“How Do You Know”

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It’s easy
To be deceived
They come as
A teacher
A police officer
A family member
No one is exempted
To who
May be dangerous
Around children
I want to raise
A Healthy
Strong willed
Well rounded
Mentally stable
Productive
Compassionate
Individual
That will not
Allow
Any obstacle to
Discourage them
From
Reaching their goals
And doing their best
While using their
God’s given talent
To be happy
I will promise
To teach
And prepare them
For the concrete jungle
Help them
To not fall
Into the grasp
Of exploiters
My child
Any child
We need
To protect them
Stop
Calling them
Ugly
Stupid
And worthless
It lowers self-esteem
Making them
Easy prey
For the evil
To touch them
It’s lurking
And
Walking amoung us
On a daily
Ready to
Take advantage
Of their vulnerability
Demolishing their
Future dreams
For the price
Of their innocence
They will tell
Them lies
To gain their trust
Influencing them to
Depend on them
To give them love
And attention
That will not
Benefit them
In the least
I have to
Ask myself
How do I protect
And raise you
Keep you
Safe
I want a
Guarantee
Before I conceive you
That once I bring
You in this world
You will
Return the same
Way you left me
After you leave the nest
Will it be enough
To fill
You up
To capacity
With
My heart
My love
My everything
So many
Of these
Miserable
Horrible people
Want influence
And crush you
I’m so scared
Of the image
Seeing
My child
Broken
Defeated
And
Crying
Out of pain

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Not A Baby Mama”

I am not
Going to
Fight
A losing
Battle
To convince
No one
Of my worth
I am
A rare breed
And I know
My King
Is out there
Looking for me
He will see
His wife
Before him
Making me
An honest
Woman
Before making me
A mother
A Baby mama
I will never be
That label is
Not for me
I am only
Wifey material
A queen
Waiting for
Her king
To come
And take me back
To our kingdom
So you tired
Lame ass dudes
Pass on
By me
Before I
Break it down
For you
You
Want me
To give
My body
My time
My everything
To you
Without
Stipulations
I want
A commitment
And your
Signature on
A contract
That is spiritually
And legally binding
I refuse to just
Be anyone that
You will
Sleep with
I need to be
Your woman
That you want
To have future with
And want to marry
If you are not ready
To give everything
To me
Don’t even bother
You can not
Expect me
To just
Handover
The keys
To my everything
It is more
Precious and
Priceless
Than any
One of a kind
Man-made item
If you are afraid
What I
Won’t be
In the bedroom
Don’t be
I will
Take care of you
It will be
A married couple’s
Paradise
Behind
Closed doors
That we will
Share together
I will be that
Video Vixen
Taking care of
Your every fantasy
You won’t have
To look
Any further
Looking
For any
Broken woman
Ready to breakup
Our marriage
You will never
Be that hungry
To seek out
Something more than
Your wife
And
Lover
Because I will be enough
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-Yellowbonewonda

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“Waiting For The Truth “

My bull shit reader
Is off the charts
With you
You’re in denial
If you think
You are
Honest
Caring
Or even part human
You lie so much
It’s like Niagara Falls
Cascading
Rapidly
On everyone
Below it
You don’t
Even see
How you are
Infecting everyone
With
Your virus

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So I’m going
To sit back
And watch
How long
It will take
For karma to
Catch up
With you
Exposing you
For
Who you are
A complusive liar
With no conscious
You’ve lived
In denial
For so long
Your actions
Have told
Many truths
You’re not equipped
To being
A good person
With morals
You lack
That understanding
So
Stop pretending
You’ve played
This role
For too long
Your retakes
Have ended
Your acting
Stinks
You lack
The tools
For an awarding
Performance
You can not understand
What is unfamiliar
To you
Being truthful
And honest
Your words are lies
Your heart is cold
Your actions are few
It’s just not in you
To be that person
So play
Your position
And stop pretending
You are not
Capable of emotions
It’s too complex
For you
Please come
To that realization
Then we can start
Again
And be able
To find
Some type of feeling

