that smirk
When you turned
To leave
You thought
I did not see
But I did
It angers me
Knowing
Your plan
Was to break me
Into tiny little pieces
So small
No one could see
Me needing to be
Saved from
My endless questions
Why me
Why did I let you
See the better part of me
Why this
Why that
Analyzing
Everything
About me
Only to realize
It had nothing to do with me
Because
Ostentatious
Artificial people
Are already broken
And
Can never
Break me

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Clueless Prescribing”

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Ughhh
The struggle is real
My body is playing
With me
Pretending to be
A tortoise
Ponderously moving
As if it is trapped
In slow motion
I feel spacey
Why is it
No change that
What is happening
My eyelids are such weaklings
I am continuously fighting
To keep them open
Why do they keep closing
When I am
Instructing them
Not to
This poisonous drug
That flows throughout my system
Is forcing me to
Lose my footing
I am drifting in and out
Of consciousness
It feels as if
I am leap frogging
Through a mild delirium
My drug pusher
Umm I mean
My doctor
Keep prescribing
To my symptoms
Saying it
Would help me
Yet all I see is
This being just
Guess work
All the while
Putting me into
The governmental system of
Just drug them
With approval
It is ridiculous
That it boils down
To being
All about
The exchange of money
And
A false promise
Of taking away
Pain permanently
When did this life
Get so difficult
With all this legalized
Drug pushing

-Yellowbonewonda

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“You Sorry Excuse”

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My annoyance
My displeasure
My hostility
Starts
To bubble and boil
Inside of me
When
A liar
A fabricator
A deceiver
Has the nerve
To spew their venom
On an innocent
I do not
Give a flying *uck
Whatever their excuse
When they are
So eager
And
Willing to muddle
People’s reputation
Just because
They feel like it
They deserve
The karma they get
After the tables
Have turned
After the spotlight
Is shined
Into their face
I hope they
Get mad
Get Infuriated
Rage out of control
Losing their cool
So everyone can see
Their real
FACE
I bet it will
Feel like
Shooting daggers
To their chest
Once they hear
Everyone’s else truth
What they see
That lies beneath
A liars false face

-Yellowbonewonda

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