“Stopped Being Predictable”

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Everyday you torture
Your allies
Making enemies out of loved ones
Losing people
Who have always been there for you
Who cared about you
Who never harmed you
Who always loved you
Because of
This persona you are presenting
A terribly frightful
Very appalling
Heartless vindictive person
Someone that is not you
So for a moment
Can we flipped the script
So you could understand me
See through my eyes
What I see you representing
You disregarding people’s feelings
Follow me
Imagine this
I you
You me
And
For years
You have known me
To be a certain way
To wear my heart on my sleeve
But
Changed
Stopped being that
Predictable person
Stopped calling
Stopped talking
Stopped giving a *uck
Would I surprise you
Would I get your attention
Would you finally
Then see reason
That everyone’s feelings
Mean something
And
You are not the only one
In the world that has them
So you need to be more understanding
When you are hurting them

-Yellowbonewonda

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“One Destroys What Many Try To Rebuild”

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You are a person
Without a heart
A soulless human
Without any humanity
A pain in the butt
With your one for all mentality
Walking around amongst us
Getting in the way of
The ones
Trying to be
Helpful
Useful
And
Willing to get along
For the better good
Of the community
And
With all the love
I have inside of me
I can not feel for you
A person so hell bent
On destroying everything around you
For no other reason
Besides selfishness
You want the world
To bow down to you
But you refuse to offer
Anything to this society
But
Your screwed up attitude
Your destructive tendacies
Your feelings of entitlement
Just know
Everything about you
Is so off-putting
All of your self-absorbness
It is not attractive
It is not productive
You are a time bomb
With a countdown
Of mere seconds
And
Everyone in your radius
Is sure to perish
I just wish you go away
And
Leave us alone
To live in peace

-Yellowbonewonda

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“The Unknown”

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It is the not knowing
That propels the mind
To run rampeed
Like a runaway train
With a vivid imagination
After things that once made sense
Does not make sense anymore
It forces you to question
Everything told to you
By a person that
You thought you knew
But you did not know
After finding out
Everything they told
Was part of a vivid delusion
That they made up
To keep you from seeing
The real reality
The truth about them
That they are pretenders
Pretending to be
Some they are not
Someone confident
Someone strong
Someone that got
Their life together
Being conners
Manipulating strangers
To lower their guard
To invite them in
So they can pretend
A little longer
To be someone they are not

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Set It Ablaze”

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You do not need
A match
And
Kerosene
To completely destroy us
Unless you want
It to be permanent
But it is not necessary
If you do not want me
In your life
Let your words
Flow out your mouth
And
Stand by your feelings
Do not just leave
Without an explanation
It is a cowards way out
Destroying what we built together
By going on
Someone else’s problem
That had nothing to do with us
Just be honest
We been through tougher things
Than this
What is your real reason
It takes two to make
This relationship work
And
If there is nothing
In your heart to save us
I will not fight
To change your mind
Beg you to stay
If you want out
It is up to you
We can be adults
And
Say our goodbyes
Respectfully
Move on without
Anything left unfinished
Questioning who was at fault
On the demise of this relationship
If falling out of love
Is your reason
Do not stay with me
Out of obligations
Familiarity
Or
Pity
I rather respect you
Than hate you

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Running From Attaching Strings”

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He would avoid
A healthy relationship
To stay in
Something that is familiar
Living life following
The smallest brain
His second brain
His penis
It started
During his adolescence
Filtering
Well into his adulthood
He was taught
Conditioned
Beaten into compliance
By a woman
A mother figure
Someone that he trusted
To give into
Whatever urges
That distanced him
From love
And
Attachment
He had the body of a man
The mind of a child
She took his innocence
In his own home
Under the same
Roof as his father
Then
Abandoned him
To fend for himself
Hindering any relationship
In his future
Stopping it from
Being prosperous
A healthy growth
Because he never witnessed
Nothing but dysfunction
From his family

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Day At The Beach”