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Books Unopened”

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This pure love
Comes in a
Tarnished package
Covered in dirt
And grim
To hide among us
Confusing almost everyone
But the ones ready
To see
It’s value
You will
Never understand
Unless you’re open
To why your heart
Is not full
And
Does not beat
Strong
Calm
And
Steadily
It’s because you are
Missing out on
A love
So true
It is
Beyond the physical
It’s something
Of a spiritual connection
That is
Extraordinary
And a privilege
For those
That are willing
To love unconditionally
Taking it as a gift
And handling it
With special care
Like a museum curator
Opening it carefully
In a white room
With white gloves
Avoiding
Contamination
Trying not to
Lose it’s value
These beautiful spirits
Are rare books
In the library
And
Once you’ve read them
They will bring
New life
To everything
It’s up
To you
To continue
From the first page
To the last page
To see 
What lies beneath
The  surface
A marvellous story
Will be told
And will include you
It is a priceless
Experience
So
Wonderful
To know such
An
Amazing
Blessed
Anointed individual
That God wanted
To bless you with
To walk
Hand and hand
Through
Life
For Eternity

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Once Upon A Love”

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We use
To be
Close
So close indeed
Nothing could
Come between us
Even the air
We would breath
Had to fight
To squeeze between
Us
We couldn’t breath
Without each other
I was there
You was there
We were inseparable
Thick as thieves
We would
Smother ourselves
With each other
Talking through
The wee hours
Like there was
No other
Other people
Other place to be
Other whatever
It didn’t matter
We would fall asleep
On the phone
Waking up
To each others
Snoring
Then fall back
To sleep
Not hanging up
The phone
After
Exhausting ourselves
When we would
Share everything
A lifetime of stories
Of our life
Our dreams
And our future
Life stood still
In that moment
It was ours
And
Nothing was impossible
We was
A ride or die love
At least
We thought
Nothing could break us
But we are here
Now and
We are
Dying slowly
Falling apart
At the seams
Years have past
And it keeps
Getting ugly
Our love
Has become empty
Nothing is left
To refuel us

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Break Their Hold”

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All religious
Entities
Need to read
Their Holy Book
It’s not suppose to
Be a weapon
In human hands
It’s suppose to be
Divine inspiration
A record
Of a relationship
Between
God and humans
He did not
Put out
An Advertisement
And hire
No one
On this Earth
To be
Part of
His holy court
As judge
Jury
And Executioner
We all should
Be exhausted
By now
Of this ridiculous
Behaviour
We need to
Put our differences
Aside
And stand together
Stop all of
This mistreatment
Of your fellow
Man
Woman
Or
Child
Demeaning them
Disrespecting them
And killing them
Based on their
Color
Gender
Or lifestyle preference
It is no one’s
Business
But theirs
Stop taking away
Their choices
Free-will was given
By our one
And only creator
It’s too many people
Living in glass houses
Throwing stones
At other people
Just because
Someone does not
Believe in their beliefs
God will
Past his judgement
Just
Stop all this
Violence
And live Just
There is
Too much killing
It’s not about
Black Power
White Power
Brown Power
It is
Beyond that
I’m not going to
Dive into
The races
And get on
The bandwagon
Of who deserves
What
We are
All human
Fighting amongst
Ourselves
Being manipulated
By the masses
The instigators
Of the privileged
Controlling us
Dangling half truths
And all lies
In the media
Inciting
Old beliefs
Of hate
Ignorance
And stupidity
Having
Us to fight
Amongst ourselves
Being
Blind and not seeing
The truth
Right
In front of us
They want us to hate
Each other
To keep us
In line
While they cheat us
Out of our happiness
And our place
In heaven
Beside our maker
Their greed
Is a contagion
Wrapped in hate
Keeping us chained
To their nonsense
It’s time to
Call them
By their name
These
Politicians
Governmental agencies
And the Entitled
Are
Who they are
Minions of Satan

-Yellowbonewonda

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“What If Game”

Going back
And forth
Between
Two World’s
Is dangerous
Either let go
Of your pain
Or let go
Of your joy
You can not
Hold on to
Two World’s
Without consequence
Jumping in
And out
Of them
On a daily
One day you
Will explode
And lose your sanity
On reentry
What would you do
Would you stay
Or
Would you run away
From the commitment
Of loving me
Living for me
And being with me
Forever and a day
If I tell you
I love you
I need you
I want you
Would you be happy
Would you be joyful
To have everything
In me
Your wife
In your bed
Your queen
In your heart
The future mother of
Your children
The best friend
You can always trust
But you want
To play
This game
We can play
Of course
The
What if game
Just hope you don’t lose
Because all games
Have to end
Someday
What ifs
Are the scenarios
That will leave
You empty
Cold
And alone
At night
In your bed
Searching for
What you lost
Because
You was too afraid
To open your
Heart
And let go of
Things in
Your head
You can not
Hold on to the
Past
It’s History
That’s what it is
It has nothing
To do with me
Someone else
Caused your pain
Don’t take it
Out on me
Don’t treat me
As if I am
Your enemy
I’m not the one
That broke your heart
Leaving behind
A tortured soul
Not able to
Leave among
The living
Release your sorrow
Heal your heart
Take my hand
And let me lead
You to our forever
Just made for us
A beautiful
Place indeed

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-Yellowbonewonda

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“Don’t Go Backwards”

It’s a question
You need to ask
Yourself
If you are
In the middle
Of the ocean
With no lifeboats
Deployed
No lifevest to put on
Just endless water
What do you do
Drown or swim
To safety
Common sense
Would say swim
For your life
So why is it so
Hard for you
On land
To help yourself
When you are dry drowning
Surrounded by ignorant people
Why do you
Continue to overindulge with
Their nonsense
They are not
Looking out for your
Best interest
This life brings
Enough crap
Political views
That don’t
Help no one
But the rich
And powerful
Making them richer
Family secrets
Coming to light
Not hidden in the closet
Like they use to
These restless skeletons
Want to breath
Fresh air
And walk
Among us
They are speaking up
For their victims
Unlike their protectors
Friends that are
Enemies
Yet are friends
Frenemies
Damn that’s confusing
I rather be
By myself
Then be in that
Colossal mess
And last but least
The broken society
That hates
For no other reason
We all have
Slight differences
We all are human
With the same makeup
Blood Bones Organs
So why are people cruel
To one another
Screwing
Over the helpless
Kicking them down
While they are
Already on the ground
And
Begging for mercy

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$hit is ridiculous
This crap just will not
Go down the toilet
It won’t
Flush away
It just keeps circling
Coming back up
To the surface
Taunting
Peaking over the rim
Meanwhile stinking up
The joint
Leaving you
Two choices
Either
Fix the problem
Or
Seek professional help
Because this clog
In your life
It’s a nuisance
You’re out of order
In need of repair
Stop
Struggling
For no reason
You’re not obligated
To save everyone
If you can’t save yourself
Tackle one thing at a time
Or you will be no use
To no one

-Yellowbonewonda

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“An Urgence”

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I ask you
Girl in the mirror
I already know
You are phenomenal
A queen underneath
All this rawness
A talented
And
Creative
That needs her moment
To break out
And show
Her greatness
I don’t understand
Why I can’t talk
To you
I know you’re there
I catch glimpses
Of you
Everyday
In the mirror
I feel your power
Your beauty
Your presence
It is something
To be reckoned with
It’s an amazing glory
Yet I pretend
As if you are a stranger
I am afraid
You will not like me
And accept me
For who I am
Yes I am your
Secret admirer
I’ve been
Wishing
And hoping
To be like you
Studying your every move
I swear
I’m not stalking
No one
Your essence
Surrounds me
I’m in awe of
Your magnificence
A goddess
On Earth
In front of me
Beside me
All around me
But I see those
Shattered
And
Missing pieces
But once I’m together
My greatness will be
An unstoppable power
Yet my fear
Prevents me
From knowing
How to approach you
I feeling guilty
And ashamed
That I haven’t
Ask you
The important things
That has been in my heart
Needing answers
I need to know
These
Things that
Will set me free
What makes you
You
What are you thinking
Where are you going
What is the future
For me
And
Am I worthy