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Every once and a while
Push pause
Slow down
The hustle and bustle
Of a busy day
To focus on you
Be in the present
So you can enjoy
What is overlooked in a day
A bit of peace
In a cool breeze
That gently blows through your hair
Or
When a warm sunny day
Begs you to join in
And
To bring a nice cold drink
To sip
Everso slowly
So as to taste every ingredient
Inside your drink
Waking up senses
That has gone dormant
Because you inhale
And
Not savor
Anything anymore
Due to lack of time
Or
If you are not satisfied
By that little taste
Of peace
Then go further
Find a paradise
Where
No one for miles
No prying eyes
No electronics
To bother you
Just you alone
Soaking up some rays
Sitting on the beach
Watching the waves
Subside at your feet
Letting every care
Drip off your body
Like sweat
And
Allowing the smile
You tucked away
To come
To your face
Setting free
Your captured
Tortured soul
Back into the sea

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Finding Purpose”

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At times
It seems you are not
Where you should be
Or
Where you want to be
But
Sometimes it is
The right place
Life and death
Act like two kids
Playing monkey in the middle
With you everyday of your life
It is such an irritating game
To be jumping up and down
While they play keep away
Throwing your
Hopes
Dreams
Ambitions
To each other
Forcing you to fight
To try to get them back
It can be
Maddening
Confusing
Stressful
To play this game
And
Not know where
Your purpose is in life
Always
Questioning
Are you at the beginning
Are you at the end
Because
The finish line
Sometimes feels like
The starting line
And
Thoughts runaway
With you
Thinking should
You give up
Should you fight
Well that is
The million dollar question
It is up to you
Is it worth it
To you
Or
Not

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Entering Into The Badlands”

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Stumbling
Into the badlands
Where nowhere
Is somewhere
Questioning
Is it a nightmare
Or
Is it reality
Because I am
Wondering lost
Not sure
In what direction
Is best to go
Tired of walking
In circles
And
It feels as if
Being stuck
In a dream state
In a coma
A Cinderella existance
After biting into
The poisonous apple
Causing
Daylight to slip away
Very quickly
It is as if
It had never existed
I closed my eyes
This morning only
For a moment
Now
Waking into darkness
Not aware of
The date
The time
Or
What I missed
During the whole ordeal
While I slept
So deep
So sound
That nothing
Or
No one could
Wake me
Not a prince
Not an antidote
Just time had to pass
To heal
To mend
What was broken

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Nothing Halfway”

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Loyalty
Is a must
I can not be
In any kind of relationship
Without it
My trust is priceless
There is no selling it
There is no leasing it
It is not property
It is part of me
My soul
My heart
And
Once damaged
It is hard to give back
So from the beginning
I tell you once
That I give
And
I ask for nothing
Less than 100%
Either give it
To me forever
Or
Not give it
To me at all
And
I suggest
If you want
To play games
There is a playground
At the park
Go run off your energy there
And
Do not come messing
Playing
Agitating
Adults

-Yellowbonewonda

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“No One Is All Knowing”

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When pain consumes
Bodies not broken
On the outside
People hesitate to help
People think they are lying
Over-exaggerating
Their circumstance
But how do they know
How do you know
Have you walked in their shoes
Slipped into their skin
Looked through their eyes
Gone through their thoughts
What is your reasoning
Of doubt
You have neither proved
Nor
Disproved
Their discomfort
Their experiences
What gives you the right
To give an opinion
On something you know
Nothing about
Physical appearances
Do not always present
The pain a person is going through
Pain comes in many forms
It is all-embracing
It can be
Invisibly cloaked
From the naked eye
Where most do not
Look beyond
If they do not have
A microscope
Internal
Mental
Emotional pain
People run from
Deny its existence
Deny treatment
Because if it does not make sense
You must be lying
Not realizing no one is all knowing
And
Science has not discovered
Everything in existence
Some people are special cases
A new chapter to add
Into the discovery books

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Life Should Be Precious”