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Cupid’s Plan”

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I could not evade
And escape
Cupid’s arrows
Forever
I gave up
And allowed it to
Pierce me right
Through my heart
Creating a wonderful havoc
That uprooted my world
Today
Love and insanity
Took over me
Making me
Go against
All my rules
My common sense
Went out the window
I was caught
In a forceful attraction
Causing me to
Spin out of control
I’m in love
And in lust
With the one
And only
Person in this world
That is
My soulmate
My best friend
My confidant
Who knows me well
I was yours
I could not
Resist
I fell fast
And got entangled
Into your passionate gaze
Looking steadily
And intently
I felt
Confined and cornered
All my life
Until
My mind
Body
And Soul
Connected
On all levels
With yours
We became One
It was an
Overwhelming
Exhilarating
Joy
It’s like a dream
Come true
You
Wanting me
Needing me
And
Embracing our love
As we
Come together
Our clothes
Dropping to the floor
One by one
Teasing our loins
Anticipating
The feeling when
Will we feel
The passion
That is building up
Beneath these clothes
I’m begging
Please
Please
Kiss me
Caress me
And pentratrate
My walls
Fill me
With the utmost estascy
That is
Beyond
This realm
Of this
Destined love

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Stand Up For Yourself”

Today
Either you
Will rise
And start fighting
To win back
What is yours
Or keep sinking
Into the quicksand
That they put you in
You have to know
They are standing
Nearby and
Watching you
Die a slow death
And laughing
While
You are struggling
You don’t have
To be
Stuck between
A rock and
A hard place
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Stop
Giving everything
And getting nothing
In return
From those
That don’t care
For you
Or have compassion
For your suffering
I don’t understand
Where is your dignity
Your backbone
To stand up for yourself
Do you like
Being preyed upon
Are you afraid
Of them
Hating you
Or getting mad
For you standing up
To them
And
Demanding respect
After they disrespected you
It is your right
To sometimes
Be selfish
You are giving
Too much
To the ungrateful
And they are using you
Taking your money
Your sanity
Just everything
That is good in you
When is it enough
For you
To say No
And keep
Something just for you
How is it so hard
For you
To put yourself
Before those that harm you
They give nothing
To uplift
Support
Or just love you
Stop being a
Meal ticket
That keeps giving
Until you are empty
Take charge
Of your destiny
Stop the complaining
And stand up to them
Be your own person
Or they will kill you
Take your spirit
Your will
And your soul
Leaving a shell
Behind
It’s time for a change
Before there
Is nothing
Left of you
To find

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Things Within”

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There is a war
Beneath my skin
No one sees
And I feel
It almost daily
Little people
Are inside
Of me
Killing me
Slowly
With torture
I feel
Little
Daggers
Piercing me
From the
Inside out
They are
Trying to
Break me
By any means
Necessary
Through
Scratches
Cuts
And
Gapping wounds
Breaking down
My defenses
One by one
They are
Everywhere
It’s a hostile takeover
I can not
Stop them
It’s an explosion
Of craters
Forming
As big
As the Grand Canyon
My skin
Is covered
By a red color
It’s leaking
As if
Someone shot me
And reloaded
Making sure
Of no survival
I can not
Replenish enough
Fluids
To save me
My heart
Can not
Take this stress
It’s weakening
Me
I am dying
By the minute
I’m falling
Into pieces
Shattering
To a point
Of never
Being put back
Together
Am I the only
One seeing this
Does that mean
I’m going crazy
Is
My perception
Of what
I’m going through
Too vivid
In imagination

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Have Your Childhood”

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It’s false advertising
A sexy package
That society
Is selling
Sex
Drugs
And fantasies
Living
Out of control
Acting like
No one has
Home training
Wilding out
Doing endless parties
Growing old
Too soon
Aging
By the minute
Drying up
Their bodies
In the process
Why does
Anyone want
This type of life
To grow up
So fast
Skipping childhood
To being irresponsible
It’s a glamourizattion
By the media
Adults on tv
Playing on
People’s fantasies
On how their
Life is suppose to be
Being rich
And famous
With unlimited mansions
Of course
I would want that
To skip through chapters
Of my development
Avoiding school
To being a celebrity
I’m thankful
I had self control
I had plenty of time
To get there
So why not
Enjoy my childhood
It’s here one minute
Gone the next
Blinders will be taken of
Real soon
Showing truth about
How life will be
After turning eighteen
In the eyes of the government
I’m a legal adult
Able to get tax
But not old enough
To drink
Responsibility
Becomes an unwanted attachement
A lifelong companion
And I’m playing
On the government’s playground
Where they are
The biggest bully
Stealing money
Straight out of your pockets
Big brother
He won’t protect you
When he wants his money
He’s getting his
So why are you rushing
To get burnt out
By the dollar bill
This race
Will take
A lifetime
An endless cycle
Of Sleep
Or not sleeping
Always thinking
Of ways to
Getting
To the top
Of the food chain

-Yellowbonewonda

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“My Own Captivity”

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Boy
My
Assumptions
They are
A mother !ucker
From the beginning
Of this
Wicked journey
When you
Approached me
I was doomed
At that moment
I thought
I had won
The lottery
But I was living in
A twisted delusion
In Fairy Tale
Filled with monsters
And you was
Their leader
Why do you
Hate me
Enough to
Use me
Abuse me
Emotionally
Taking advantage
Of me
Not caring
That you
Are killing me
Depleting
My good nature
Causing me to
Cry
And be angry
Going mental
On this
Emotional rollercoaster
That is
Continuously going
In circles
I loved you
You could care less
You were immune
To my pureness
The one and only organ
Inside of me
My heart
Filled with an
Uncontainable contagion
Of love
Devotion
And loyalty
That I was
Giving to you
Freely
You hit it
Out of my hand
As I was handing
It to you
You looked at me
As if I had cursed
At you
Stabbed you
Or took your freedom
You lied
By omission
Of your intentions
You had
No feelings
Inside of you
All you wanted
Was my tears
To bathe in
Ciphering
My energy
On a daily
Not caring
If was weakening me
In the process
You recharged
And grew stronger
Off of me
Your magical fountain
And I’m 
Drying up
Completely

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Nurturing A Growing Love”

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She is a human being
With emotions
A woman
Who creates
Nurture
And is a vessel
Of life
Itself
She is not
A toy
To be played with
And left in the corner
After you are done
She deserves to be loved
Unconditionally
Without hesitation
Appreciated and
Treated like no other
A queen
Always worshipped
By her king
For Eternity
What you give to her
She will give it back
Ten folds
It depends on you
And what you want
From her
She should not have
To fight for her position
In your life
It should be
Forever filled
By her
And her alone
No more applicants
Need to apply
Be found
Interviewed
Or placed in
Follow-up later
She is the one
And only
The love
She gives
Is deeper than
Any physical attraction
It is powerful
Blinding
Astonishing
And fullfuling
Nothing can compared
To this union
No
Hindering
Ordinary
Obstructing
Destructive
Rendering
Alluring
Thot
Can ever fill
Her shoes
She is
Wifey
Stop looking
For greener pastures
Because once you’ve
Lost her
She will never come back
Being the same person
Just protect her
Love her
She be your all
Your queen
Your lover
Your best friend
And
Your life companion
Be good to her
And she’ll be good to you
Always plus infinity