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Why would you
Commit murder
In order
To save
Or
To steal
Replaceable
Materialistic junk
Cars
Clothes
Jewelry
Paper money
Printed by the
Millions
Billions
Trillions
Do you realize
Life is the only
Priceless commodity
On the planet
And if killed
It is a 100% guarantee
That person is gone
Never to be replaced
Like the stuff
Bought
At the mall
Or
At the market
A life
Will not be returned
Exchange for a better model
Crediting back
Because it was lost
Or
Stolen
From the owner
So why
Would you
Go to extremes
Of taking a life
Creating a permanent solution
To a problem
That no one can
Come back from
Could you live
With your conscious
After being taught
Thou shalt not kill
I want to know
Could you live with it
Because there are people
Who do not think before they act
Then find out later
There are some actions
That can not be
Reversed
Undone
Wished away
After a life they took
Is buried six feet deep
Under the cold
Damp and dark dirt
You want to be responsible
For someone’s
Child
Mother
Daughter
Son
Uncle
Father
Not coming home
To them
Think before you act

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Cheap Imitation Foundation”

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Are you strong enough
To handle the consquences
After you have
Spoken blatant lies
Told half truths
Or
Lied by ommission
Because
If you do not know
Read close
The truth about lies
They linger in dark corners
Whispering
Then shouting at your conscious
To be set free
They loiter in your heart
Making you feel guilty
So you will repent
Making things right
They attach to your soul
Being a heavy weight
That will surely
Become unbearable
And
It is patient
It will wait many lifetimes
To eventually come out
Or
Change into karma
Becoming that metaphorical
Sledgehammer
That demolishes everything
With one swing
Breaking everything
Built on top of it
Down to the unstable foundation
Leaving nothing behind
Besides
A wrenching heartached
Confused
Disappointed
Person
Who you betrayed
Turning a good person
Into a wounded soul
Numbed to the world
And
Everyone in it
Who cries
A steady flow of tears
Leaking out anything
That has anything
To do with happiness
Draining them out

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Limboing Souls Losing Their Life”

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If you linger too long
In two different worlds
They see it as
You
Opening yourself up
To welcome
To host
To entertain
Ghost
Just saying
They are opportunist
They search to find
Weakened souls
Living in limbo
In order
To step into this life
The heaviest weight
You could carry
Is a dwelled upon
Memory
That haunts
And
Plays tricks on the mind
Day
And
Night
Your darknest time
The trauma
The hurt
The hate
Detering you
Deal with it
Or
It will cost you
This life
By bringing it to the light
Allowing it
To run nowhere
Exposing
The truth
Releases you
So you can step back
Into this world
That gives you
A chance to take back
What is your right
Your life

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Wading Through A Blur”

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Someone’s breaking point
Is coming
I only hope
It will not be massive
Sad thing
No one will know
Why
Until after
Blood has been shed
Killing has been done
And
They have plead insanity
Please
Just
Watch them
When they start
Screaming the loudest
Stating the victim
Deserved it
People need to
See some humans
Are incurable
Unfocused individuals
Living life restless
Souless
With little motivation
No direction
Not begging
Not wanting
To be in charge of
Their mind
Their body
Which are playing on
Two different wavelengths
That they refuse
To reboot
To repair
Therefore
There is no shut off
Button to push
No downtime for them
They are
What they are
A mixed bag
Of assortments
Charmer
Savage
Killer
With an
Endless possibilities
Of being
Good mastermind
Bad criminal
Or
Worst predator
Depending on
The scenario
And
Guess what
Their shattered psyche
Will be the problem
To solve
Not the person
At the defense table
At least that is what
The defense lawyer
Will be claiming
Saying his client
Was a victim of circumstance
While ignoring the real victim
Killed and buried

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Against The Current”

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With every task
I try to consider
With every decision
I try to make
And
Trying not to make
A mistake
It is the endless
Overthinking
That gets me
In the end
Mixed with
Rare occasions
Where my mind wonders
How easy it would be
Just to
Submit
Succumb
Surrender
Go with the flow
Be like the majority
Stop
Fighting upstream
Against the current
Of miserable people
Who do nothing but take
And
Never give back
Because of them
I should be in critical condition
On life support
My body is
Heavy
My heart is
Burdensome
My spirit is
Depleting
My energy is at the brink
Of collapse
Overworked
Overwhelmed
Weakened by people
Who do not appreciate
My existence
My love
My help
I question this creation
Of emptiness
This lack of heart
In some humans
I want to know
How do these people exist