-Yellowbonewonda

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“A Body With No Soul”

By: Yellowbonewonda

As I sit
Alone in this
Empty mausoleum
Once called our home
I am seeing hallucinations
Or is it
An apparition
Of you
A lost spirit
With no soul
Not present
Or accountable
Of the destruction
That is going on in
This house
It is
No longer a home
For the living
Release me from
This curse
Of you constantly
Haunting me
And not loving me
We are lost
And only holding on
Because we are familiar
To one another
But that’s not
What love is
We are either
Together
Or going our separate ways
Out of survival
So we can fill
This emptiness inside
That is close to the core
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We can not
Keep living
In this
Parallel world
Where you
Don’t love me
I can’t bare to live
A lifetime
Outside of your heart
A Castaway
Left on a deserted island
Surrounded by sharks
These women are out
For my blood
They smell it
In the water
They are ready
To devour me
Tear me limb
From limb
To take my place
And stand in my shoes
As if I was never
There
In the first place
Why do
You put me
Through this heartache
I would have never
Envisioned
You ever mistreating me
You’re losing
Me completely
And you don’t care
Unless someone
Else starts to see me

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“Just Trust Me”

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You may think
That you are
Getting nowhere
But you’re somewhere
Far from lost hope
You’re closer to me
By one breath
As I’m
Pulling you
To safety
When you’re
Weak and
Out of breath
Just
Trust me
To be your refuge
Your safe place
Your haven
No judgement here
Just your future
Full of happiness
And peace
A home to go to
To hide
From the high pursuit
Of demons
And Cerberus
Looking to
Hunt you down
Play with you
And capture your soul
For all eternity
Give me a chance
To warm your heart
Tell me those secrets
That you hide from
Every soul
That you buried
So deep within
And made you so cold
Let me make your
Dreams a reality
And vanquish
Your nightmares
Forever
So you can sleep
Beside me
In this fortress
Of positivity
It’s a piece
Of heaven’s grace
Full of
Vibrant colors
No more
Black and white

Yellowbonewonda

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“In Your Feelings”

By: Yellowbonewonda

Just because
I don’t answer
When you call
Or talk to you
On a regular
Does not mean
I’m ignoring you
$hit rises
And falls
Without warning
Life happens
And human factors
Become unexpected parts
Of the damn equation
Assumptions
Will get you
Blacklisted
Your choices
Will be
To be burned
Recycled
Or buried somewhere
In the middle
Of nowhere
Don’t have
Conversations
In your head
And conclude
Before asking
Wait to see
If there is
A good reason
Check your attitude
Before you get
Your @ss handed to you
It’s not necessary
To become
A code 187
Murdering your chances
Because you didn’t
Come correct
Because of your
Biased conversations
Between
You
Yourself
And your @sshole
They are all wrong
In their three way
Conviction
Without a trial
To hear evidence
That opposed them
Get out of your feelings
You’re not the center
Of anyone’s universe
So take caution
Before approaching
Any situation
Nothing is
As it seems
What’s happening
In this world
Could be serious
And you are
In some unwarranted
Emotions
Choosing the wrong way
And now there is
A declaration
Of war
And you are
Being killed off
With no compassion
Empthy
Or sympathy
Because of your
Blind approach
On your decisions
To being froggy
Leaping before looking
Then crashing and burning
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“Twisted Words”