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Black Magic Backfires”

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I figured
You must have thought
Your glamour spell
You casted on me
Would permanently
Prevent me from seeing
The truth
Silly Warlock
You are not strong enough
You
My dear
Are still a student
Not yet
A professor in
The magic realm
Making colossal mistakes
Missing key ingredients
Cooking up a very temporary
Fading spell
Which allowed me to awaken
To witness
The real broadcasting of
What was real
Your true face
On all channels
Everywhere
Yeah
You know the one
That big @sshole
That one with the
Very bad intentions
That was trying to hide from me
That was trying to hurt me
Yeah
The true you
The one
I would never
Talk to
Giving my time for
Or
Cried for

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Not A Wasteland Yet”

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Your eviction process
Is going in effect
You have 30 days
To get out
I am legally banishing you
Out of my life
So I can sleep
Peacefully at night
Because I can not
Have you constantly
On my mind
Everyday
Every night
Driving me insane
To a point of no return
So I need to take this action
Before it is too late
This thing we had
It is not love
But an obsession
Taking up
Too much space
In my head
In my heart
In my life
You are a
Squatter
Not paying rent
And
The longer you stay
You decrease
My value
Reducing
This entire sanctum
To nothing
But rubble
And
Trash
That no one
Will want to buy
Making it a forgotten wasteland
That people avoid

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Giving My Better My Best”

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Failure
Staked a claim on me
At my first breath
It has been trying
To discourage me
Everyday of my life
But became noticeable
The first day
I tried to walk
It knocked me down
In my first steps
But it could not
Keep me down
I kept trying
I wobbled
I toddled
Until my balance
Balanced out
In no time
I was walking
Running
Climbing
I dominated
My task
At least I thought
Until failure came back
In a vengeance
At each pass
Adolescence
Adulthood
It was not giving up
It wanted me
So bad
It wanted to break
My joy
My hope
My spirit
Getting me depressed
Enough to doubt myself
My actions
My decisions
In this life
Trying to make me feel
I was not good enough
But I am as good as
Another
So I am not giving in
Just yet
I am giving
My better
My best
Steps going forward
Until forward
Is no longer
An option
To getting there

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Hating Is Easy Loving Is Hard”

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If it is being told
By the media
Which they say
Is the truth
So many people
Are consumed with pure hate
Downright evil
To one another
And
The word humanity
Is a joke
I would have said
It was a complete utter lie
But the evidence
Is stacking up
Because I see it everywhere
On blogs
Instagram post
Comment sections of articles
Walking down the street
Driving across town
Eating at a restaurant
I see what they see
Humans wishing
Other humans harm
Stoking a fire that is
Trying to burnout
Causing an inferno
Of actions
Of words
Unbecoming of
All religious faiths
What would the Almighty say
If he was here now
Would he be proud
Of the fighting
Of the hate consuming people
Of us being divided
As humans
What would he say
Or
Would he cry for his children
Shake his head
Turning his back
On this creation
Of *uck ups
Going home
Leaving us in our mess

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Redo This Life Over”

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If I had a chance
To rewind
I would like to go back
To the beginning
Where I could
Make better choices
Have more courage
Discover my talents sooner
Chase my ambitions
In life
Find my soulmate
Missing all the misfits
That misfired
And
Be more of a beast
In this world
Learning as many languages
Traveling the world
Discovering the true
Meaning of life
Because I know
This is not living
Getting up for a 9 to 5
Sitting in traffic
Repeating it
Over and over again
This hustle and bustle
Of life is not supposed to be
Because what I feel
This is
Is purgatory

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Testing Testing 1 2 3”