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I’ve already got
Too many
Voices and personas
In my head
I’m apologizing
To myself
I made
A mistake
I let your voice
Be louder
Than mine
I allowed you to enter
Into my head space
Messing up
My thought process
Causing me to
Question my decisions
About what’s
In my heart
And what I know
Is Truth
I must believe
In me
and
What I do
Is best for me
I’m not being naive
It’s my survival
Mechanism
My intuition
Is in tune
It has gotten me
Thus far
But you
Caught off guard
Throwing me off my feet
Causing me
To fall too quick
I couldn’t brace myself
It’s not your fault
It’s mine
I heard you
And your doubts
But your doubts
Are not mine
And I won’t start
Doubting myself now
I’ve lived this long
Doing what I do best
Being the person
With near misses
In every situation
In my life
I got this
Sit back and see
I’m on a level
No one understands
I’ve trained myself
To be mindful
In tuned with who I am
I’ve seen evil
And greatness
In everyone
My survival
Is my instincts
I’m trusting it
To keep me
And take care
Of me
So let me
Take my minute
To regroup
Pull it together
And do a cleansing breath
Cast off
All that was said
Then
You can see
Me in action

Yellowbonewonda

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“Mission A Go”

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It’s the fourth of July
Year-round
In this bedroom
Mission is a go
Overwhelm me
Make all my senses
Taste
Smell
Touch
Sight
Hearing
Burst and shoot
Like firecrackers
No t.v.
No phones
We are our
Only distractions
We will be our
Best and most engaging
Entertainment
Lighting up the sky
Causing the
Ohhhs and awwws
Out of excitement
I want your love
To take me over
No thinking
Just doing
Animal instincts
Tearing and devouring
And
Smothering me
With unlimited kisses
From my head to my toes
Igniting my ignition
Putting me in overdrive
Sending me plummeting
Out of control
Off the highest mountain
As you touch my body
I want to quiver and shiver
As if I’m cold
But I am not
My body is spasming
In a seizure
Blurring the lines
Of lust and love
Causing goosebumps
To line up
All over my body
At attention
Ready and willing
To do whatever
Your marching orders
Tell them
Without questioning
I trust you to
Complete every mission
Diving deeper
Into my waters
There are no dangers
Other than
Falling deeper
In love
Than we are
This moment
In each other’s arms
Not wanting to let go
In fear of enemy capture

Yellowbonewonda

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“Stop Killing My Children”

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Yes ma’am
No ma’am
Is what I’m teaching them
My child
Is my responsibility
There are no
Uncontrollable
Outbursts
Talking back
Fighting
Cussing at anytime
Telling me no
When I tell them
To do something
Their homework
Done
Their room
Clean
Graduating
A must
Book smarts
Street smarts
The legal hussle
Of this system
On check
Striving to be their best
Being
Something more
Than a thug
Or a thot
Being hard headed
And loose
Is not an option
They are
Prepared and avoiding
You
The ones with guns
Ready to kill them
Coming from my womb
Don’t try to
Slide my child
On the assembly line
Tattooing
CPS property
On their ass
Telling them to call
You
When I discipline
And correct them
This is not an unlimited
Reproduction
Making children
So you can kill them
When they are misbehaving
Out in these streets
Where guns are easily
Accessible
You won’t tie my hands
I am the Queen
In this castle
And
My King is right
Beside me
Supporting me
In my rants
Together or not
We are their protectors
Teachers
And
Nuturers
The creators of these
Little ones
In this house
We established for them
To follow
Rules and regulations
We are preparing
Them
To live
And
Be
Part of
A productive society
But
If you want them
Come and get them
Take care of them
Raise them to be
What you call
Decent human beings
Disposable children
To be killed off
Lied on
By the media
Giving a poor excuse
Why they deserved to die
Saying
They were
Part
Of a broken home
Where no one loved them
A disgrace
A delinquent
Given
A death sentence
In these streets
Not my kids
They
Will not fall
Through those
System cracks
These future
Kings and Queens
Will be
Making moves
Like champions
Building empires
Unstoppable
Pillars of the community

Yellowbonewonda

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“Not On My Watch”