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When it was time for me to speak
My voice went out on strike
It decided not to show up
I opened my mouth
Nothing came out
My throat was so dry
No water could help
Every time I opened
My mouth
I choked on air
I was struggling with each breath
All I could push out
Was a squeak
A little peep
I felt like
A bad Verizon commerical
Entrapped me
I kept hearing
In my head
Can you hear me now
And
By their expression
They could not
I was frustrated
I was panicked
How could
Something I do everyday
Such an easy task
Be so hard now
My chest hurt
My throat dry
My head is spinning
I need a nap
I am so tired
I am tapping out
Hopefully tomorrow
Will be a better day

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Tears From The Heart”

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I could not be
The girl
I used to be
Crying over him
Was useless
Because he never saw me
I was only a possession
To him
So I had to change who
He saw me to be
His victim
I played it
One too many times
Until that last time
That was
When he let his guard down
Turning his back on me
I saw my chance
I took my revenge
I crept up behind him
Emptying out
The hurt
The hate
The betrayal
He left within me
Showing the strength
Of my rage
He built inside of me
He promised forever
Only to deceive me
Well this was his time
To get what was coming
To him
Breaking hearts
Just because
There is nothing
Better to do
Will be a downfall
When a person is at
A breaking point
Feed up with
The games being played
With them
Just
Be 100
And
Stay 100
There is no reason to lie
To anybody

-Yellowbonewonda

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“You Have Choices”

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You are allowed
To make it
Or
Not make it
So
What is your choice
When you get lost
Do you ask for help
Do you get directions
Do you continue walking
Further losing yourself
Do you stop where you are
Waiting for someone
To come to your rescue
Or
Do you just give up
Subcoming to your mental defeat
Your choice
Your decision
Whether you do it or not
But
You can not keep
Getting mad at everyone else
They did not stop you
You did
Take responsibility
For your choice
Or
Lack of choice
Because
The most unnerving thing to hear
Is when someone says
They had no choice
Everyone chooses a path
In life
Making choices
Left or right
Up or down
Stay in line
Stay in the middle
Go outside the line
Or
Make a choice
Not to make a choice
Stop your complaining
No one owes you nothing
No one is to blame
Or
To congratulate
On your failures
Or
On your accomplishments
But you
Because your choices
Your life
Good
Bad
Or
Lack there of
The decision was yours
From day one to make

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Cast Your Fears Aside”

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If you have been a caged bird
All of your life
Afraid to leave
To fly away
Even when
The lock has be removed
The cage door is left open
That is not your fault
That was your circumstance
But it can be your fault
If you pass it down
Through your lineage
The fear of freedom
Times have changed
From back then
To now
It is not their cross to bare
Let your children
Be fearless
Because
If you had
Known that type of freedom
The wind beaneath your wings
Soaring through the open skies
Gliding fearlessly
Over mountains
Do you think that you would have stayed
Locked up as a caged bird
Or
Would you have fought for your freedom
Some will never know
Because
They have clipped
Their wings
Even now
Conditioning theirselves
Not want freedom
Teaching theirselves
To panic about the unknown
Refusing to spread their wings
Allowing their terror
To paralyze them
And
To not take a chance
To taste real freedom
Caged bird
Do you hear me
You are free
Fly
Soar
Be happy
Teach your future children
This feeling
That no cage
Can keep
A free spirit
From its freedom

-Yellowbonewonda

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“Now I Am Not Replaceable”

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Are you happy
With your gold digger
The one you left
Me for
The pass around @ss
Who’s in your pockets
Taking all of your cash
See you left a good one
To get a hood one
Now you calling
Begging for another chance
I never asked you
To give me money
To buy me exotic things
Or
To go on expensive trips
I was happy being with you
All I needed from you
Was for you to give me
100 percent
The same
I was giving to you
Since the day
We agreed to be exclusive
Be in this relationship
And
I am angry that
You lied when you told me
You wanted to settle down
You had no intention
Because you waited only
For a few years to pass
To start looking
Into our neighbor’s backyard
Thinking the grass was greener
On the other side
So why are you not happy
With my replacement
You said
I was not special enough
I asked for too much
To be respected
Treated with dignity
As your queen
I told you in the beginning
I refuse to
Wait in line
Waiting for your touch
What I wanted was
Until death parts us part
One woman
One man
No one else
So
NO
You do not get another chance

-Yellowbonewonda

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