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How do I unplug
From you
Disconnect
And walk away
From you
Not care
What happens to you
I can’t
It’s
Not as easy
As you may think
To pull away
Unconnecting
That connection
We have between us
It is
Electrifying
Refreshing
Recharging
It brings new life
To me on a daily
It’s not in my nature
To stand on the sidelines
Or walk away
From those that
Need me
I have a Good Samaritan
Heart
That goes toward
An accident
Helping
To save a life
From the brink on death
I won’t
Be afraid
Wait
And see who else
Will help
It’s a do
Or die situation
Action
Is the only option
Helping anyone
In need of helping
You can depend on me
I got your back
And then some
Once a friend
Always a friend
You’re never alone
I’m your
Chameleon
Changing
Blending in
And watching you
To catch you
When you fall
I am
A fighter
That will fight negativity
That cloud your judgement
A motivator
That will push you
Past your weakness
A cheerleader
That will encourage
Your spirit
To push your body
Across
The finish line
First prize
Is a guarantee
Your life
Your happiness
Your everything
Is always a value
And nourished
By me
Believe that

Yellowbonewonda

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“Life Is Happening”

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This migraine
Is killing me
My head is
Splitting from all
This pain
Too much is going on
It needs to
Calm down
Let’s step back
To a steady pace
Before I burn out
And fall from grace
And say things
I shouldn’t say
Too many years
Has gone by
It’s a lifetime
It can’t
And won’t be erased
Or caught up on
In such
A short span
In this empty space
It’s not happening
I’m at a point
I’m in need of a buffer
Where are those
Heavenly angels
That have grounded me
This weightlessness
Is new to me
I’m off balanced
In need of relief
An enormous pressure
Is overtaking me
Again where
Are those angels
That kept me
At ease
And
Leveled headed
Are they on holiday
Put out a memo
I need them
I’m being pushed
To a point
Of retreating
To my
Safe place
While everything
Passes me by
Letting me
Gather my bearings
And my sanity
Allowing a time
To start again
Another day
Too much
Too fast
Let’s put pause
On the excitement
So much
Has been missed
It’s overwhelming

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Too Much At Once”

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I opened
Two boxes
And can’t close them
Again
Those damn
Shiny boxes
Were so tempting
I released a plague
Out of them
It’s twisting and turning
My life
And crumbling it
I’m fighting
To climb
From the depths of
This Earth
Cause
My @ss is burning
This can be heaven or hell
For me
On this new journey
I feel like I am caught
Between a rock
And a hard place
And it’s killing me
My blessings
And curses
Are mixed up
Confusing me
If I walked away
To catch my breath
And stop from spinning
I’m suffocating from
Lack of air
I’m seeing things
That have different meaning
I won’t allow
No one
To break me
Break my heart
And tell me lies
Of who I was to them
And who they believe
I am
To be
I am not that person
I used to be
Bright eyed
And bushy tailed
Cute
And cuddly
I have a way
About me
I am cautious
With my curiosity
It’s so much
To take in my mind
It’s overwhelming
I don’t know where to start
At the beginning
Or
At the end
To this story
A drama series
That won’t end
Or die off easily

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Family Ties”

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We are caught
In governmental
Red tape
We are legalized strangers
Linked as family
Based on a common ancestor
Stating that we are
Blood bound relatives
Yet it still does not
Meet my definition
Of family
If what you know
About me
Can be found
On the internet
In public record
My name
My birthday
Possibly my favorite color
Any stranger
Can be family
If they want
To know me superficially
I want something more
In-depth
A real connection
Someone I can depend on
That will love me
With no ulterior motives
I don’t want to rely on
What I was told
From birth
You are kin
And I have to accept it
I won’t
Love you
Unconditionally
After being
Lied
Robbed
and taken advantage of
At some point
You have to release them
Enemies as family
Is not what I’m
Looking for
Falling without
A safety net
Crashing and burning
A horrid death
At the hands of
These so called people
Because of history
My survival instincts
Flight or fight
Kicks in
To protect
Myself
I don’t have time
For this foolery
Because I was told
You were family

-Yellowbonewonda

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